I seem to devote this entire blog into describing Luke and his crazy clown acts... I think I can write an entire book titled "Anecdotes of Luke Wee" But never mind... Here's the lowdown on that clown so far:~

1) He threw bananas into the spinning fan in class after school. I wasn't there to witness this wonderful spectacle, but I did get to see the wonderful effects on the walls. Those bananas got splattered EVERYWHERE and they oxidised overnight to form black, solid compounds.

2) Recess time, everybody was eating. There was this remnant of bird faeces on the table, and for a good reason everybody avoided sitting at that place. But he had this brilliant idea to sit directly to face that birdshit, then he had the right mind to comment about it. "It looks like a black and white dancing man, I think it's waving to me!!"

3) His pants is held on by a miracle. He wears his pants so low, that it is literally hanging on his thighs. Halfway through Maths, he decided to pull out his shirt, so essentially, his entire butt was in view for everyone. And the colour of his undies? Bright red.

Listening to a new CD from Hillsong Youth now, entitled "More Than Life"... Awesome!! I would gladly recommend anyone to go get the CD, coz it's very energetic and vibrant, with meaningful songs typical of Hillsong... Me and Luke are stuck on "One Way" currently...

A lot of new tunes are going through my head this week. Firstly, there's that new song from delirious?, titled "Majesty (Here I Am)", then there's also "Jesus' Blood"... delirious? always writes very meaningful songs... Next is Tim Hughes' "Consuming Fire" and "Here I am To Worship" and "Maker Of All Things" and "Once Again" and "Jesus, You Alone"... Tim Hughes is one worship leader which I also quite like... "Here I Am To Worship' has always been my typical classic praise'n'worship song... Marty Sampson and Joel Houston are thrown into the fray as well... I've been a bit tired of Hillsong lately, but when I started to dig out all their old songs, it all starts to apply to my life on a lot of things...

I'm getting very little sleep (or almost no sleep) this week. I just started counting... If I were to sleep a minimum of 7 hours each day, then I would have owed myself 45 hours altogether this week. Whoa... that statistic amazed me... Practically 2 full days worth of sleep not fulfilled!! My reaction time is stupidly slow, my response time is stupendously weak...

I'm including a short little story titled "Heaven & Hell—The Real Difference"... It will make you think quite a bit... Yar... Going to grab some sleep for myself...


A man spoke with the Lord about heaven and hell. The Lord said to the man, "Come, I will show you hell." They entered a room where a group of people sat around a huge pot of stew. Everyone was famished, desperate and starving. Each held a spoon that reached the pot, but each spoon had a handle so much longer than their own arm that it could not be used to get the stew into their own mouths. The suffering was terrible.

"Come, now I will show you heaven," the Lord said after a while. They entered another room, identical to the first the pot of stew, the group of people, the same long-handled spoons. But there everyone was happy and well-nourished.

"I don't understand," said the man. "Why are they happy here when they were miserable in the other room and everything was the same?"

The Lord smiled. "Ah, it is simple," he said. "Here they have learned to feed each other."

Mrs Pang decided to pull me aside for a little chat yesterday. It wasn't anything serious, just a form teacher to student chat. She said that I was doing an "awesome job as a monitor" and that I'm "very dedicated to the job." Then she said something like I had "obvious leadership talents" and other stuff. Not that I'm complaining, but it sounded very unlikely of me. I personally don't think I'm "dedicated to the job", but hey, it's a compliment, so I thought I better say thanks...

I'm faced with a tremendous stress and pressure these few days. There's plenty of homework to be done, and tests coming up. Not just that. There's still a lot of admin stuff to be done. Being a class monitor puts you with such "benefits". Everyday, there's a pile of admin stuff that has to be cleared and planning in advance for many activities as well. Pointless tasks like updating of class notice board and class cleanliness are also given to me, and almost every teacher is adding to my workload by asking me to run errands and other stupid tasks.

Monitorial duties really suck. I'm the person automatically assigned with the most duties, and in the absence of a teacher, I'm put in charge. Heck, even if the teachers are around, even if I'm not supposed to be in charge of the duty, I'm still given the task. Worse still, I'm the one who is held responsible for all damages if I screw up anything. The first person the teacher always wants to look for is always me.

I'm afraid of breaking down from the pressure. Sooner or later, I'll crack from the stress, but to what tolerance, I don't know. Then again, I'm not really feeling the pressure. I'm FACED with the pressure, yet not really AFFECTED by the pressure. Werid...

