Today, I slept till 12 noon. Then my mum brought home lunch for me. Then I went to Ang Mo Kio to find my sister. Then I went down to Vivo to get handwashing gel. Then I went to Sentosa. It's the first time I'm paying $3 to enter Sentosa, because my dad haven't passed me the Family Staff Pass yet. Yvonne was the cashier haha. Then I went to Beach Station. Then I took photos with everyone who were working there today. Then I went to see my dad's Animal Encounters show. Then I saw my dad, who was part of the show presenters. Then I went back to Beach Station. Then I went down to Siloso Beach. Then I got out of Sentosa and went to J8. Then I came home.

I forgot to mention. I think I can go to Pulau Tekong and set up a birdwatching club over there. There's a small mangrove there with loads of birds. There's forests so there are many forest biirds too. I can see eagles and hawks soaring on the thermals everyday. There's a lot of starlings and swifts and swallows and sunbirds too. And of course, there's my favourite magpie robin. I think the other day I saw a pied fantail while on a 3km route march.

I'm feeling rather melancholic at this point. I can't quite place it, but it's just affecting me. I'm sick and tired of trying to force something out of nothing. I'm so disillusioned that I don't know what in the world is happening now. And I can't believe myself that I am still putting efforts to try to perservere on. Maybe it's time for me to let go. The other day I was looking out into the stars at night (Tekong's nightview of stars is fantastic), and I realised how insignificant I was. It's not helping if I keep getting mixed signals, or something else happily comes along to divert my attention and force me to rethink my priorities. Right now, my personal promise to myself is not to do anything and let things take care of itself. Whatever is going to be, will be.

And oh, some pictures from Sentosa today.


With Lavania.


With Aini.


With Shuba and Fhaizal.


My dad with a White-Bellied Sea Eagle during his Animal Encounters show.


With Jaya, my favourite Transport person! Apart from the other pretty girl, that is.


With Wendi!


Merlion bells! I finally took a photo of it.


And here's my favourite orange train.

Shi Hui complains that everytime she comes to this blog address, she sees "9 hours to army enlistment". Yup, it's been 2 weeks since I last blogged. If that wasn't self-explanatory, I'm currently serving my National Service now. Today is the first time I'm booking out from Pulau Tekong, after a 2-week adjustment stay over there. On the whole, I would say I'm quite happy and I had loads of fun! Okay I'm going to try and tab this entry into point form.

• ENLISTMENT DAY - Matthew drove me and my mum and my sis down to Pasir Ris Interchange, together with Alicia and Yurong and later on Ben Wong.
  
• ISSUED ITEMS - I think SAF is super duper rich! We're issued almost every single thing. Clothes, uniforms, shoes, toiletries, and all the army equipment. My No. 4 uniform nametag says "G Y LOW". I like all the green green stuff.
• FOOD - Superb! It's not like some first-class buffet, but it's above average. I don't understand why some buggers can complain about lousy food. The only thing I don't like is when they cook beansprouts because it's always half-raw.
  
• LODGING - I get a cupboard and a bed and a mosquito net. My mosquito net has one huge hole which is getting bigger and bigger everyday.
• TOILETS - No hot water, but I don't mind cold water too. 50 people sharing the shower cubicles and you bathe naked. Funky, but all of us are guys.
  
• PLATOON MATES - Generally nice people! I've got primary and secondary school mates, or people I know vaguely from somewhere. I've got a fellow Sentosa colleague in my platoon too! There's this guy that looks like Doraemon. But I'm a bit annoyed at some idiots. Gaargh there will sure be one or two buggers.
• BUNK MATES - All wonderful people! My buddy gossips with me. We play Uno kids version with Winnie the Pooh pictures on the cards during our free time. We investigate supernatural demonic alarm clocks that ring in the middle of the night.
  
• LOAD BEARING VEST - We all have a LBV to store our rifle magazines and grenades and whatever else. Complete with helmet for full outfield gear. I think it's way cool!
  
• PHYSICAL TRAININGS - Weights, gym, running, chin-ups, exercises. I've got muscles!! It was tough at first but I'm used to it already. A bit of aches, but I'm stronger now! ROAR.
• ROUTE MARCHES - We completed 3km marches thrice this week, so it's 9km in total. In our helmets and LBVs and dummy rifles. And singing army songs. I like Steam Roller Baby best! And we must be the only platoon singing Ten Green Bottles and other nursery rhymes.
  
• INSURANCE AND MEMBERSHIP - I signed myself up for insurance and I'm a SAFRA member. Blee.
• SINGAPORE DISCOVERY CENTRE - We visited that place. Quite cool, but I don't know what the exhibitions are about most of the time.

