I'm not doing particularly very well this semester, haha majority of the assignments and tests and essays that I've gotten back so far were a huge SIGH. It almost makes it not worthwhile to have spent so much time on it. But aargh whatever, it's time to study for exams! A few days ago I just learnt that you cannot S/U those modules that are within your own faculty!! All along I thought that you only can't S/U the major modules only, and I was still happily thinking that if anything I can make use of that option because I haven't S/U-ed anything since I started my undergraduate course! Oh my gosh all of a sudden I have to study really hard and not be complacent. And I have two more small assignments which are bothering me. I just can't wait to get them over and done with, but at the same time I feel like I want to ace them because of all the poor results so far, so it's taking longer than usual.
Minor updates of the weekend included Gracehaven worship service, which as always is ever a blessing for me to be there. I think the dynamics of Gracehaven changed a lot since I first went there, but it's still great to be part of something greater. And the topic for that evening was the 40 Days of Purpose topic on how we were each made to last forever, so I said something like "life is a dress rehearsal for the Kingdom of heaven". But Colonel Downer went up and said something to the effect of "life is not a rehearsal because you only get one chance at it, so live it well". Hahaha I am slightly puzzled at the antithetical conclusions! Both makes sense to me and I don't think she was rebuking me when she said that, but it got me panicked slightly because I almost thought I said the wrong thing! Anyone with the theology to help me hahaha email me please.
And the last update have to do with the cell members. Been trying to go out with them for breakfasts and dinners as much as my time allows. It's supposed to help me slightly too, because I'll ask them out for breakfasts before Sunday service, hence it forces me to wake up earlier and be on time for service too! And have been trying to support in prayer and in all the "pastoral visits" as much as I can. Sometimes I think it's a burden and a chore, other times I thank God for the opportunity to be a part of their lives. I think the greatest joy comes from growth and positive influence, and when they begin to trust you for the little things it makes it all the more worthwhile. Someone told me somewhere that cell leaders have to get down and dirty with the members all the time, so would the meal times be considered down and dirty? Heh! At the beginning of this year I said will commit to one more year (or was it one last) of cell group leading, which will most likely extend beyond that I think hahaha but I'm refusing to think any further than the end of this year. Because it forces me to think of how much I can achieve within this time that I have, and it's more effective and more goal-oriented and such..