AARGH I FEEL SO BETRAYED!! There was supposed to be a Glass Menagerie lecture this morning at 8.30am, and I woke up at 8am. And I rushed all the way to school without even eating breakfast, only to find out that Ms Teo cancelled the lecture!! WHAT THE HELL LA! Apparently she sent out the message last night, but I didn't receive anything from anybody. Only knew when I called Khairi and he told me it was cancelled. AAARGH and to think I was determined not to be late and ran all the way into school the moment I reached the bus-stop! The most ironic thing was that I was still hanging around with Ms Teo last night at 8pm, and I knew nothing about it!
Okay at least I'm not the only stupid idiot who rushed for nothing. After Khairi's devasting news, I met Christine who was frantically searching for any sign of any Lit student too. And yep, in common plights we share our common griefs and sorrows, so we walked around school aimless for a while, before I decided to come home and study. UGHH. I swear I'm not going to bother about trying to be early for future Lit lectures. And that's not even mentioning whether I will turn up.
Other than that, last night was the poetry night organised by Lit Wing in school. Actually to be frank, it's actually organised by Ms Ho Poh Fun while the Lit Wing students are just slaves to her whims. Yesh the organisation was one big heck of a crap, but the actual performances and poetry recitations were quite smooth. For all the disastrous rehearsals and last-minute unreasonable demands and lack of communication and stupidity and stubborn-ness, the actual thing makes it seem as though everything was really well-organised. Haha that's my pleasant surprise for the evening.
All my Lit teachers (except Mr Whitby), and even my GP tutor (she majored in Lit) recited her poems. And don't dismiss Ms Ho as some old lady who's got nothing credible to her name! She invited guest poets who shared some brilliant poems (in my opinion). And when it was my turn to recite my Snail poem, I feel embarassed cos it really lacked depth when compared to the other poems which were recited. And Judith got my entire poem displayed wide on screen, while most of the other poem recitations were just listened to by ear only. I was still thinking of mumbling through my recitation so that the audience couldn't hear what I actually wrote!
Well anyway my poem got 3rd and I got some Kino book vouchers again. That means I have now a total of 2 award-winning poems that I can include as my literary accolades! And I realised I've received $60 worth of Kino vouchers just from writing 2 poems so far. Poets indeed CAN make a living from writing poems! Haha I told Mrs Nair that I'll publish my own poetry collection in the future, and she can borrow my fame by claiming that she was my civics tutor! Wahaa.
Came back to Bishan for Friday night youth service. Aaron gave quite a weird message about belonging together in the church. I keep picturing the image of Joel Tan trying to coordinate fellowship activities throughout Aaron's message. Hah! Anyway they did the blackboard thing with all the announcements, and it looks as if entering the audi was like entering some restaurant and you have to wait to be seated. Had cell group after that for a while before going home to sleep.
Saturday, 29 July 2006
Thursday, 27 July 2006
Yeah I'm blogging I'm blogging!! Been busy with school work and revision this entire week, and reaching home everyday at 8pm cos I'm either hanging out with friends outside, or I'm having tuition with Hai Hao. Okie let's start with where I last left off in my previous entry.
Oh yesh my stayover at Eleanor's was both funky and meaningful! We bought 2 boxes of cereal and had a contest to count how many bits of cereal we each ate! Had a pillow fight and I won cos I creamed her with 3 pillows and sat on her. Hahaha! And the craziest thing that we did for the entire night was to call Macs Delivery at 3am and demanded that we want McFlurry! Macs don't do delivery for McFlurry and sundaes from 2am to 5am because of some quality control thingy, so we had a real kick from torturing the poor phone operator. We asked stupid questions like can we have our chicken wings ORIGINAL?? Hee hee!
Basically it was the wild and nuts stayover. Didn't sleep the whole night, and I had to rush home at 6am just to change into my school uniform and go school. But I had a great time talking to Eleanor; having heart-to-heart conversations from chatting absolute rubbish. Oh oh and guess what my weird mummy said to me after I phoned her telling that I'm staying over at a girl's house? She said "NO PRE-MARITAL SEX". Blooiee.
School for this week is less hectic than last week's. For the first time I'm actually appreciating Ms Kao's eternal cheeriness, considering how I always comparing her to a sweetener. Mr Whitby gave me his bright eyes after I said "reductive development" and "focus on the swans" for the Wild Swans poem (although I found it uninteresting). And Ms Ting was in one of her better moods this week!
The only drab that got me pissed off was Lit Wing's rehearsal for their poetry night tomorrow. I'm involved in it cos I submitted a poem for their poetry-writing competition 2 months ago and I'm one of the finalists, so I have to recite my poem onstage. Oh brilliant there were only 6 entries for that category?? Well okay I thought it was just a simple recitation, so I thought nothing of it when I went for the rehearsal yesterday. But I didn't know that the programme line-up had 2o plus plus items and I'm in the last one. Ms Ho Poh Fun couldn't stop commenting on absolutely anything and interrupting everything and insisting things done her way, so you can imagine my impatience after half an hour in the LT and they're only at item 4?? GOODNESS. I didn't feel obliged to participate anyway, cos I wasn't informed that I had to recite until Benny told me last week, and with horrible organisation like that, who's ever going to turn up to listen to poem recitations??
Wahaa. I couldn't take it anymore, so I sneaked out halfway and went for tuition with Hai Hao instead.
On a lighter note I went to Island Creamery with Yurong again. Met Aaron and Zhi Zhong there! Been a very long time since I last saw them... Went to Marina Square to go shopping with Atiqah too, comparing all the Malay salespeople in different shops. And today I had dinner with Andre and Biru to catch up on how we've been and stuff like that.
Today was a half-day in school, cos there were some sports CCAs who did well. But my half-day was quite non-existent as I had Maths consultation, then I had a Green Link meeting with the juniors. Stayed back till 5pm to go walking around school counting trees with them. Haha they're doing the Green Audit now, and I'm happily laughing at them counting cos I used to be in that situation last year. Like I said, it's great to be elevated to a mentorship status cos all you do is talk and talk and you don't have to do anything to validate your speeches. Whee!
Oh it was photo-taking for our class today. I wanted to wear something that will make me look really stupid, and the dumb thing was I forgot to bring my shades or my nerdy specs or my weird hats! Haha but Jaslyn did bring her purple hairband, and Charlene dared me to wear it, so I did. And I tried to style my hair with Khairi's wax, but my hair was too short, so it didn't look outstanding. I mean, the point of photo-taking sessions means you have to look stupid right??
Alright I shall go sleep soon.
Oh yesh my stayover at Eleanor's was both funky and meaningful! We bought 2 boxes of cereal and had a contest to count how many bits of cereal we each ate! Had a pillow fight and I won cos I creamed her with 3 pillows and sat on her. Hahaha! And the craziest thing that we did for the entire night was to call Macs Delivery at 3am and demanded that we want McFlurry! Macs don't do delivery for McFlurry and sundaes from 2am to 5am because of some quality control thingy, so we had a real kick from torturing the poor phone operator. We asked stupid questions like can we have our chicken wings ORIGINAL?? Hee hee!
Basically it was the wild and nuts stayover. Didn't sleep the whole night, and I had to rush home at 6am just to change into my school uniform and go school. But I had a great time talking to Eleanor; having heart-to-heart conversations from chatting absolute rubbish. Oh oh and guess what my weird mummy said to me after I phoned her telling that I'm staying over at a girl's house? She said "NO PRE-MARITAL SEX". Blooiee.
