CHOMP CHOMP... Prelims are over, but it's only Prelim Number 1, still got Prelim Number 2 and Number 3 coming up, but never mind... This is the first time I actually feel confident for any of my exams. Don't quite get it though, cos this time round the subjects tested were all easy ones, then the paper come out also very easy, so I think I can be quite confident of my results... Or at least I hope so...

Time for me to slack now... My next prelim doesn't begin till July, so I got two months off. I think I'll have a fun time laughing at everyone who has yet to complete their exams... Heh, I call this "exam encouragement"... Quiet time with God was awesome again... I'm quite satiated and contented now, but still a bit sad at the way things are going...

YOW! Prelims RAWKZZZ!! Erm... okie, maybe prelims not that rocky, but it's definitely pebbly...

Today's prelims were quite good, except Chemistry which I think it a bit too difficult. Then Maths Paper 1 was so-so, but Paper 2 was a superbly easy piece of paper... Then it's also the first time that I feel confident in scoring well for History... That's a good sign so far...

Mrs Pang gave me a hard time today... She asked me why the walls of the classroom got a lot of black stuff, then ask why the class walls got a lot of foot-prints on them. You see, the black stuff were remnants from the bananas that Luke threw into the fan a few weeks ago, then my class like to play with soccer balls and bottle caps and whatever whatnot, so the entire class is filled with foot-prints and ball-prints. Not to mention that the blades of the fans in my class are all bent, cos people keep throwing things into the fans.

So there I was, trying to explain to Mrs Pang about the foot-prints and the black stuff hardened on the walls... Eh, erm, I said those black compounds were rust from the fans, then the foot-prints were unknown to me... Don't know, I'm bad at coming up with excuses, but anyway, Mrs Pang didn't look too convinced, but I scurried away with no harm...

Then Luke apologised to me for those black stuff, then he was telling me about throwing his entire cabinet of textbooks from his house after O levels... I think he's really a bonafide and certified nutter wacko... But who gives a nut? He's funny and great to have around as a resident wacko...

Then Cheryn was telling me about a bring her friend to FCBC then she went off rattling about introducing me to her friend then Luke to her friend then her friend to Luke then her friend to Yicheng then Yicheng to her friend and goodness knows what. Orh, then she explained quite a bit to me about communions and baptisms... I never really knew all that stuff, cos I'm stuck in a Christian background from young without all these practices, yar... And Cheryn wants a one-toothed smile cos she thinks one-toothed smiles are cute...

I saw this sweet little girl with her mum under my block while I was going home. She was staring at me like I was some alien, so I twisted my face into a T-Rex styled facial expression and opened my mouth wide as if to chomp on her. But this sweet little girl (probably 5-6 years old) gave me a smile, then I smiled back, then she came over and hugged me... Schupp!! She hugged me! Well, of course she wasn't that tall so she only managed to put her arms round my legs, but it's still very sweet... Then her mother gave me a nice smile, then they went away...

I wish I can go around hugging people as well, but I think it'll be quite awkward if I just go around hugging people, let alone people that i don't even know...

I'm still a T-Rex for today, and possibly for the next few days... ROAR...CHOMP CHOMP... I'm MONSTER T-REX...

Hmm... I just finished quiet time with God, then was about to start more studying for prelims when I said "what the heck", so here I am, in front of the computer, then I said "what the heck" again, so here I am, posting on my blog...

I'm a T-Rex for the next three days. I'm craving for meat...

Chinese prelims was a blast... This time round for higher chinese students they are not testing us compo, so I thought that the paper is a definite difficult paper, but hey! It was quite easy, then all the words that I studied came out... Can't really believe it's a prelim paper... Well, not that I'm complaining, but if can score good marks for Chinese, of course I'll be happy right??

I'm tired and beat. There are a lot of times in this year when I felt like giving up all my responsibilities and just running away from everything that I have to handle. But I can't exactly do that. I'm exhausted from a lot of stress, but I think God kept me happy and in good spirits... I've got a wonderful family support, then I've got good friends who are there to care...