And I realised that after spending 2 weeks on Pulau Tekong, I feel so cut off from the mainland. I expected to see flying cars and enviro-buildings and high technology on the roads, but everything is still the same. Went for youth service after I reached Pasir Ris. And I realised too that it was the first time I was seeing girls my age in 14 days. There are a few females on Tekong, but they're either specialists or the cookhouse aunties.

I'm tired. Thanks to Yurong and Tammy and Chiew Yee and Shermin, whom I called on one fine night to pretend to my bunk mates that I've got many many girlfriends to contact. I'm going to sleep and wake up tomorrow to enjoy my weekend off, before I go back into Tekong on Sunday. If you want to know more, call me out for lunch or something.

My army enlistment is in about 9 hours exactly. Quite horrifying right? This whole week I haven't really been thinking about army at all, and I'm certainly not the least bit worried. You can ask my mum. She's the one fussing over everything and making sure that I've got everything that I may need and planning everything to be nice and ready. I think my mum knows me best. I don't panic until the very last minute. Haha! I think I became very emo today. Totally not in the mood to do anything. And it's a good thing that my mum has ensured that everything is in order already, or else I'll be in an even more frantic mood by now.

I went out with Eleanor to Toa Payoh this morning. Macs breakfast! Then I went to Din Tai Fung with my mum and my sister. Then at night I went out with Khairi, Jas, Qiling, Annie and Chiew Yee to eat at Spaggedies in town.

I'm kinda nostalgic actually. I'm not so worried about army itself, but more of the things that I've left behind and the things that I've left unsettled. Suddenly I realise that whatever I planned six months ago didn't really materialise. I've got many plans and actions and goals that I set out to do this year, but somehow I've never been able to achieve all of it. So sad! Can I defer my enlistment for another 2 months?

Anyway, I found out that Cheng Wei is enlisting on the same day and same time as me. Benny too, but different time. And I heard Chee Jun too. And there's Az's friend, Helmi, whom I haven't met but she match-made the two of us already. Blee. I'm not going to be lonely. I'm going to make new friends tomorrow! That should be exciting.

Going army tomorrow. Going army tomorrow. That means I'm older and it's time for me to act my age and be all macho manly.

But mostly, I'm still sad. I feel so downright insignificant at times, but yet there are those special moments that uplift me from my darkest moodswings. Yet, I still don't know what's happening. This is so frustrating. Go away I wish you good riddance! But still, take care all the same.

Oh. Thanks Annie for your red red rose, and thanks to all those who sent their well wishes.

Okay! Today was a both a happy and sad day. Went back to Sentosa to return all my uniforms and staff pass and nametag today, and also to go beach and play soccer! Haha there was somebody new working at Sentosa Station, so I have to explain to her that I was an ex-colleague of hers and that I'm here to return my uniform! And she looked so suspicious of me because she probably thought that I was out to cheat her by not paying for the island admission, and it didn't help when my staff pass was spoilt and it says ERROR PLEASE PROCEED TO TICKETING COUNTER when I try tapping it! But then I saw Farhan, so that's how I got in. Then I returned my uniform and nametag to Rani! Then she told me to keep the staff pass for the day cos I'm back at Sentosa to play.

Yup. Then I went straight to Siloso Beach to wait for the rest of them. Devin came first, then Xin Yan and Alicia and Vincent and Alvin and Jeremy and Syafiq! Zaw joined us later, and so did Irin and Shanaz and Farhan and Joanne and Lavania at different timings after their work. Whee I like listing people's names I think it's the best thing to do when you're sleepy. So basically it was just soccer and frisbee and volleyball the whole afternoon in the sun! Yay I like my tan now it's a very nice shade of red. I think I'm sunburnt but it's not that serious.

Then somewhere in the middle, me and Devin went all the way to Koufu just to eat. And it was sort of a chance for me to say my goodbyes too because I didn't got a chance to meet all my Koufu people. Haha Koufu is like, infested with flies, and there was this cleaner who kept swiping at flies in front of people eating, and he's very accurate. Wow.

Anyway, I made another new friend today! Hahaha I was trying to flirt with the girl working at New Zealand ice cream, then she gave me an extra half-scoop of ice cream! Then later on Xin Yan bought ice cream from her too and I was lending her money and I think she got that suspicious "is that girl your girlfriend" look! Whee let's face it I'm so charming and cute. Then then I met Suting again after not seeing her for so long! Yay!

And I'm very happy today. My insidious plan to be nasty sort of backfired. It's not really "backfired" actually, it's just that something extraordinary happened. I really didn't expect it. And I certainly wasn't ready for something like that. It surprised me. And it made me happy. That's all it matters.