School for this week is less hectic than last week's. For the first time I'm actually appreciating Ms Kao's eternal cheeriness, considering how I always comparing her to a sweetener. Mr Whitby gave me his bright eyes after I said "reductive development" and "focus on the swans" for the Wild Swans poem (although I found it uninteresting). And Ms Ting was in one of her better moods this week!
The only drab that got me pissed off was Lit Wing's rehearsal for their poetry night tomorrow. I'm involved in it cos I submitted a poem for their poetry-writing competition 2 months ago and I'm one of the finalists, so I have to recite my poem onstage. Oh brilliant there were only 6 entries for that category?? Well okay I thought it was just a simple recitation, so I thought nothing of it when I went for the rehearsal yesterday. But I didn't know that the programme line-up had 2o plus plus items and I'm in the last one. Ms Ho Poh Fun couldn't stop commenting on absolutely anything and interrupting everything and insisting things done her way, so you can imagine my impatience after half an hour in the LT and they're only at item 4?? GOODNESS. I didn't feel obliged to participate anyway, cos I wasn't informed that I had to recite until Benny told me last week, and with horrible organisation like that, who's ever going to turn up to listen to poem recitations??
Wahaa. I couldn't take it anymore, so I sneaked out halfway and went for tuition with Hai Hao instead.
On a lighter note I went to Island Creamery with Yurong again. Met Aaron and Zhi Zhong there! Been a very long time since I last saw them... Went to Marina Square to go shopping with Atiqah too, comparing all the Malay salespeople in different shops. And today I had dinner with Andre and Biru to catch up on how we've been and stuff like that.
Today was a half-day in school, cos there were some sports CCAs who did well. But my half-day was quite non-existent as I had Maths consultation, then I had a Green Link meeting with the juniors. Stayed back till 5pm to go walking around school counting trees with them. Haha they're doing the Green Audit now, and I'm happily laughing at them counting cos I used to be in that situation last year. Like I said, it's great to be elevated to a mentorship status cos all you do is talk and talk and you don't have to do anything to validate your speeches. Whee!
Oh it was photo-taking for our class today. I wanted to wear something that will make me look really stupid, and the dumb thing was I forgot to bring my shades or my nerdy specs or my weird hats! Haha but Jaslyn did bring her purple hairband, and Charlene dared me to wear it, so I did. And I tried to style my hair with Khairi's wax, but my hair was too short, so it didn't look outstanding. I mean, the point of photo-taking sessions means you have to look stupid right??
Alright I shall go sleep soon.
Monday, 24 July 2006
I'm at Eleanor's house now! Staying over at her house, and the stupid thing is I have school tomorrow and I forgot to bring my school uniform along. HOW DUMB. I don't even feel like going school tomorrow. Haha! Anyway, this stayover is entirely impromptu. I just decided to go over for fun and next thing I knew, she suggested a stayover and here I am.
It's been quite a funky day today. Me and Della did the skit this morning during service. Uncle Vince brought over Ben's shirt and tie for me, cos I've got no shirts at home! All my shirts are either loaned to people or they are stuck in the locker in school, and my dad's ones are too big for me. But anyway, I supposed to look nerdy, so I brought along my nerdy specs that I bought from Kuantan!
In the end I think I look more funky than I should, cos I didn't tuck in the shirt and I'm wearing a tie with it. Haha but it was formal enough la. The skit was quite smooth, although halfway through both me and Della forgot our lines and we fumbled slightly... But whee it was good, considering that this is the skit with the most lines.
And it was soldiership enrolment today too! Huimin looks good in uniform. And it was great to see all the people that I met at soldiership class take a step forward in their church membership. Kinda nostalgic as I stood on stage too, cos last year around August was my enrolment, and the past year was quite eventful.
Had lunch with church people, Shi Hui is nuts! Then me and Ben came back to corps for prayer meeting with Lurong and David. It's my first time joining them since they switched to Sunday afternoons, and Ben's gone into the army so it feels kinda weird to have such a small group.
We were talking about Chris Tomlin's song Indescribable after prayer meeting. Everyone thinks it's nice except me. Okie I only heard it once, and it just sounded like a normal song. But now I'm listening to that song on Eleanor's music playlist now, and I think it does indeed sound meaningful. For once Tomlin is not repetitive. Haha!
Major Andrew tore a piece of paper during sermon today, to show that we'll be "ripped apart" if we do not belong to the church. The piece of paper was clean and unused!! And I bet he's going to throw that torn-up piece of paper away! Blah that's so enviro-unfriendly!
I'm having cravings for ice cream now. Okie gonna complete my GP comprehension before I go party the night away. Eleanor wants to pillow-fight and play catching.
It's been quite a funky day today. Me and Della did the skit this morning during service. Uncle Vince brought over Ben's shirt and tie for me, cos I've got no shirts at home! All my shirts are either loaned to people or they are stuck in the locker in school, and my dad's ones are too big for me. But anyway, I supposed to look nerdy, so I brought along my nerdy specs that I bought from Kuantan!
In the end I think I look more funky than I should, cos I didn't tuck in the shirt and I'm wearing a tie with it. Haha but it was formal enough la. The skit was quite smooth, although halfway through both me and Della forgot our lines and we fumbled slightly... But whee it was good, considering that this is the skit with the most lines.
And it was soldiership enrolment today too! Huimin looks good in uniform. And it was great to see all the people that I met at soldiership class take a step forward in their church membership. Kinda nostalgic as I stood on stage too, cos last year around August was my enrolment, and the past year was quite eventful.
Had lunch with church people, Shi Hui is nuts! Then me and Ben came back to corps for prayer meeting with Lurong and David. It's my first time joining them since they switched to Sunday afternoons, and Ben's gone into the army so it feels kinda weird to have such a small group.
We were talking about Chris Tomlin's song Indescribable after prayer meeting. Everyone thinks it's nice except me. Okie I only heard it once, and it just sounded like a normal song. But now I'm listening to that song on Eleanor's music playlist now, and I think it does indeed sound meaningful. For once Tomlin is not repetitive. Haha!
Major Andrew tore a piece of paper during sermon today, to show that we'll be "ripped apart" if we do not belong to the church. The piece of paper was clean and unused!! And I bet he's going to throw that torn-up piece of paper away! Blah that's so enviro-unfriendly!
I'm having cravings for ice cream now. Okie gonna complete my GP comprehension before I go party the night away. Eleanor wants to pillow-fight and play catching.
Saturday, 22 July 2006
Been tagged by Ruth and Tammy, so now I must comply and do these aimless surveys. Blah okie here goes. Ruth's one is first, then Tammy's.
Ruth's survey...
INSTRUCTIONS
1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
FAVOURITES
Color: Pink! Especially soft pink and hot pink. Pastel colours do fine too.
Food: I eat anything that's edible except grapes.
Movie: Eh I have no idea... I forgot the plots of all the movies I've ever watched.
Sport: Jogging and frisbee.
Day of the week: Friday. My earliest day off from school.
Season: Winter.
Ice-cream: Vanilla!
CURRENT
Mood: Quite carefree, though I need to start on my homework soon.
Taste: Kaya with toast.
Clothes: Some red tee.
Desktop: A red wallpaper that I got from YP's Online.
Toenail colour: Naturally pinkish... My fingernails are white.
Time: 4.10pm
Surroundings: Study room, although I never study in here.
Annoyance: I can't play B7 on the guitar, and Nutseed is hyperactive.
FIRST
Best friend: Biru. Whee!
Crush: This girl whom I met at some playground when I was 7. I asked for a number but she didn't want to give me!
Lie: Can't remember... Whoever remembers these??
Music: Loads... All the kiddy songs!
LASTS
Cigarette: Eh nah don't smoke.
