I'm not bothering to unpack much from my bags, because in another couple of days I'll be hopping to Malaysia again for yet another church camp. It's almost like instinct hahaha I know what I need and what I don't need now. Okay I shouldn't be speaking as though I'm doing this all my life or it's my job or something, but 3 camps in a month is really a lot. There might be an extension to the trip though, although I'll only know within the next few days.

And I'm seizing maximum opportunities to capture the after-camp highs! Trying to remind everyone what they've learnt and trying to instill something that will hopefully be lasting for the future. I'm in the kind of state where you tell me anything now and I am all ready to firmly believe in it! Haha I've had people reminding me that I've just finished two camps where the presence of God was just so very evident, I shouldn't be unfazed by anything now! Which is kinda true, there's important work to be done that needs follow-up and everything.

On another note, I completely missed GAPS for the second school term consecutively. I didn't even keep track of the dates! But it's not that important right, it's just modules classification and whatever else. Oh well bah, the school should send reminder emails for these kinds of things closer to the date!!!

So I managed to tune myself to the correct frequency in time for the Singapore territorial youth camp, and it's been a great blessing for me as what I've been anticipating all month! I think it was rather difficult for me, because I just came back from an equally amazing Malaysian youth camp and so many things touched me over there. And the dust had barely settled, I'm still mesmerized by God's miracles and all the wonderful testimonies at Malaysia, they're still going on and on in Facebook, how to focus on Singapore??? But I kinda forgot that when you expect something to be as big as you expect it to be, God will always surpass that expectation and He'll be like "I told you so, but this is even better" because it's really hard to limit Him. 

Many many roles to take on at this camp, and when I reflect now I keep thinking that I should have said this or I should have done that, but nahh I think I should just be thankful for the way that God has used me over the four days. The theme is on worship, and without a doubt the praises were mind-blowing, every session was Spirit-filled. I'm totally exhausted partly because of too much tears! Each time I minister to someone at the mercy seat I think I cry more than the person does, because it really is such a blessing and an encouragement to hear each of their heartfelt prayer requests and testimonies. Could almost feel each pleading and each cry for God, and that's what keeps me going to serve and to bring more lives to Him. 

And now I'm falling sick and catching a cold. Voice is whiny and weird. One more camp to go for June, and that's in a few days' time. I am getting a bit disillusioned by camps, although in a positive way, for all the euphoria that they bring and all the good things that are constantly happening. In some sense when I break camp I need time to get back to life normally, yet at the same time anticipate good things. But it's just high and high and high, hardly a breather. Haha okay I really ought to get to bed, tired out totally. 

There was the monthly leaders' meeting today and my mind was constantly distracted and never focusing on what we were discussing on hand! Haha somehow or rather my mind kept going back to whatever happened at Malaysia camp. I'm still in the thought frame of all the testimonies and stories and blessings and needs for the Malaysian territory. It's almost as though whatever that's happening in Singapore is suddenly not as important to me now! Horror of horrors haha I had to keep reminding myself that I have a cell group here, I am in Central Corps, I serve here I lead worship here blah blah! 

But it was a good break for me, to be able to distance myself from what's happening back home and to go outside and to see the needs of the other part of the territory. It didn't exactly made it easier for me to find purpose in my ministry haha, but I'm just glad that I can get out for a while and not be so fixated on my cell group or mentees all the time. And now I wish that the camp had been longer, or that I should have followed one of them back to their corps and stay there for another two weeks or so! I definitely need a longer break. I wanna go overseas and be some itinerant ministry worker, serving wherever God sends and wherever has a need haha! Maybe it could happen haha. But more importantly, I have just a few days to get into the right frame of mind for Singapore youth camp. Have a message to prepare and worship songs that need inspiration. 

Right now talking to all the new friends on Facebook, because they're all suffering from camp withdrawal symptoms like me. I owe them photos which I've yet to put up. There's really no greater privilege than to serve in this huge family. What gives me the equipping and the qualification, I really have no idea, and I really just want to thank God for his grace and blessings in my life. 

Safely back from the Malaysian youth camp hours ago, and as always it's a great blessing to be a part of God's big family of believers! Had a tremendous time over there, loads of stories to tell. So my visit to Kuching and to the Tamil camp two years ago while I was working for Youth Dept helped familiarized me quite a bit, because I got to meet up with old friends who've grown up and have moved on to an even bigger ministry for God. And getting to meet new people and worshiping and leading alongside them, surely this has to be one of the most awesome privileges in the world! They were running in dizzying circles during worship, and we've managed to come up with actions for the theme song Nothing Is Impossible hahaha. Obstacle course made me feel like it was army all over again, and I'm not that unfit! Gosh so many things to praise God for the camp.

My nose is peeling slightly from prolonged periods under the sun. And I still feel as though I'm hanging the name lanyard over my neck. The thing about Malaysian camp, the way I try to compartmentalize, is that it's almost completely detached from the Singapore side, which meant that I'm going there more like a facilitator than an actual committee plan leader. Which also meant that I'm constantly encouraged and enriched by all the good things that the Salvation Army is doing up in Malaysia. The past two weeks made me feel like I'm a social worker! First the AG Home rental, then Gracehaven worship, and now youths mostly from the Malaysian homes. I really really do see the need, and I'm really amazed at the testimonies of transformations and changed hearts.

Kinda made me almost reluctant to come back to Singapore haha, because all of a sudden what I'm doing back here doesn't seem all that challenging compared to Malaysia! Hahaha but I cannot compare in this way la, it's two completely different ball games and each has its own strengths and challenges. I've got about four to five more days to get into the right frame for Singapore youth camp! Totally different situation, and I'm hoping that I don't get disillusioned by the multitudes of camps I'm going for! Right now I'm catching up with the work that came in while I was away. Have a feeling that they're going to be very active on Facebook adding friends and tagging photos.

Gotta crash to bed, absolutely tired out.