Caterpillars are amazing creatures... I've learnt a lot about attitude from these furry creatures. I think God made caterpillars to be cute and nice at all times... Somehow or rather, I'm always struck by their mental strength. Think of it: inside that crawling insect is the potential to be a butterfly. And if it is related to us human beings, God is trying to put a reminder in our lives that we too are like the caterpillars, with the potential to become a beautiful butterfly.

Eh... I think I'm being too nature-minded... But it can't be helped, cos I'm a nature guide...

Willing To Bleed

She stood outside the doorway of the church intrigued by the love inside. The American missionary had asked her to come in, but she had politely declined. It wasn't because she didn't want to accept the kind offer. Quite the opposite; her heart was beckoning her to join in their singing and worship. They seemed so happy, and the fellowship was so spontaneous and natural. But this was a hostile area in the Philippines, and her father had strictly forbidden her to have anything to do with "those Christians".

Unknown to the little Filipino girl, the missionary was praying fervently for her soul, longing to see the day when she would accompany her inside the village church and learn of Jesus and how He shed His blood on a cross so that her sins could be washed away. The girl knew something was happening because each week she found it harder and harder to say no to the missionary.

Finally one Sunday morning, she accepted. She accepted the invitation to attend the Sunday school class, but also opened her heart to Jesus and became a child of God. The missionary, overjoyed with the new believer, soon presented her with a beautiful white dress, representing the fact that Jesus had washed all her sins away.

Anxious to see her new disciple the missionary rushed to the next service. But the girl was nowhere to be found. No one had seen or heard of her whereabouts. Concerned for the girl, the missionary travelled to her home village. Upon arriving at her home, she found the young new believer lying in the dirt. Her white dress was torn, filthy, and soaked in blood. The father hadn't shared the missionary's joy in his daughter's newfound faith.

In a drunken rage he had beaten her, repeatedly kicked her, and left her to die. The missionary gently lifted the fragile girl and carried her back to the church where a doctor rushed in to help her. But there was nothing he could do. He removed the ragged dress and cleaned her, but the injuries were too severe. The young Filipino girl would soon die.

The missionary and other friends stayed with her, trying to comfort her during her final hours. Upon regaining consciousness she made an unusual request. Despite the pain and trauma of her father's beating, she was insistent on holding the white dress the missionary had given her.

They explained that it was torn and soaked with blood and dirt, but she insisted on having it in her hands.

With the simple faith of a ten-year old she whispered, "I just want Jesus to know I was willing to bleed for Him."

Author Unknown

Just ended 6 solid hours in school today. Prelims are coming in less than a week, so all of a sudden there's a frantic rush from all the teachers trying to book us for remedials... It's been quite a busy week so far, with a lot of homework each day and a little sleep each night.

Nothing's changed much over the past few days. Luke is still as nutty as ever, my sis is still trying to slap/kick/hit/punch me, Ngoh still as heck a "brudder", Cheryn still as cheerful, stress level still as high as before... I don't know, I'm just wishing that something major would happen. Maybe it could take my mind off a few things...

Went to ACS Barker for Cheryn's choir concert last night with Dora and Andre and Yan Peng and Ngoh and Joanne and Yong Wen... Erm, we planned to be seated comfortably by 1900, but got lost halfway, then ended up following some people with flowers who didn't know the way either, then took two buses and walked some more before we reached that ulu place... The choir was quite okay, although I think the primary choir sounded nicer (and cuter), then Cheryn looked like some eerie girl with lots of make-up... Nicely performed anyway, then the transitions also quite smooth and the acoustics was brilliant...

There's still about 2-3 more hours before I go for MY school symphony band's Aesthetique... Location at VCH, so I probably wouldn't get lost this time...

Easter came and went without much activity. I spent a lot of time on quiet time with God during this time. My goodness, I think God really has a lot of stuff to say to me. It's one of those times when you have someone next to you and guiding your every path.

I missed many people. I missed Shannon. Somehow, thinking about people that are still alive and thinking about Shannon is a major difference, because she's well, dead... Four months or so since she went up to heaven. It's still very difficult for me to just forget about her and continue with life. I thought about Christ dying on the cross for my sins, then I thought of Shannon...