Drink: Small bottle of milk that was pandan-flavoured.
Ride: Matthew driving me and Yurong to corps.
Crush: Haha nah I really can't reveal this.
Movie: Cars, with Dale Carnegie people.
Phonecall: Tammy.
CD: This sample CD with 9 new Christian songs that costed $5.
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of ur best friends: Eh kind of... Although I've never dated before. Haha.
Broken the law: I once stole a signpost before!
Been arrested: Almost? Haha!!
Skinny-dipped: Nahh...
Been on tv: Three or four times, and they were all for environmental thingys!
Kissed someone that you dont know: No, though I would love to.
4 things you did today: Watched TV, disturbed my sister, played guitar and visited people's blogs which I haven't done so in 2 weeks.
3 things you can hear right now: Nutseed scrambling around, those MSN alerts when people sign in, and the song Majesty by Delirious.
5 people to do this: Kai Jie, Khairi, Atiqah, Joel and Biru. All 5 of them don't have blogs and are unlikely to see this post anyway, so this survey ends here. Unless you want to do this.
Tammy's survey...
7 random facts about me:
- I used to collect stamps.
- I like my hamster.
- I think zebras are ugly.
- I don't like meat.
- I think I'm really charming.
- I want to eat ice cream.
- I watch Pokemon on TV occasionally. Team Rocket sucks.
7 things that scares me:
- Monsters under my bed
- Being squashed by a giant hamburger
- Powerpuff Girls kicking my ass.
- Me being the stuffing inside a big dumpling.
- Flying chicken nuggets
- Grapes
- Some despotic girl having a crush on me.
7 random music at the moment:
- History Maker by Delirious.
- My Humps by Black Eyed Peas.
- Free by Hillsongs
- Torn by Natalie Imbruglia
- Cry by Mandy Moore
- Uh Oh We're In Trouble by Shampoo
- Now That You're Near by Hillsongs
7 things I say most:
- Right.
- Sure.
- Whatever.
- Oh gosh.
- Nuts.
- Shoots.
- Chicken nugget.
7 peeps to do this:
- Doc
- Bashful
- Dopey
- Grumpy
- Happy
- Sleepy
- Sneezy
(Yesh the 7 dwarves. Snow White can do this too.)
Ruth's survey...
INSTRUCTIONS
1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
FAVOURITES
Color: Pink! Especially soft pink and hot pink. Pastel colours do fine too.
Food: I eat anything that's edible except grapes.
Movie: Eh I have no idea... I forgot the plots of all the movies I've ever watched.
Sport: Jogging and frisbee.
Day of the week: Friday. My earliest day off from school.
Season: Winter.
Ice-cream: Vanilla!
CURRENT
Mood: Quite carefree, though I need to start on my homework soon.
Taste: Kaya with toast.
Clothes: Some red tee.
Desktop: A red wallpaper that I got from YP's Online.
Toenail colour: Naturally pinkish... My fingernails are white.
Time: 4.10pm
Surroundings: Study room, although I never study in here.
Annoyance: I can't play B7 on the guitar, and Nutseed is hyperactive.
FIRST
Best friend: Biru. Whee!
Crush: This girl whom I met at some playground when I was 7. I asked for a number but she didn't want to give me!
Lie: Can't remember... Whoever remembers these??
Music: Loads... All the kiddy songs!
LASTS
Cigarette: Eh nah don't smoke.
Drink: Small bottle of milk that was pandan-flavoured.
Ride: Matthew driving me and Yurong to corps.
Crush: Haha nah I really can't reveal this.
Movie: Cars, with Dale Carnegie people.
Phonecall: Tammy.
CD: This sample CD with 9 new Christian songs that costed $5.
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of ur best friends: Eh kind of... Although I've never dated before. Haha.
Broken the law: I once stole a signpost before!
Been arrested: Almost? Haha!!
Skinny-dipped: Nahh...
Been on tv: Three or four times, and they were all for environmental thingys!
Kissed someone that you dont know: No, though I would love to.
4 things you did today: Watched TV, disturbed my sister, played guitar and visited people's blogs which I haven't done so in 2 weeks.
3 things you can hear right now: Nutseed scrambling around, those MSN alerts when people sign in, and the song Majesty by Delirious.
5 people to do this: Kai Jie, Khairi, Atiqah, Joel and Biru. All 5 of them don't have blogs and are unlikely to see this post anyway, so this survey ends here. Unless you want to do this.
Tammy's survey...
7 random facts about me:
- I used to collect stamps.
- I like my hamster.
- I think zebras are ugly.
- I don't like meat.
- I think I'm really charming.
- I want to eat ice cream.
- I watch Pokemon on TV occasionally. Team Rocket sucks.
7 things that scares me:
- Monsters under my bed
- Being squashed by a giant hamburger
- Powerpuff Girls kicking my ass.
- Me being the stuffing inside a big dumpling.
- Flying chicken nuggets
- Grapes
- Some despotic girl having a crush on me.
7 random music at the moment:
- History Maker by Delirious.
- My Humps by Black Eyed Peas.
- Free by Hillsongs
- Torn by Natalie Imbruglia
- Cry by Mandy Moore
- Uh Oh We're In Trouble by Shampoo
- Now That You're Near by Hillsongs
7 things I say most:
- Right.
- Sure.
- Whatever.
- Oh gosh.
- Nuts.
- Shoots.
- Chicken nugget.
7 peeps to do this:
- Doc
- Bashful
- Dopey
- Grumpy
- Happy
- Sleepy
- Sneezy
(Yesh the 7 dwarves. Snow White can do this too.)
Friday, 21 July 2006
This is my latest entry after a two week absence. Haha my computer broke down during that period of time, and basically refused to be switched on. How can you fix any virus if the computer can't even be switched on?? But okay the computer repaired itself miraculously on it's own, and I just happened to randomly switch it on successfully.
Two weeks of not blogging is considered long? I've got loads of people commenting to me that I haven't blogged for a long long time. And the most common comment is "Everytime I go to your blog, I see that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY entry". Blooiee.
Okie here's what happened in my life in that two weeks, from what I can remember of it. I realised that what I remember about my life in the past 2 or 3 years depends on what I document in this blog, so I must write down everything that's significant in my life, cos I have the worst memory ever.
Yup, in response to that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY post, I had an extremely high fever about 2 weeks ago. My fever reached 40 degrees, which was the highest fever ever in my life. And the ratty thing was that I'm allergic to paracetamol, so I can't just pop a Panadol and sleep it off. The doctor gave me some stronger antibiotics instead, and I suffered from side effects that included nausea and headache and diarrhoea.
And the even ratty thing was that everything that was important seemed to take place over that weekend that I was in high fever. I had a day off from school on Friday, and it so happened that there was some school invasion and Ronin came over! I think they are hellish Satanic but they are the coolest bunch of wackos that I know too. And adding on to that was that Wilfred organised a barbeque at his place on Saturday and lots of my old secondary 4 classmates were going. And there was Green Link camp on over that weekend too, and I had to act in the pilot skit for 40 Days of Community, and there was a leaders' meeting too. Guess what? I had to turn them all down cos I really was too sick to attend them.
But I did get slightly better by Sunday morning, so I went down to school for Green Link camp. Had EXCO selection interviews for the juniors, and it's sort of like a revenge thingy to make them earn their positions in the club. Eventually us seniors had a subsequent meeting to finalise everything, and Hong Yi is the new president now, and Connie is vice-president and Jingjie is secretary, and of course all the other committee positions as well which I'm lazy to name them all.