I think I must be looking quite bad to other people. Ngoh said I don't looked myself, Yan Peng kept asking me that night whether I'm okay or not, then Cheryn wrote me a nice letter asking how I was coping with. Thank God I have such caring people... And I have a wonderful class committee to help with the workload: people like Basuki, Jun Rong, Jie Yu, Keat Fu, Han Wei... All of them wonderful people...

Been trying to keep my sanity with all the added pressure... I'm still quite sane, so I take that as a good sign... Keeping myself happy...

Here's a pic of another duckie, enjoy...

Eh... Michelle sent this pic to me... Thanks Michelle... Anybody wants to name this duck??

I think I'm getting weirder every day.

Recently, Luke started this "CHICKEN WING" phrase. In between socialising with anyone, he'll yell "CHICKEN WINGS" for no apparent reason, effectively derailing any good topic of conversation. Worse, during lessons, when any teachers ask a question, he will invariably proclaim "CHICKEN WINGS" with absolutely no delay. Mrs Pang asked for the name of one desert (Sahara) and Luke went "CHICKEN WING", earning a stare of disbelief from dear old Mrs Pang.

But the stupendous thing is, during meals or lunch with him, I have yet to see him order anything related to chickens, much less chicken wings... Stupendous indeed.

Then there's Cheryn. Ever since I told her that a chicken is made up of 86% water, she's been catching on to the chicken syndrome as well. She'll go "chicken you" and I'll go "duck me", which is quite stupid and lame. But the fortunate thing is, her case with chickens is not so much of an obsession like Luke's...

Now here's the horrendous fact. I'm gradually influenced by these "CHICKEN WINGS"... I caught myself calling my sister a "CHICKEN WING" the other day, then again when I was talking to Yan Peng, and even a few classmates (Dansen, Kwang Han, Jun Yuan) noticed the sudden "CHICKEN WING" tag to my speeches.

Even more bad news. "CHICKEN WINGS" aside, I'm slowly beginning to be fond of ducks. I find myself saying "QUACK QUACK" to everyone I'm meeting. The new email address is signed up with the ID going quacko_quack. Don't ask me why. I was only thinking of Luke, then Cheryn a little later, then quacko_quack came to my mind.

Yup. Bird flu. "CHICKEN WING" is giving way to "QUACK QUACK". As far as I'm concerned, "QUACK QUACK" sounds much nicer than stupid "CHICKEN WINGS". Side with the duckies and their quacks, people...

That was my problem with birds. But there's still another snippet in my life that is slowly becoming quite alarming.

I find myself starting to miss people. I mean, if you just seen a person two days ago, chances are you won't think so much of that person in that two days. Not for my case.

Over the weekends, I missed practically everyone that I know of. In the past, I would never think so much of a person if I haven't seen him/her for more than a month (at the very least...)

But for now, I missed everybody. Heck, I would never dream of saying this, but I actually long and yearn to see somebody I know BADLY. The hours seem to stretch forever, and I'm still longing to see a lot of people. I missed many people... I missed Luke (OH MY GOODNESS!!), Yi Cheng, Cheryn, Yan Peng (haven't had any contact with her for quite long already...), Dansen, Dora, Little Andre, Ngoh, Ben & Lizzie, Ali Wong, Michelle, Biru, Yurong, Freddy FERD, Glen, Kwang Han, Mrs Pang (OH MY GOODNESS 2!!), Lai Hanwei (AARGH!!!) and many, many others...

And people around me are not helping either. "Don't miss me!" is the classic whenever people see me. Next on the list is "I know you can't wait to miss me, but I've got to go now". Whatever...

Perhaps the single person I've missed most is Shannon... Sometimes I still feel it is a dream (or nightmare), that she'll just pop me with a call or something... I guess it is still hard to accept her death (it's about three months now). It's still as big a blow, but things HAVE to go on. So be it, she's enjoying her lifetime with Christ anyway, why be so hampered by it?

A lot of times I'm wondering what would happen if I didn't get the chance to say "I Love You" to people close around me. I think a lot of people will be missing out on MY love for OTHERS (eh, sounds egoistical). At least with Shannon's case, I DID say I love her before she left for Copenhagen...

I think I have to begin to express my love to others. Starting with my family first, then to close friends, then to everyone who knows me. Eh, there's still THAT GIRL whom I've yet to say "I Love You" to...

Whatever it is, I'll start soon. Love needs to go round somehow... And I'll try to keep sane for a while...