Yay!

Hmm. Today was another sad day cos it's Aaron's farewell cos he's leaving for Australia for 5 months. Now I'm permanently stuck in some nostalgic and emo mood. I'm leaving for army on Friday, but till then I have outings and lunches and dinners with many people. So sad!

Anyway I met Yurong at Pasir Ris for our long-awaited outing in the afternoon. Then we went down to Tampines Mall to walk around and eat desserts. Yurong had a chocolate ice kacang without any other ingredients, and it tasted like iced milo. Haha! Then we went to Changi Airport early to play with the luggage trolley. Met up with the rest of the people who were there to send Aaron off too, hung around, took photos, said goodbye. Blee in the end he's flying off earlier than my army enlistment date. Then ate fries at Burger King before Matt drove us all home in the corps van.

I think she's abolutely gorgeous. But at the same time I found myself tremendously pissed off at her. After a while my hope turned into a certain desolation, but again I realised I can never fully reconcile those thoughts of resignation. Sigh.

And I had a good catching up with Tammy today. Yippee!

SUNDAY 11 MARCH 2007, YESTERDAY.

I did ticketing first shift with Shuba! I think it's the first time I see so many people in Sentosa at 6.45am in the morning. Cafe Del Mar had some late-night event I think, so everyone wanted to buy tickets to catch the first train back. And it was quite a screw-up day at ticketing! I had many damaged cards. And Shuba voided transactions for me. And I printed tickets before a credit card transaction was approved and the card wasn't supported and the guest had to use another card so my input of card number was wrong. And Shuba gave wrong receipt to guest. And she accidentally pressed NETS instead of Credit Card too. My packing list was super long, and I had to write long stories on my reports. But ticketing for the rest of the day was quite good! Yay.

I made a new friend yesterday. Her name's Aziza, and she's working at musical fountain and admin planning for the new Songs of the Seas. Weird thing was, she recognised me but I don't find her familiar at all! Anyway her job sounds way cooler than mine. It involves crowd control and doing up the SOPs and guest relations all at the same time! I think one of the greatest satisfactions of my job is having guests or staff remember who you are because you said hi to them or something.

After work I rushed down to corps cos I was leading worship at Gracehaven again. Uncle Bee asked me a week ago to see if I might want to lead again before going army, and of course I said yes because the last time I was there I was deeply touched and painfully reminded of my own fortunate and sheltered surroundings. Anyway, there were me, Yurong, Ming Hui, Matthew and Shermin altogether who went. I walked around over there trying to mingle with the youths over there, and they were all friendly enough to "buddy buddy" with me. And there was this boy who kept wanting to give me his shirt with the word ARMY printed across it, because he heard I was going army this week.

The worship itself was simply awesome. By the time we came to the last song (Here I Am To Worship), the kids sang it in their loudest voices, partly because it's a common song to them too. I couldn't hear a single note that was coming from my vocal chords, but I could hear the tumultous singing from the 150 kids. And I started crying onstage when we sang the chorus, because it was simply angelic to hear the voices singing out loud and for the second time at Gracehaven, I followed the children's singing instead of leading. Absolutely amazing, especially if you consider their family and social backgrounds. I don't even want to go into whether they mean what they sang, I'm just contented they even bothered to sing.

MONDAY 12 MARCH 2007, TODAY.

I woke up feeling extremely sad and nostalgic. Today was my last official day at work!! I was doing Guest Relations today, which was like the first time I'm doing GR in the past few weeks. Been doing ticketing and rover a lot. The turnstiles and swing-gates were my friends today. And I wrote small notes for every person working at my Beach Station, and for Lavania and Elaine and Shermin too. Then later in the day I wrote notes for Joanne, and this new girl at Beach named Wendi. Oh Wendi was sort of my understudy for today! So weirdly ironic, cos it was my last day today and it was her first day. Hee hee hee I think she very cute cos she can't differentiate right from left! But she's a nice enough girl to leave a nice impression!

I'm very sad today. I told all the people I know from Sentosa (which I met today) that today was my last day. My favourite cleaner auntie kept wishing me all the best. I opened the swing-gate for some of the Luge people. I said bye to the Koufu malay stall boss. I made new friends with some of the attractions people, cos they came to Beach Station for lunch and I just randomly talked to them. Train drivers Ali and Wilson and Paul and Han Wah and CJ! CJ gave me a farewell hug. And the 7-Eleven people wished me all the best too. The Coffee Bean assistant manager shook my hand. Oh the Coffee Bean girl that both Elton and me think is very pretty waved at me! Some of the Images of Singapore and/or Songs actors said goodbye too! Joshua from my dad's department refused to acknowledge me because he scared I report him to my dad. And probably a lot more, it's just that I can't remember off-hand now.