Lord, open my eyes to focus on You, with all the faith I can muster...

I'm taking things a bit easy now... feeling very tied down and tired with a lot of commitments... Luke and Yicheng didn't make it to the finals, both of them quite disappointed, but okay about it...

Good Friday... Thank you Father for the cross, and Jesus for dying on that cross for my salvation.

Another eventful day at school today...

Barely three minutes after I reached school this morning, Mrs Tay came outside my classroom to tell me of a last-minute arrrangement for a nature guide duty. Something about some Pri. 3 kids learning journey to MacRitchie, and we nature guides had to go guide them... Eh, I'll term them "Coleman's juniors"... Goodness, these P 3 kids are a bunch of hyperactive freaks. They NEVER stop running everywhere, then they have motor mouths that kept sprouting gibberish and asking all kinds of questions... But hey, they are still kinda cute-looking...

Yar, anyway, I was supposed to be one of the guides, but I ended as the camera-man... So I had this wonderful opportunity to roam around and follow any random groups, and heck, it really paid off. There was this bunch of P 3 "bikini advertisement models" that insisted on posing for the camera... So the entire afternoon of mine was burnt with kids in different hilarious poses, with funny catch-up lines like "I not sexy, so don't take photos of me", but they still do anyway... But I had to submit some quality photos to Mrs Tay, so I had to delete those stupid pics and take more sensible ones...

Then I rushed back to school to catch the auditions for CH Music Awards... I got back just in time to see the Rock Band Category... Man, I didn't know there were that many guitarists and bassists and drummers in my school!! They were quite good, but a bit disorganised and very punkish-rocky... but er, it's RAWK music...

Pity I didn't rush back in time to see Luke and Yicheng perform... They did Eric Clapton's "Tears in Heaven". Don't know how they fared, but I heard they did quite good, but Luke thought he screwed up somewhere and Yicheng was all gloomy... Eh, they sounded quite good when I heard them rehearse, except some minor hiccups, but I think they should get into the finals fine... Although I think Luke should be in the Rock Band category, coz he has this punkish jacket on during the auditions...

Came back from MacRitchie full of mosquito bites as well... You just have to stand still for 10 seconds, then the swarm will come attacking you and leave in 10 seconds flat as well, but you'll be left with HUGE bites on your limbs.... And I wouldn't advise swatting them, coz these mozzies are so full with blood that the blood splatter everywhere when you swat. Er, take a advice from me: treat mozzie bites with toothpaste. They really work. And take another leaf out of my book: Give someone toothpaste(s) for their birthdays next time. Especially those who gets mozzie bites quite often and those who believe toothpastes are only for teeth and nothing else.

Talking on the phone with Cheryn right now... The phone is full with static and I can't really hear her properly... Either it's the phone or it's her voice that's funny-sounding... Go figure out yourself...

WOOHOO!! I'm feeling much much better now... Didn't see Mrs Pang for the whole day at all, then Luke is going crazy and Yi Cheng is a bit looney... Good day to all!!

I'm getting very sick and tired of everything that's going around me. Everything seems to have lost its meaning and purpose in this lousy week... It's been quite a bad day for me... I finally broke down from all that stress on Friday, and I was this angry maniac going around yelling at everyone that pissed me off. It was probably the first time in more than 2 years since I last got that angry at anything.

I'm in a very snappy mood right now. I think I better isolate myself for a few days first. I'm very keyed up and tensed lately... 2 years since I last got that pissed off. Goodness, it's that long...

I'm telling Mrs Pang that I'm quitting. I really can't take this nonsense anymore. My post as monitor sucks, and it's getting in the way of my mood. I'm very tired of handling all these admin stuff that she's supposed to do, not me.

It's Cheryn's and Keat Fu's birthdays today... Both of them are wonderful and amazing people, so God bless them on their birthdays... Missed a lot of people (again)... QT was awesome... God is trying to say something to me, but I'm not sure what... Have to spend more time talking with the Creator up there...

Changed the blog music to "Be Magnified". I think it's befitting for the occasion, considering the mood I'm in now... Very meaningful song...