My parents went to Tibet for holiday last Thursday, and they came back last night. My funky parents decided to explore Tibet, and they had altitude sickness when they were there, cos they couldn't adjust to the mountainous area. But they had fun, although they complained that the food was all vegetables and beef and that the toilets were super unhygienic. They brought back weird looking souvenirs... Haha! My grandmother came to stayover throughout the week while they were away.
And last Saturday Joel held the first fellowship committee meeting since he took charge of it from me. I like my "mentorship" in both Green Link and fellowship, as all I have to do is sit there and look pretty, comment on certain stuff and give advice only. Whee! Anyway, there were some novelty ideas that we thought could be done in the church. Then me and Tammy went for dinner, and walked all the way to J8 cos we wanted to get trivial stuff like fruit juice and stationery. And we walked all the way back home too. TAMMY BIMBO!
And yep my tuition with Hai Hao is getting kinda crazy now. His Science teacher in school covers so little work each week, so I've been doing force and simple machines with him all month. He's brilliant in that topic now, of course. We keep wanting to pluck out each other's livers.
In school I got back all my most of my common tests results. Definitely not good, and the way I'm performing will most likely lead to my failure in A'Levels. BLAH. I studied okie!! But haha it's just not intensive enough. Cramming everything in 2 weeks is a bad idea. So I came up with a study plan that lasts 40 days and I'm supposed to complete all my revision before September holidays.
Had new teachers in school for this term too. Ms Lim taking over Human Geography, and Ms Kao doing GP. Ms Lim can't stop mentioning environmentalism and Green Link everytime she has lessons with us, and Ms Kao is bright and cheery and spontaneous and gets ecstatic when she can remember my name. And her GP booklet had this huge cow on the cover page. Sexy.
I guess for once I'm actually grateful for my class timetable. I think my breaks and free periods are strategically placed throughout the day to allow me to have lunch or breakfast or to do work, and hang out with the ever-present Jaslyn or Atiqah. Haha and that means enduring Jas whining and complaining. She told me not to mention it, but heck, whatever. And Siew Peng's getting to be ever-present in my school life too, cos sometimes we take the same bus home, so she becomes the last person I see from school and the first person I see from school the next day that I last saw the previous day. Whee.
We had racial harmony day celebrations and community service day in school on Wednesday. 05A01 was probably the only class in the whole school who bothered to turn up in ethnic costumes! I borrowed a lavender baju kurong from Atiqah, and had people staring at me the whole day. Everybody looked ethnic enough, and Beetsma and Khairi looked stunning in gold cos they were getting married! Beets is so hot hot!!
For community service, A01 and A02 shared 14 kids that were mostly 6 to 7 years old, and we played with them the whole day. Taught them songs, played games then there was some performance in LT5, and lunch for them and more interaction. I had to spell R-Y-A-N with my butt for "lying that I'm a handsome boy", and Janvin and me concluded that the school had only one song (Uptown Girl) to play for all the occasions.
I think by the end of everything, everyone had their own special kids that made it so memorable. Mine was this little boy named Bonson. He followed me everywhere and I followed him everywhere too. He's not one of those cute little kids, but he's so much more endearing and sweet that you can't help but love him. Some girl with a video-cam requested that I "interview" Bonson on how he found our school and the activities and stuff. He said he enjoyed playing with me and at the end of the questions, he kissed me!! AAAHHHHH!!
It was kinda sad when it was time for him to go. I gave him my number on a piece of paper cos he said he wanted to ask his mum to bring us along to Science Centre. Haha I really don't know what I was doing when I frantically asked Qiling for a piece of paper just so I could write my number down. I think my heart really melted whenever he automatically comes over and demand that I hold his hand... Gosh I'm seriously considering giving up teaching in a secondary school and going over to nursery or something like that. Haha!
All the geography students had to stay back for a karst landform talk after the kids left, and A01 was doing ushering for the talk. Ushering's kinda fun actually, cos I get to be friendly and weird and enthusiastic all at the same time. The talk was one of the clearest geography lectures that I ever had, or maybe I was plain sleeping through Ms Ting's lectures.
I think maybe it's time for me to start polluting the earth. Did a NEA survey with Atiqah and the Green Link people on environmental awareness, smoking and toilets and dengue and hygiene and stuff like that. I realised that I've put in so much efforts that maybe I should start denouncing Mother Nature which I'm trying to protect, and pollute her till I accelerate climate change. I handed over Green Link presidency anyway already, and I'm quite tired of environmentalism too. Now's a good time to start adding to the waste levels in Singapore.
Rushed out of school immediately when lessons ended today, cos Yurong's dad is fetching the both of us to send Ben off to the army. We just made it in time, and said our "speeches" to Ben. Blooiee it's going to be my turn soon, and honestly, I think it's probably a heart-wrenching thing to have your close friends going into army and you won't get to hang out with them for the next 2 years.
Oh well at least Ben's going in to slack his guts out in army anyway. Matthew, Yurong and me headed to Changi Village for nasi lemak after that, then drove down to Bugis area to explore funky shops selling stuff like bimbotic, pinkish-flowery electric guitars. Headed back to Bishan and went to Biru's house for a short while, in which she nail-polished my nails white. It looks like liquid paper solidified on my nails.
And I led worship today. I went totally off-pitch for one entire chorus, missed the openings of songs, sang like really bad and started shivering on stage. I was still terrified and in shock for half an hour after worship was over. But who cares? It's over already and I sang my heart out even though it sounded crap vocally.
Biru did the ice breaking game in order to extract the key out from the ice. Was quite okay, except that my group probably broke all the rules of the game cos you weren't allowed to smash the ice on the floor and you weren't allowed to dirty the floor, and we did. "We" is more powerful than "me". Doesn't that summarise the entire 40 Days of Community?? Oh yeah me and Della will be acting this Sunday.
I'm tired, even though I'm getting 8 hours of sleep everyday. That's such a far cry from my previous sleeping habits, when I do 4 or 5 hours everyday. So why in the world am I still tired?? Blah I'm going to bed.
Two weeks of not blogging is considered long? I've got loads of people commenting to me that I haven't blogged for a long long time. And the most common comment is "Everytime I go to your blog, I see that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY entry". Blooiee.
Okie here's what happened in my life in that two weeks, from what I can remember of it. I realised that what I remember about my life in the past 2 or 3 years depends on what I document in this blog, so I must write down everything that's significant in my life, cos I have the worst memory ever.
Yup, in response to that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY post, I had an extremely high fever about 2 weeks ago. My fever reached 40 degrees, which was the highest fever ever in my life. And the ratty thing was that I'm allergic to paracetamol, so I can't just pop a Panadol and sleep it off. The doctor gave me some stronger antibiotics instead, and I suffered from side effects that included nausea and headache and diarrhoea.
And the even ratty thing was that everything that was important seemed to take place over that weekend that I was in high fever. I had a day off from school on Friday, and it so happened that there was some school invasion and Ronin came over! I think they are hellish Satanic but they are the coolest bunch of wackos that I know too. And adding on to that was that Wilfred organised a barbeque at his place on Saturday and lots of my old secondary 4 classmates were going. And there was Green Link camp on over that weekend too, and I had to act in the pilot skit for 40 Days of Community, and there was a leaders' meeting too. Guess what? I had to turn them all down cos I really was too sick to attend them.
But I did get slightly better by Sunday morning, so I went down to school for Green Link camp. Had EXCO selection interviews for the juniors, and it's sort of like a revenge thingy to make them earn their positions in the club. Eventually us seniors had a subsequent meeting to finalise everything, and Hong Yi is the new president now, and Connie is vice-president and Jingjie is secretary, and of course all the other committee positions as well which I'm lazy to name them all.