Judith is back today! She's my big big big boss cos she's Admissions manager, and she just came back from a 6-week MC. The only reason why I talk so much to her was because she's quite good friends with my dad. And it's a long time since I last saw Judith and Sess (my assistant manager) together! Sigh. I shook hands with Sess!! Hahaha! Had a nice talk with Judith. AAHHH! I'm going to miss everyone and everything about Sentosa! I still haven't said half the goodbyes I want to say to all the people I know yet! There's still the transport people and Sakae Sushi and Koufu and Luge and Underwater World and more attractions people and Songs people! I'm so sad.

OH OH OH! I didn't mention about my eyecandy! I wrote her a letter telling her that she was my eyecandy, and I hesitated for quite long before passing it to her! Then when I told her it was my last day at work today she was so shocked, and I very embarrassed too so I just ran away to hide! But the most awesome thing was, when she ended work she came with her Sakae Sushi friends and she requested to take a photo with me! OH GOSH!! And I gave her my email in the letter too.

After work, I guided Subra through his Brinks forms, then was writing a letter for Wendi! Then went to meet Jeremy and Vincent and Farhan and Xin Yan, cos we were all going for steamboat to celebrate my last day. Hui Mian, Devin, Irin and Alvin were already there at Bugis waiting for us! The steamboat was quite good, except that I think the spicy mala soup is super spicy and you can't really feel the aircon. Then fooled around taking photos and videos! I wore Irin's Arabian head-dress thing, which was meant for her dinner and dance outfit. Then we took a long walk from Bugis to Peace Centre because they wanted to play pool, but me and Farhan and Xin Yan decided to go home instead so we walked again to Dhoby Ghaut.

They gave me a train model of my beloved orange train! So sweet! I didn't mention it just now, so I'll say it now. I took the orange train back to Sentosa Station after ending work today. And I was very glad it was the orange train because that meant that I took the orange train for one last time while I was still in my carrot uniform! Anyway my orange train is making loads of creaking noises while in operation. Uncle Alex (train driver) says each train costed about $4 million!! Oh yar! Thanks to Elaine and Lavania for their super ugly photo of me too! Elaine helped me take a silly photo using the new info counter camera thing which allows them to print Islander cards on the spot, complete with the member's photo! Then she found my photo by chance the other night, so she printed out!! Horrendous!

Working at Sentosa has been a wonderful experience. I think I learnt a lot more about interaction with people and about different operating practices and machinery and stuff like that. I discovered that I actually do have a nice personality to suit the service line! Let's face it. I'm so outgoing and fun and wild and polite and courteous and helpful and nice! Maybe I may consider working there instead of teaching hahahaha. Today someone told me that farewells are part and parcel of life. So even though I'm still sad and reluctant to leave Sentosa, it's something I must face! But I'll still be going back one of these days before army to return my uniform and staff pass and whatever else that belongs to Sentosa property.

OHHH!!! My eyecandy just added me on MSN!!!!! And she sent me the photo that she took with me. Okay since she already knows about the whole eyecandy thing already, I'll just introduce my "new friend"! Haha! Her name's Zarraphina, which sounds vaguely like Seraphina whom I knew when I was her OGL! How many times have I mentioned the word "new friend" this year? So many people to meet! Maybe I shall aim to know at least 2 billion of the world's population in my lifetime. That's two-thirds of the world right? Okay.

Time to sleep!

Ticketing again today! Yay! I like. Because I can handle cash as if they are mine, and I can people-watch and I can answer phone calls and I can watch the CCTV and I can play announcements and I can walkie and I can talk rot to the guests without them complaining about a waste of time. Very busy today. It was sort of like a mini Chinese New Year. Except that I was peeved off a few times. But it's okay!

And today was Ken's last day at work. He's going army one day before me! The Imbiah Station people planned some farewell party for him, and they came down to our Station to take photos and say goodbye and stuff like that. So sad! That was in a way a foreshadow of my own farewell on Monday. I don't want to resign from work and go army.

Elton told me halfway during work that he spotted some cute girls in bikinis outside our Station, so I deserted my ticketing counter just to go see them with Elton. We walked by Coffee Bean and they weren't there. Then we went to 7-Eleven and there they were, 4 or 5 of them in super skimpy bikinis buying drinks, and absolutely oblivious to the fact that everyone else in 7-Eleven were wearing more layers of cotton than they were. But yes they're cute! Minus the fact that I would never ever go out with them because I don't like girls prancing around almost-naked.

Anyway it's quite a common sight at Beach Station. We get topless guys trying to board our train all the time and we have to ask them to put on their shirts. We see girls in bikinis taking the beach trams all the time too. Hahaha my job's kinda hazardous actually. If I see a cute girl I'll try and flirt with her and make the effort to joke around and say goodbye and yada yada. But nah. No bikini babes for me.

My mum is going to help me buy extra underwear before I go army! Yesh my mum buys my underwear because I'm lazy to get them myself. She's freaking out because I haven't gotten half the stuff that I need! But there's very few things that I need! The list just told me to bring really trivial stuff like alarm clock and toiletries and nail clipper and watch. Silly stuff like that. Then there's another longer list that states everything that the army will provide. Oh shoots since when do I ever panic about packing for a long stay?? I figured I'll probably take half an hour of shopping to gather all the stuff I need, then I'll dump everything into a bag and I'm ready to go Tekong for 3 weeks. And I'm kinda sad because my dad's away in the US now. On some Sentosa corporate visit to zoos and nature parks over there in Florida. He's not going to be back in time to send me off.

And my mum almost misplaced the admission passes for the visitor's tour!! She anyhow put the letter somewhere and it's kinda fortunate that we found it cos I thought she threw it away already. I can choose to admit 5 people on the day I go army, which is Friday. My mum and maybe my sis are pretty fixed for the visit. Who else wants to go?

On the way back home from Sentosa, I overheard a long telephone conversation from this guy sitting behind me on the bus. I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but he was sitting directly behind me and he's talking loud enough that it's impossible for me to shut out his conversation. Apparently he got into some major trouble in church because he accidentally revealed some bad secrets or something like that. Then I think the girl he was talking to on the phone was in more trouble because she was the instigator or something. Then he was talking about mistrust in his church and unity and fellowship. Anyway the whole phone conversation was very serious! Then I overheard him referring to the girl on the phone as Annie! So I thought that the Annie I know got into some trouble in her church, but she said no, so that means there's another Annie in Singapore!

Okay. I think I'm going crazy.

I wasn't prepared at all today. The thought of the occurence wasn't in my mind. Normally I would have tried to anticipate it, but today was too busy so I didn't bother about it. And when it did happen, I found myself breaking the numerous promises that I gave for myself. Why do I always feel this way?? UGH. Irresistible charms, and I'm silly enough to still fall for them.

First ticketing shift today! Nothing really interesting happened today. The most dramatic incident that I encountered today were these two ladies who were due to perform at Samundar's, but couldn't get there because taxis are not allowed into the roads leading to the beaches. And they were carrying like two huge luggages and one heavy amplifier, so me and Vincent sort of helped them to arrange for the Samundar people to come down with trolleys to fetch their stuff over. I like talking to them because they are very dramatic! Hee hee!

I had this small group of little girls who called me an ostrich because I teased them about their ponytails by hee-haw-hee-hawing at them. I think they're very cute! Yesterday there were huge groups of kids from some learning centre taking our trains from Beach Station, so we just opened the swing-gate to let them all through. And this group of kids called me Santa Claus because I'm very nice to them! Yay!

Ooh I met my eyecandy again today! She has a funny way of waving. It's more like, a jiggle of her wrists and her fingers will move also and she will smile very sweetly! AAHHHH!! And the awesome thing was, only she will bother to wave and smile and say hi to me! The rest of her friends just stare at me waving at her, and then they nod their heads to say hello. I think she likes me!

I met Sabi on the train while I was on break, and we went all the way to Seah Im foodcourt to get lunch for all of our colleagues. I just realised Sabi is very crappy. And she influenced me to go disturb everyone at my Station.

After work, I bumped into Jeremy in the toilet! Then I sat in the pantry with him and Joanne and Elaine and Lavania for like one entire hour because I had nothing better to do. I overslept on the bus and ended up somewhere near SPCA, but thank goodness I had a straight bus back from there to corps. I forgot about my dinner meeting with Captain Hary! So it was just worship practice. Oh I led worship today! Today's my last Friday service before I go into army next week. Again I am worried that I'm not worried at all about my army enlistment. It's not in my mind at all. I'm supposed to be moody and depressed, but I'm still very happy! And with exactly one more week left to go, I still haven't gotten half the stuff that I need. Oh well what the heck. I'll panic the day before.

And I've decided that I'm tired of waiting. I don't know what is happening, and I've made up my mind that I don't really want to know what is going to happen too. I'm going to forget about it and just carry on being happy the way I am, without having to bother about troublesome stuff like this. UGH. I'm so frustrated I want to box your face.