My parents went to Tibet for holiday last Thursday, and they came back last night. My funky parents decided to explore Tibet, and they had altitude sickness when they were there, cos they couldn't adjust to the mountainous area. But they had fun, although they complained that the food was all vegetables and beef and that the toilets were super unhygienic. They brought back weird looking souvenirs... Haha! My grandmother came to stayover throughout the week while they were away.
And last Saturday Joel held the first fellowship committee meeting since he took charge of it from me. I like my "mentorship" in both Green Link and fellowship, as all I have to do is sit there and look pretty, comment on certain stuff and give advice only. Whee! Anyway, there were some novelty ideas that we thought could be done in the church. Then me and Tammy went for dinner, and walked all the way to J8 cos we wanted to get trivial stuff like fruit juice and stationery. And we walked all the way back home too. TAMMY BIMBO!
And yep my tuition with Hai Hao is getting kinda crazy now. His Science teacher in school covers so little work each week, so I've been doing force and simple machines with him all month. He's brilliant in that topic now, of course. We keep wanting to pluck out each other's livers.
In school I got back all my most of my common tests results. Definitely not good, and the way I'm performing will most likely lead to my failure in A'Levels. BLAH. I studied okie!! But haha it's just not intensive enough. Cramming everything in 2 weeks is a bad idea. So I came up with a study plan that lasts 40 days and I'm supposed to complete all my revision before September holidays.
Had new teachers in school for this term too. Ms Lim taking over Human Geography, and Ms Kao doing GP. Ms Lim can't stop mentioning environmentalism and Green Link everytime she has lessons with us, and Ms Kao is bright and cheery and spontaneous and gets ecstatic when she can remember my name. And her GP booklet had this huge cow on the cover page. Sexy.
I guess for once I'm actually grateful for my class timetable. I think my breaks and free periods are strategically placed throughout the day to allow me to have lunch or breakfast or to do work, and hang out with the ever-present Jaslyn or Atiqah. Haha and that means enduring Jas whining and complaining. She told me not to mention it, but heck, whatever. And Siew Peng's getting to be ever-present in my school life too, cos sometimes we take the same bus home, so she becomes the last person I see from school and the first person I see from school the next day that I last saw the previous day. Whee.
We had racial harmony day celebrations and community service day in school on Wednesday. 05A01 was probably the only class in the whole school who bothered to turn up in ethnic costumes! I borrowed a lavender baju kurong from Atiqah, and had people staring at me the whole day. Everybody looked ethnic enough, and Beetsma and Khairi looked stunning in gold cos they were getting married! Beets is so hot hot!!
For community service, A01 and A02 shared 14 kids that were mostly 6 to 7 years old, and we played with them the whole day. Taught them songs, played games then there was some performance in LT5, and lunch for them and more interaction. I had to spell R-Y-A-N with my butt for "lying that I'm a handsome boy", and Janvin and me concluded that the school had only one song (Uptown Girl) to play for all the occasions.
I think by the end of everything, everyone had their own special kids that made it so memorable. Mine was this little boy named Bonson. He followed me everywhere and I followed him everywhere too. He's not one of those cute little kids, but he's so much more endearing and sweet that you can't help but love him. Some girl with a video-cam requested that I "interview" Bonson on how he found our school and the activities and stuff. He said he enjoyed playing with me and at the end of the questions, he kissed me!! AAAHHHHH!!
It was kinda sad when it was time for him to go. I gave him my number on a piece of paper cos he said he wanted to ask his mum to bring us along to Science Centre. Haha I really don't know what I was doing when I frantically asked Qiling for a piece of paper just so I could write my number down. I think my heart really melted whenever he automatically comes over and demand that I hold his hand... Gosh I'm seriously considering giving up teaching in a secondary school and going over to nursery or something like that. Haha!
All the geography students had to stay back for a karst landform talk after the kids left, and A01 was doing ushering for the talk. Ushering's kinda fun actually, cos I get to be friendly and weird and enthusiastic all at the same time. The talk was one of the clearest geography lectures that I ever had, or maybe I was plain sleeping through Ms Ting's lectures.
I think maybe it's time for me to start polluting the earth. Did a NEA survey with Atiqah and the Green Link people on environmental awareness, smoking and toilets and dengue and hygiene and stuff like that. I realised that I've put in so much efforts that maybe I should start denouncing Mother Nature which I'm trying to protect, and pollute her till I accelerate climate change. I handed over Green Link presidency anyway already, and I'm quite tired of environmentalism too. Now's a good time to start adding to the waste levels in Singapore.
Rushed out of school immediately when lessons ended today, cos Yurong's dad is fetching the both of us to send Ben off to the army. We just made it in time, and said our "speeches" to Ben. Blooiee it's going to be my turn soon, and honestly, I think it's probably a heart-wrenching thing to have your close friends going into army and you won't get to hang out with them for the next 2 years.
Oh well at least Ben's going in to slack his guts out in army anyway. Matthew, Yurong and me headed to Changi Village for nasi lemak after that, then drove down to Bugis area to explore funky shops selling stuff like bimbotic, pinkish-flowery electric guitars. Headed back to Bishan and went to Biru's house for a short while, in which she nail-polished my nails white. It looks like liquid paper solidified on my nails.
And I led worship today. I went totally off-pitch for one entire chorus, missed the openings of songs, sang like really bad and started shivering on stage. I was still terrified and in shock for half an hour after worship was over. But who cares? It's over already and I sang my heart out even though it sounded crap vocally.
Biru did the ice breaking game in order to extract the key out from the ice. Was quite okay, except that my group probably broke all the rules of the game cos you weren't allowed to smash the ice on the floor and you weren't allowed to dirty the floor, and we did. "We" is more powerful than "me". Doesn't that summarise the entire 40 Days of Community?? Oh yeah me and Della will be acting this Sunday.
I'm tired, even though I'm getting 8 hours of sleep everyday. That's such a far cry from my previous sleeping habits, when I do 4 or 5 hours everyday. So why in the world am I still tired?? Blah I'm going to bed.
Wednesday, 5 July 2006
MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY. Yesh absolutely soggy. I caught some germs in school and now I have a dreadful cold. My eyes are puffy and red and watery and SOGGY LIKE SOGGY FRIES. My nose can't seem to stop running, and I keep dabbing it with tissue paper the whole day, so it's swollen and sore and SOGGY LIKE A WET TOWEL.
I used up like 7 packets of tissue today! I finished Rongyao's packet, almost finished Jaslyn's packet, finished 4 packets which I bought from the drinks stall uncle, and another packet that I found at Jericho. And that's not counting that huge roll of toilet paper that I stole from the female toilet at the Oasis! Haha of course I couldn't have finished that, but I think I contributed quite a large percentage to Singapore's collected waste today.
White, soggy, papery stuff flooding all the bins. Full of sticky mucus. White white white stuff. OH GOSH THAT'S SICK.
Anyway, school started today after my common tests ended yesterday. Ms Ting had the first period, and she basically lamented about our Geography paper, and how we submitted essays that lack depth and quality and whatever. Haha it was quite okay to me cos I was in a bad mood and was already starting to feel sick. What a way to start the day.
We got back our Maths today! I flunked it again, got 30 something which was almost similar to my first common test this year. And I feel so stupid at myself!! What's that? I spent DAYS slogging all those integration and differentials and complex numbers and statistics. Then I happily blanked out during my actual paper. UGH UGH UGH. I forgot my series summation formulae, then I forgot that I had to de-permutate, then I lost like a huge sum of marks to carelessness, AND I SPENT 3 DAYS DOING COMPLEX NUMBERS AND THEN DID SOMETHING FUNNY TO THE QUESTION AND I COULDN'T ANSWER IT. Bloody bookie bash blooie bafoolus.
Atiqah sat down with me to go through our papers together. The more we did, the more I felt so stupid. I mean, it's partly my fault too, cos I didn't study some topics and that amounted to 10 marks or so too, but I still feel so dumb. We took the table in the library that faced the grilled windows, and both of us felt like caged birds. HAHA.
Speaking of library, I went to borrow some Geography books today! Ms Ting recommended to us some guides that were available in the library, and I happened to find three of them! Some series of topics called Access to Geography, and I felt like being a mugger, so I borrowed all of them. Ahh she'll be pleased that people are borrowing Geog books and the school admin will give the Geog department more money to spend on books.
Eh yup. I didn't realise it, but I've spent my past 3 weeks of my holidays at KAP. 3 weeks. KAP. Practically everyday was spent there studying. They've been repeating the same music from the same CD everyday, and yesterday was the first time that they changed it. Haha! But KAP's great. I can concentrate there. Mugging with Yurong and Rong and the rest of her friends, or with some of my classmates, or most of the time I'm alone.
Got to meet new people too! Yesh I'm there so often, so I had better have some funky incidents there. There's of course, Yurong's friends, then there was this NJCian whom I had a "staring contest" with. Haha! She was like, 2 tables opposite me on some day, and I happened to look at her while thinking about Geog, and she was looking in my way too, so for the next 8 hours we alternated looks at each other and seeing who will break the stare first. Then there were the 2 MGS girls that I gave marshmallows to, and some hyperactive kids every other day.
Okie here's something that was most impactful in my time at KAP. A ROBBERY TOOK PLACE! Yep. Two days ago, I was there as usual, and this Malay guy in his 20s walked in and sat opposite me. He kept looking at me and at the couple next to me, so I stared back at him (cos I'm the best at staring). Basically he loitered around for half an hour, before making a sudden move at the guy next to me! Took his wallet and phone and ran for the door.
Crap the first thing that came to my mind was it's a practical joke! Haha silly me. I only realised that the robbery happened like 30 seconds after, and of course the guy next to me had a much better reaction time than me. He sprang up, chase after the guy and came back with his belongings 10 minutes later. Apparently the robber was handed over to some security guard somewhere.
Robbery at KAP in lunch hours! Whoo that's a first in my life. And what was scary was that I left my phone in the exact same position as the guy next to me. On the table with my focus on my notes rather than anywhere else. But the guy next to me had a much better phone model of course, but apparently the robber picked the wrong guy cos he looked atheletic and had a much faster lag-time.
My most meaningful thing that happened, however, was yesterday. This 2 guys came to my table and started talking to me about this new seminar that Singapore Youth For Christ is having. I recognised one of them who was the emcee for the Da Vinci Code seminar the last time! So we had a casual talk about Christianity, getting to know more about each other and stuff. To me, it's amazing how you can make friends with strangers, but they share the same faith with you. Whee ha.
I spent quite some time coming up with the Green Link EXCO registration forms last week. Gave it out to the juniors today, cos Green Link's camp is this weekend. Questions that I found extremely enticing were "Which do you prefer: tomato soup or mushroom soup?" Haha! I can't wait to get the responses back! Utter stupidity! I really couldn't resist including an entire section of nonsensical questions.
Resumed tuition with Hai Hao from this week onwards. He's put on so much more weight now! After tuition I played that Hello Kitty game! There's this computer game called Hello Kitty Bubblegum or something like that, some kiddy game collection that featured Hello Kitties which En Ning plays. I tried the squirrel-with-trampoline game where you're supposed to keep bouncing the squirrel up to get the ice cream. FUNKY.
I can't understand Element TD. It's this kill-the-monster game that Ben and Ke You and Jon and even Lurong who thinks it's fun. It's just monsters walking down the lane and volcanoes blasting at them, and you have to build more volcanoes to kill more of them and it repeats itself 60 times. The monsters are all different, and they emerge from some waterfall like lumbering idiots, and the last "monster" is Ronald McDonald who has the strongest armour. HAHA that's so aimless! At least in Hello Kitty Bubblegum, the Kitty or the squirrel goes somewhere.
Lurong commented yet again that I fall sick easily. She thinks that Nutseed might be the cause of all my cold attacks or fever or sore throat or whatever. Well, come to think of it yes I've fallen sick more often in the past two years, ever since I got Nutseed two Christmas-es ago. Then I told her that it's almost 2 years already and Nutseed might die soon anyway... THEN I STOPPED MYSELF IN HORROR. Nutseed dying? Noooooooooooo! I'll be absolutely heart-broken and wrecked!!
Then I immediately thought of the last time Yurong said nonchalantly that she wish her favourite show "would end soon cos it's getting quite draggy...", then I pointed out to her that it's ending in 2 weeks. Haha.
Maybe you really do take things for granted after a while, especially when they've played an everpresent role in your life. I mean, I can boast to the whole world that I never ever take for granted the precious things in my life (which I often does anyway). But it's really a humbling experience to realise that maybe you've indeed trivialised the importance of something beloved.
I'm thinking a lot recently. I've been thinking about my past experiences and how each time I've disappointed someone by not keeping my end of my promises. It's dastardly easy to spray my words everywhere and not think about it, but when you actually do disappoint someone, that look on the other person's face sure isn't nice. In the midst of talking to Jaslyn today, I had my humiliating tendencies again. They are surprisingly normal recently. It pains me to just describe my actions, to relate my emotions and relive those memories. I think I'm really monstrous and hideous and outrageous and everything negative. Oh crap. And again I try and escape by trivialising my actions, trying to make it sound nonchalant and normal, trying to make it sound as if I did all those without giving a second thought.
I feel tormented by my nose. It cannot stop running. Kai Jie says my timing for 2.4km is quite good, so my nose's stamina will be quite good too and it'll run on for quite some time. How shameless a pun, to describe it in KaiJ's words. And he's prophetically true too, cos it's been leaking for the whole day.
I used up like 7 packets of tissue today! I finished Rongyao's packet, almost finished Jaslyn's packet, finished 4 packets which I bought from the drinks stall uncle, and another packet that I found at Jericho. And that's not counting that huge roll of toilet paper that I stole from the female toilet at the Oasis! Haha of course I couldn't have finished that, but I think I contributed quite a large percentage to Singapore's collected waste today.
White, soggy, papery stuff flooding all the bins. Full of sticky mucus. White white white stuff. OH GOSH THAT'S SICK.
Anyway, school started today after my common tests ended yesterday. Ms Ting had the first period, and she basically lamented about our Geography paper, and how we submitted essays that lack depth and quality and whatever. Haha it was quite okay to me cos I was in a bad mood and was already starting to feel sick. What a way to start the day.
We got back our Maths today! I flunked it again, got 30 something which was almost similar to my first common test this year. And I feel so stupid at myself!! What's that? I spent DAYS slogging all those integration and differentials and complex numbers and statistics. Then I happily blanked out during my actual paper. UGH UGH UGH. I forgot my series summation formulae, then I forgot that I had to de-permutate, then I lost like a huge sum of marks to carelessness, AND I SPENT 3 DAYS DOING COMPLEX NUMBERS AND THEN DID SOMETHING FUNNY TO THE QUESTION AND I COULDN'T ANSWER IT. Bloody bookie bash blooie bafoolus.