Somehow I think she looks slightly different. Maybe the influence of time and age really does changes to a person. And I can swear she looks a lot more happier than before. No I'm not regretting, and no I'm not despairing either. I'm just happy that she's happy.

Ooh okay! I meant to post an entry yesterday but I fell asleep before I could do that! So here's yesterday. I was on the first ticketing shift! Irin and me were talking about love and relationships and "what would you do if you liked someone" the whole morning. And then she had to go off to do tour of attractions for the new batch of people on training, so I was Beach Station IC!! Whee how cool is that!! But it was relatively peaceful yesterday. I sort of wanted a fight with guests or something, then I'll be the one who will resolve everything and then I can boast to Irin about it later and maybe I'll get promoted or something!! Fat hope.

Then after work, I went down to Sakae Sushi with Irin to meet Vincent and Elton and Devin and Jeremy and Xin Yan and Melissa and Sabi! I saw my eyecandy!! OH MY GOSH I was so excited!! She was on break I think, and she kept going to New Zealand Natural to get ice cream with her friend, so she kept walking up and down where we were sitting. I think she just wants to see me!! And Sakae Sushi wasn't too bad. We all got the buffet and ate ourselves silly. Then me and Vincent went to play luge for one round, and I came down feeling nauseous because luge was so fast and we're full and it was crazy. We played volleyball at the beach after that! And soccer too! Shanaz and Alvin joined us after their work to play too. How long since I played soccer?? On the beach somemore?? I have a horrible scratch on one of my toes.

And today. I'm doing ticketing again! Actually this whole week I'm mostly on ticketing. For some strange reason. But it's okay I get to sit and enjoy the aircon! Oh oh I forgot to mention. I manage to sell those Imbiah packages consecutively for 2 days! For me personally I would never ever buy those packages because I think they are too expensive ($30 and above) and they're not that worth it. But for yesterday and today, I managed to persuade guests to buy the packages! Yay!

Today was a good day because I felt very appreciated. Somehow most of the guests that I interacted with today were all friendly and responsive and they smile at me and they talk to me in an extremely nice manner. Yay I'm very happy! At least I'm not greeting and smiling the whole day without a genuine feeling. Being in the service line means you have to be cheerful even when you're not. But today was good. A lot of Japanese tourists today. Devin went crazy, because he likes Jap girls.

And stupid Devin set me up! We saw my eyecandy coming down from the escalators, and suddenly everyone was like "red hair girl red hair girl!", so I waved to her and went to hide in my ticketing counter because I was shy. And just as she was about to go towards Sakae Sushi, Devin called her, pointed to me and said "HE GOT SOMETHING TO TELL YOU". Then she stood out there looking at me and at Devin and she looked very confused, then I had to tell her nothing and shoo her away. AARRGHH!!! How embarrasing! But the look on her puzzled face was very cute!

I got 4 more days left before I officially end work at Sentosa. I don't really want to resign! WEH.

Okay. Sleeping time! Must rise and shine by 4am again tomorrow.

Okay I'm blogging about yesterday! Let's see. Went to have breakfast with my parents in the morning before going to work. I was on ticketing yesterday. I like ticketing best because you get to sit down and there's aircon, except that it's abit stressful sometimes. I saw my red hair girl again yesterday! I can't wait to go Sakae Sushi on Wednesday! Oh oh oh then I saw this girl sitting outside Coffee Bean with her family, and I thought she looked very cute! But the catch is, she looks really young, like 14-year-old. I told Shuba, and she thinks the girl don't even look 11!! But I still thinks she looks very cute. I don't mind dating a girl that's like, 12? If she doesn't mind, that is. HAHAHA!

Then after work, I rushed down to Night Safari! Qiling managed to get complimentary tickets, so me, Chiew Yee and Khairi joined in since it's free! Was on the MRT with Jeremy all the way to Yishun, because he was heading northwards as well. He's a funky friend. Then I took a taxi from Yishun because I figured Night Safari was probably closer from there than from Sentosa!

Night Safari was quite boring. There's nothing much to see! We took the tram, and Khairi and I like the tram guide's sexy voice. All the animals look bored to death and there are not a lot of them to see anyway too! Then we walked around to see leopards and lions and tigers and bats and monkeys and to some suspension bridge. Then we managed to get ride the tram again because Chiew Yee's friend was working there. And I wanted to take pictures but everywhere was dark and flash photography is prohibited because it will hurt the animals' eyes, so we ended up taking more photos of ourselves than of animals. I don't like to take photos of people I know. I like to take photos of/with people I don't know, or of places or objects or scenery or something else. That's more interesting! Oh I bought some glow-in-the-dark frogs from the souvenir shop! Then I wanted to get this really cool beetle magnet but I didn't want to in the end.