Atiqah sat down with me to go through our papers together. The more we did, the more I felt so stupid. I mean, it's partly my fault too, cos I didn't study some topics and that amounted to 10 marks or so too, but I still feel so dumb. We took the table in the library that faced the grilled windows, and both of us felt like caged birds. HAHA.
Speaking of library, I went to borrow some Geography books today! Ms Ting recommended to us some guides that were available in the library, and I happened to find three of them! Some series of topics called Access to Geography, and I felt like being a mugger, so I borrowed all of them. Ahh she'll be pleased that people are borrowing Geog books and the school admin will give the Geog department more money to spend on books.
Eh yup. I didn't realise it, but I've spent my past 3 weeks of my holidays at KAP. 3 weeks. KAP. Practically everyday was spent there studying. They've been repeating the same music from the same CD everyday, and yesterday was the first time that they changed it. Haha! But KAP's great. I can concentrate there. Mugging with Yurong and Rong and the rest of her friends, or with some of my classmates, or most of the time I'm alone.
Got to meet new people too! Yesh I'm there so often, so I had better have some funky incidents there. There's of course, Yurong's friends, then there was this NJCian whom I had a "staring contest" with. Haha! She was like, 2 tables opposite me on some day, and I happened to look at her while thinking about Geog, and she was looking in my way too, so for the next 8 hours we alternated looks at each other and seeing who will break the stare first. Then there were the 2 MGS girls that I gave marshmallows to, and some hyperactive kids every other day.
Okie here's something that was most impactful in my time at KAP. A ROBBERY TOOK PLACE! Yep. Two days ago, I was there as usual, and this Malay guy in his 20s walked in and sat opposite me. He kept looking at me and at the couple next to me, so I stared back at him (cos I'm the best at staring). Basically he loitered around for half an hour, before making a sudden move at the guy next to me! Took his wallet and phone and ran for the door.
Crap the first thing that came to my mind was it's a practical joke! Haha silly me. I only realised that the robbery happened like 30 seconds after, and of course the guy next to me had a much better reaction time than me. He sprang up, chase after the guy and came back with his belongings 10 minutes later. Apparently the robber was handed over to some security guard somewhere.
Robbery at KAP in lunch hours! Whoo that's a first in my life. And what was scary was that I left my phone in the exact same position as the guy next to me. On the table with my focus on my notes rather than anywhere else. But the guy next to me had a much better phone model of course, but apparently the robber picked the wrong guy cos he looked atheletic and had a much faster lag-time.
My most meaningful thing that happened, however, was yesterday. This 2 guys came to my table and started talking to me about this new seminar that Singapore Youth For Christ is having. I recognised one of them who was the emcee for the Da Vinci Code seminar the last time! So we had a casual talk about Christianity, getting to know more about each other and stuff. To me, it's amazing how you can make friends with strangers, but they share the same faith with you. Whee ha.
I spent quite some time coming up with the Green Link EXCO registration forms last week. Gave it out to the juniors today, cos Green Link's camp is this weekend. Questions that I found extremely enticing were "Which do you prefer: tomato soup or mushroom soup?" Haha! I can't wait to get the responses back! Utter stupidity! I really couldn't resist including an entire section of nonsensical questions.
Resumed tuition with Hai Hao from this week onwards. He's put on so much more weight now! After tuition I played that Hello Kitty game! There's this computer game called Hello Kitty Bubblegum or something like that, some kiddy game collection that featured Hello Kitties which En Ning plays. I tried the squirrel-with-trampoline game where you're supposed to keep bouncing the squirrel up to get the ice cream. FUNKY.
I can't understand Element TD. It's this kill-the-monster game that Ben and Ke You and Jon and even Lurong who thinks it's fun. It's just monsters walking down the lane and volcanoes blasting at them, and you have to build more volcanoes to kill more of them and it repeats itself 60 times. The monsters are all different, and they emerge from some waterfall like lumbering idiots, and the last "monster" is Ronald McDonald who has the strongest armour. HAHA that's so aimless! At least in Hello Kitty Bubblegum, the Kitty or the squirrel goes somewhere.
Lurong commented yet again that I fall sick easily. She thinks that Nutseed might be the cause of all my cold attacks or fever or sore throat or whatever. Well, come to think of it yes I've fallen sick more often in the past two years, ever since I got Nutseed two Christmas-es ago. Then I told her that it's almost 2 years already and Nutseed might die soon anyway... THEN I STOPPED MYSELF IN HORROR. Nutseed dying? Noooooooooooo! I'll be absolutely heart-broken and wrecked!!
Then I immediately thought of the last time Yurong said nonchalantly that she wish her favourite show "would end soon cos it's getting quite draggy...", then I pointed out to her that it's ending in 2 weeks. Haha.
Maybe you really do take things for granted after a while, especially when they've played an everpresent role in your life. I mean, I can boast to the whole world that I never ever take for granted the precious things in my life (which I often does anyway). But it's really a humbling experience to realise that maybe you've indeed trivialised the importance of something beloved.
I'm thinking a lot recently. I've been thinking about my past experiences and how each time I've disappointed someone by not keeping my end of my promises. It's dastardly easy to spray my words everywhere and not think about it, but when you actually do disappoint someone, that look on the other person's face sure isn't nice. In the midst of talking to Jaslyn today, I had my humiliating tendencies again. They are surprisingly normal recently. It pains me to just describe my actions, to relate my emotions and relive those memories. I think I'm really monstrous and hideous and outrageous and everything negative. Oh crap. And again I try and escape by trivialising my actions, trying to make it sound nonchalant and normal, trying to make it sound as if I did all those without giving a second thought.
I feel tormented by my nose. It cannot stop running. Kai Jie says my timing for 2.4km is quite good, so my nose's stamina will be quite good too and it'll run on for quite some time. How shameless a pun, to describe it in KaiJ's words. And he's prophetically true too, cos it's been leaking for the whole day.
Sunday, 2 July 2006
My cousin and my aunt arrived last night to stayover. My cousin's hyperactive, but she's so adorable that she makes up for whatever horrors that she may bring along. I'm very happy.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and ended up with a foul mood the whole day. Totally grumpy and my parents had to drag me out for breakfast with them. I'm very sad.
Nutseed is looking so much better now. I think she recovered by herself or something miraculous happened. She's eating and much more lively now. Tried to pick her up just now but she was squirming so much that she bit me. But I'm very happy.
Went to KAP in the morning to study. What's new? I go there practically everyday just to study. I haven't gotten sick of that place yet, but I'm definitely tired of having to study everyday. I'm very sad.
Came back to Bishan in the afternoon cos me and Joel are meeting Sarah and Adriel. Walking on the way from the bus-stop to corps, I saw a black-naped oriole. I think they're the most handsome-looking bird in Singapore. And they're not that uncommon, so I can practically see 3 or 4 in a week. I'm very happy.
I can't pronounce "Rick Warren" without it sounding like Wick Lauren or Rick Wauwen or Lick Warren. I'm very sad.
Went to Jericho for a short while, then I left the place feeling even more depressed before I went in. After a while I decided to go back to KAP to study again cos I didn't feel like going home. It's kinda stupid travelling back to where I was in the morning. I'm very sad.
I like Brave New World. I think it's pure brilliance of Huxley to come up with so many funky scientific ideas and making up the entire fictitious World State, then he goes on to ridicule it and present it's flaws of that dystopia. I'm very happy.
Usually I try and see the better side of people as much as possible. But recently I think my perspectives are focusing so much on the flaws of people around me. I'm very sad.
I realised that I've gotten more and more short-tempered. I'm very sad.
I think my life is so damn screwed up. Or rather, I think I'm screwing other people's lives up. I'm very sad.
I love Janvin for telling me that the word "italicised" exist. I love Haikel for providing the new Indian Dance president's contact number. I love Adrian (although he meant it for Jaslyn) for informing me the chapters excluded for BNW. I'm very happy.
I'll be even more busy after common tests. Schedules and meetings and things to do all piling up one after another the moment I end my Lit paper on Tuesday. I'm very sad.
Sometimes I'm of the impression that the whole world is trying to trip me on my heels. Sometimes I think nobody in this world truly understands what I feel, except God. I'm very sad.
I think somebody once told me before that her life is filled with 2 emotions only: either happy or sad. Can't remember who, but this is exactly what I'm feeling now. Each day now is filled with both happy stuff and sad stuff. I feel like retreating to Alaska and be a hermit, but at the same time I'm quite content with my life now. Oh shoots.
Today shall be a sad day, since I'm more sad than happy.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and ended up with a foul mood the whole day. Totally grumpy and my parents had to drag me out for breakfast with them. I'm very sad.
Nutseed is looking so much better now. I think she recovered by herself or something miraculous happened. She's eating and much more lively now. Tried to pick her up just now but she was squirming so much that she bit me. But I'm very happy.
Went to KAP in the morning to study. What's new? I go there practically everyday just to study. I haven't gotten sick of that place yet, but I'm definitely tired of having to study everyday. I'm very sad.
Came back to Bishan in the afternoon cos me and Joel are meeting Sarah and Adriel. Walking on the way from the bus-stop to corps, I saw a black-naped oriole. I think they're the most handsome-looking bird in Singapore. And they're not that uncommon, so I can practically see 3 or 4 in a week. I'm very happy.
I can't pronounce "Rick Warren" without it sounding like Wick Lauren or Rick Wauwen or Lick Warren. I'm very sad.
Went to Jericho for a short while, then I left the place feeling even more depressed before I went in. After a while I decided to go back to KAP to study again cos I didn't feel like going home. It's kinda stupid travelling back to where I was in the morning. I'm very sad.
I like Brave New World. I think it's pure brilliance of Huxley to come up with so many funky scientific ideas and making up the entire fictitious World State, then he goes on to ridicule it and present it's flaws of that dystopia. I'm very happy.
Usually I try and see the better side of people as much as possible. But recently I think my perspectives are focusing so much on the flaws of people around me. I'm very sad.
I realised that I've gotten more and more short-tempered. I'm very sad.
I think my life is so damn screwed up. Or rather, I think I'm screwing other people's lives up. I'm very sad.
I love Janvin for telling me that the word "italicised" exist. I love Haikel for providing the new Indian Dance president's contact number. I love Adrian (although he meant it for Jaslyn) for informing me the chapters excluded for BNW. I'm very happy.
I'll be even more busy after common tests. Schedules and meetings and things to do all piling up one after another the moment I end my Lit paper on Tuesday. I'm very sad.
Sometimes I'm of the impression that the whole world is trying to trip me on my heels. Sometimes I think nobody in this world truly understands what I feel, except God. I'm very sad.
I think somebody once told me before that her life is filled with 2 emotions only: either happy or sad. Can't remember who, but this is exactly what I'm feeling now. Each day now is filled with both happy stuff and sad stuff. I feel like retreating to Alaska and be a hermit, but at the same time I'm quite content with my life now. Oh shoots.
Today shall be a sad day, since I'm more sad than happy.
Saturday, 1 July 2006
My original plan for today was to go school for Green Link meeting, then go KAP to study or to bring Nutseed to the vet. But I ended up doing completely different things. So much for wanting to power-study 15 of Herby Herbert's poems and finish Brave New World by today.
Well okay I did go school in the morning. We're going to have Green Link camp next week, so there's some briefing to be done and finalising the EXCO selection. The meeting took 2 hours. Actual briefing and discussions only needed half an hour, but the people kept changing topics in the middle of nowhere or they end up lamenting about Argentina losing to Germany on penalty shootout. And I'm so glad I didn't have to chair the meeting cos I'm so bloody depressed that Nutseed's sick, so I just stoned through most of their irrelevant chatterings.
After the meeting I was about to go home to study, but Shermin called and said that her, Adriel and Sarah are at Nanyang Girls' funfair. Needed something to cheer me up anyway, so I just hopped over from my school. Spent $2 on a 4-goal table soccer challenge with Adriel (score was 2-2). Then spent another $2 on coke floats, and blew $6 on a lucky draw that I didn't win. Pity there were no fishing games! Haha Yurong will be disappointed too. Typical obsequious stall owners trying to sell their overpriced stuff. And they're auctioning off tables that have a 60-year NYGH history for $250.
Scurried around trying to look for Zhi Yi. I found her at the back of the hall at some stall selling weird instant food. She had much shorter hair than the last time I saw her! Then I saw Benedict, Hong Bin and Malcolm too, who were there to support one of the new Dale Carnegie graduates of whom they were GA (Group Assistants) for. Haha they introduced me as a "senior" to that girl, whoever she is. And met Douglas in his hot pink teeshirt too.
We headed down to Coronation Plaza for lunch after that. Ate at this antique chinese restaurant that I didn't know existed in Coro. Sarah argues with me like some motor-mouth; Shermin's my new girlfriend; Adriel's funky with Sarsi. Accompanied Sarah all the way to MacRitchie to send her home, then the 3 of us went town to go shopping for board games and Shermin's new wallet, though she didn't get any in the end. Met Su Kai at Heeren!
The good news is that Nutseed is much better-looking than yesterday. Her eyes look sharper and she's eating again, but she's still sleeping most of the time. In fact she's sleeping next to my computer mouse now.
Well okay I did go school in the morning. We're going to have Green Link camp next week, so there's some briefing to be done and finalising the EXCO selection. The meeting took 2 hours. Actual briefing and discussions only needed half an hour, but the people kept changing topics in the middle of nowhere or they end up lamenting about Argentina losing to Germany on penalty shootout. And I'm so glad I didn't have to chair the meeting cos I'm so bloody depressed that Nutseed's sick, so I just stoned through most of their irrelevant chatterings.
After the meeting I was about to go home to study, but Shermin called and said that her, Adriel and Sarah are at Nanyang Girls' funfair. Needed something to cheer me up anyway, so I just hopped over from my school. Spent $2 on a 4-goal table soccer challenge with Adriel (score was 2-2). Then spent another $2 on coke floats, and blew $6 on a lucky draw that I didn't win. Pity there were no fishing games! Haha Yurong will be disappointed too. Typical obsequious stall owners trying to sell their overpriced stuff. And they're auctioning off tables that have a 60-year NYGH history for $250.
Scurried around trying to look for Zhi Yi. I found her at the back of the hall at some stall selling weird instant food. She had much shorter hair than the last time I saw her! Then I saw Benedict, Hong Bin and Malcolm too, who were there to support one of the new Dale Carnegie graduates of whom they were GA (Group Assistants) for. Haha they introduced me as a "senior" to that girl, whoever she is. And met Douglas in his hot pink teeshirt too.
We headed down to Coronation Plaza for lunch after that. Ate at this antique chinese restaurant that I didn't know existed in Coro. Sarah argues with me like some motor-mouth; Shermin's my new girlfriend; Adriel's funky with Sarsi. Accompanied Sarah all the way to MacRitchie to send her home, then the 3 of us went town to go shopping for board games and Shermin's new wallet, though she didn't get any in the end. Met Su Kai at Heeren!
The good news is that Nutseed is much better-looking than yesterday. Her eyes look sharper and she's eating again, but she's still sleeping most of the time. In fact she's sleeping next to my computer mouse now.
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