Me, Chiew Yee, Khairi and Qiling. There are more photos here, although it's mostly just the 4 of us. Hee hee hee so superficial and shallow!

You know, after working at Sentosa for the past 2 months or so, I think I've become quite empathetic to people who are working in the service line. Especially those working in hotels and guest services and tourism places and areas like that. Yesterday when I was at the Safari, I tried to be polite to all the staff working there! I tried to address each and every of them by their names on their nametags and smiling at them and saying thank you. I like it when guests address me by my name! Haha the nametag's there for a reason.

I wanna go to Bird Park or Zoo! Yurong you wanna go?

Oh oh! I gave my picture to Preena and she's going to put it on her blog and link me! She's got one long list of her friends' pictures and the accompanying links to their blogs! How cool is that??


Don't you think she looks like some bug??

I'm very sleepy and tired now. I only had 4 hours of sleep the night before! Even my favourite rover shift didn't cheer me up! 8am to 4.30pm, walkie talkie with me, Vincent left me mostly alone up there, met all the usual people working along the beaches. But I'm still sleepy and in a daze.

I met my red hair girl today! I haven't seen her for more than a week already, so naturally I'm all smiles when I saw her coming on the train. She looks darker! I presume that means she went to the beach in her bikini again. EEEEK. I don't like. I will disallow my future girlfriend to go anywhere in a bikini. But then red hair girl is very pretty! Hahaha Vincent is planning a lunch trip to Sakae Sushi, just so that I can go and see her at work. YAY. I can't wait!

I got slightly more than a week left before I officially resign from work. Maybe I'll tell my red hair girl she was my eyecandy for these 2 months! Then I also want to go visit my Luge friends, and the Sakae Sushi people, and the Koufu people, and all the pretty girls working at the IslandLife shops, and the Coffee Bean and 7-Eleven neighbours! I will go visit the transport people and all the train and tram drivers and my bosses who are my dad's friends! OOH I saw my dad's name on the Duty Manager List for today! He's an Island Duty Manager for the day! Oh I will go visit the attractions people at Imbiah, and my dad's workers and everybody I know in Sentosa! I know a lot of people okay!! I'm so popular!

My favourite orange train is back in operation! Orange train had some technical problems about a week ago, and they ran so many trial loops and tests and whatever, but the technicians couldn't find out what's wrong. In the end they had to call the Hitachi engineers from Japan to fix it, and today was the first day it was back! When I saw the orange train drive out from the depot I was very very happy okay!!

Okay here are some pictures from Underwater World the other day.


I'm tougher than a shark!


Blue-spotted ray and some starfish.


Horse-shoe crab!


Huge Arapaima. But they seem so docile.


Japanese Sea Crab! Biggest crab species in the world. Up to 4m!


Leafy seadragon!


Jellyfish! They look like helmets.


Some nice fish #1.


Some nice fish #2.


Tammy wants this diver job!


Jaws!


I think this girl very cute. She smiled at me!


Shuba, Az and Shao Jie!


Wonderful lunch at Koufu.


My orca cap!!

A lot more pictures at Ipernity! Click here.

A'Level results came out today!! I think my own results were phenomenal!! Whoopee yay hooray!! I got A for Literature, B for Geography and Mathematics and C5 for GP. Since when have I ever did that well for any of my common tests or prelims or promos in my entire JC life?? My gosh it was like, the first time I'm seeing an A on my certificate since O'Levels! Look at what crappy results I've gotten for 2 whole years!!

I'm very very very happy! I'm happy for my Lit because I've been aiming for A and it's even more special because I never take Lit in secondary school before!! I'm happy for Geog because it's my favourite subject and I've been getting lousy grades because I refuse to study and now I realise how stupid that was! I'm happy for Maths too because I've never passed Maths at all in my JC life and I got a B! I'm very happy!!

But my GP grades was a super duper downer. Who in the world scores well for ENGLISH Literature and C5 for General Paper??? I met Mr Whitby, and he said excellent for the Lit, but terrible for GP!! Hahaha it's so terrible that he's already heard of it even before I told him. AARGH!! And then Ms Kao came and remind me that I was in top 10% for GP prelims, so she wanted to know what happened!! AARRGHHH!!!!

Maybe it's because I didn't tie my GP scripts together securely, then some pages flew off while it was on the way to Cambridge. Maybe I wrote Jaslyn Wong as my name and she got the A1 instead. Maybe I forgot to do the AQ and the summary. Maybe somebody stole my scripts and tore it up. I'm very sad! But I don't really care. Why bother?? If I'm stupid enough maybe I'll appeal to Cambridge for them to check my results. If I'm even more stupid I might retake the next GP exam. Nah I don't think so. I gave all my GP notes to Rachel Kwan already! At the most I'll just face the indignant irony of majoring in English at university, despite doing poorly for GP.

Oh. Did I mention?? I can apply into university!! NUS Geog or Lit. Most probably. I'm going to university!

Anyway, today was a good day. I went to KAP to meet Liyana and Jaslyn and Annie first. I heard my train song there! Hahaha they're still playing the same music. Then we went back school to hang around and say hello to everyone. Green Link juniors' juniors were selling the new NJ nature postcards! I told them I was the ex-President and they just "orh". Said thank you to all the teachers who taught me. Hugged all my beloved friends whom I haven't seen for a long time (except Lauren). I forgot to bring my NJ tap tap card again!!

Then I came back to Bishan for worship practice. I only chose the songs this morning because I had no time to plan at all. I followed Irin's advice! She told me to just be silent and listen to the Holy Spirit. Then I sort of twisted all the songs' choruses into funky renditions. Whee! I decided not to join for cell group, so I was sitting outside talking to Aaron.

Okie! Time for bed. A million people messaged or called me today. Thanks to all those who called or messaged! I did try to tell all of you who sent greetings to inform how I did for my results, but if I forgot to tell you, I'm so sorry I left you out. Annie gave me a duckie clip! And Jas returned me the Seventeen magazine which I bought on my last day as a seventeen-year-old! I gave her the pink smiley face that I got at Sentosa Flowers. I wanted to give my sister but she's naughty, so I gave Jas instead. I gave the other yellow star one to Shermin Tan. Shermin Chen is top scorer for Arts faculty! I forgot to return Andre Kumar his jacket.

I realised something rather disturbing today. I realised that I've been going back to Sentosa practically everyday since the first day of Chinese New Year! Of course this includes both working and playing. But can you imagine that?? Going to Sentosa for work, and going back there on my off days to tour all the different attractions and whatever else. Yet somehow I didn't really take notice of this fact. It didn't seem like I was going to Sentosa everyday for the past 2 weeks. My mum thinks I'm crazy, but then I told her I was having loads of fun, so she decided to let her crazy son continue to be crazy.

Anyway, work today was a blast! Was on the first ticketing shift and opening the Station with Irin today. It was raining the whole day! The rain didn't even stop drizzling for one moment. And it was a good weather to sleep in, but I was awake by 4am! There was hardly anyone in Sentosa today, because of the rain. My sales money was $0 from 7am to 12 noon. And all of us were slacking because there was nobody at all to welcome. Devin is in love with Japanese tourists, and Elton's looking out for all the pretty girls. Then I'll go try and flirt with them. Oh what fun!

Irin and me decided to go down to Imbiah Station to steal flowerpots in the afternoon! Had nothing to do at our Station, so we went to the deserted Sentosa Flowers exhibitions to choose the plants that we wanted. Shanaz was our accomplice! We chose this really nice pot of red hybrid roses and smuggled it into the train!! Now our Beach office has sunflowers and roses and chrysanthemums that all of us plucked or stole from the Flowers exhibitions. I wanted to bring in my pot into the Station as well, but Irin saw a snail in it and she freaked out, so I had to bring it out.

Then after work, I went down to Underwater World with Jeremy! We had a pair of free tickets from Shuba's leftover ASA card redeems, so the two of us went. My second time there in 3 days. And it's still equally awesome! I just love seeing all the sharks and crabs and stingrays and huge fish swimming around. I want to learn all about the different creatures!! So cool! Hahaha Jeremy is afraid of touching the stingrays! I've decided that my favourite creature there are the Japanese Sea Crabs!! They're humongous, like really big lobsters.

Was in abit of a hurry because Jeremy had to rush back for work. Then wanted to go Sakae Sushi with Elton and Devin because they said my eyecandy was working today! I'm very sad!! Apparently I always just miss the chance to see her because I'm on break or I'm in the toilet or something! And it's really silly. She will arrive on the next train just after I left the Station. I'm so sad! In the end I decided to not to go Sakae Sushi. Hung around at info counter talking to Shermin for a long time, before I decided to take my time to go home from Sentosa.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy and stressful day. It's A'Levels results tomorrow!! Oh no. I'm not looking forward to that. I haven't been thinking at all about my results at all! It's always people like Alicia (at work) who keeps reminding me of A's results, that gets me mildly worried. Even right now, I'm not that frightened yet. And then I'm leading worship tomorrow! I wasn't informed at all until yesterday, and I haven't planned a single song to sing yet. AARGH. I don't want to panic or stress out!