Just came home from school. I think it's been quite some time since I was home so early on a school day. I mean, my timetable's quite good cos I usually end lessons early, but now I'm staying back in school for additional consultations, or I go somewhere else to slack, or I just refuse to go home until it's dinnertime cos I don't feel like going home so early. But the whole point of this is, I'M HOME.
Yep I shaved off all my hair, and everyone now has something to comment on my roundish head. HAHA! Ms Teo went "OH MY GOSH, but was it some catharsis? But you look quite nice". Why does everyone relate it to stress? I'm not stressed; I was just feeling stupid. Yea I agree with Chiew Yee I think I look like some tortoise. And now everyone wants to pat my head.
The school had a blood donation drive yesterday. Me and Atiqah wanted to go donate together, but the requirements were extremely stringent. Half my class tried to go donate, but they were rejected cos of some illness in the last month or low iron count or something. I had a fever last week and the lady told me I can't donate cos the virus can remain in the bloodstream. So while Atiqah was waiting for her turn, I volunteered at the front desk and helped to distribute the forms and stickers for the people who are donating. Which was fun also, cos I got to engage with people. Whee.
We played hide and seek during PE yesterday! Half the class disappeared to go donate blood, then a few of us goofed around at the grandstand. And later, we climbed up some hill facing the road, and waved like crazy at all the vehicles passing by. I think it was quite a hilarious sight! People gawked at us, a few waved back, but we were having fun.
And today was kinda boring. Stayed back in school for a while to hear Kurt practise on the piano, then me, Benny and Kai Jie went to explore the ceiling of LT5. There wasn't anything fascinating! But we tried to learn how to operate the visualizer, and played with the computer in LT3 until some teacher caught us. Then me and Benny gave some stupid remark. And Judith took some photos of me which I think is purely dumb! I'll bug her for the photos.
Some bee was drinking my soya bean with me this morning. Was sitting at the canteen with Shermin before assembly, and for some reason there were a lot of dead bees on the floor. But there was one alive one, and it flew to my drink and sucked up all the soya bean on the rims of the cup, and it even left a bit of itself in the soya bean (although I didn't care and just drank it)! It looks fuzzy. Like some fur coat.
I think it's possible to miss my classmates if they don't come school. Like I'm so used to hanging out with Jaslyn during all those free Econs periods, and she hasn't been in school all week cos she's sick. Then me and Khairi will sit together during Maths lectures, and go buy soya bean after assembly every Thursday, but when he disappears from school it's just WEIRD. Haha this whole week the class attendance is horrible cos everyone's skipping school or lessons.
I've gotten my CCA records endorsed by Mr Loh! I realised 3 paragraphs of writing about your achievements is quite stressful. And 100 words per paragraph is a lot! I have to be super thick skin and write about my "outstanding leadership" and whatever hyperbolic adjectives that I can think of.
Listening to Hillsong's "One Way" now. I'm going to lead worship with Yurong in an hour's time. And my way of preparation for the songs that I'm going to sing is to just listen to it over and over again. Blah I'm getting quite sick of the tune, but surprisingly the song is still impactful even after hearing it replayed 9 times.
Atiqah told me I can't migrate cos I'm not a migratory bird. I'M SO SAD.
Friday, 25 August 2006
Thursday, 24 August 2006
Hmm it's been quite a long time since I was last online. Or rather it's been a long time since I last switched on this computer. Which means I get to sleep more. Which means much lesser nights spent being awake till 3am. Which means I'm more energetic. Which means I've got more time to study or do work or whatever.
I skipped school on Monday with Qiling! I didn't have any incentive to go school anyway cos I didn't complete any of my assignments. Slept at 7.30pm on Sunday night and didn't wake up till 5am (I wanted to wake up at 12 midnight to do work), then saw Qiling's invitational message to go KAP to study, so I did. We brought so many Lit texts and our sweaters and whatever, like as if we're going Japan to mug, but ended up doing Maths AP/GP/series the whole morning. And we had to go back school for Maths consultation?? Whoever skips school to go back in the afternoon? But we gave Ms Sim DARK chocolate and revealed our absense as a result.
Lime Green the Bear is such an awful name. At least call it Greenie or something??
And the best thing that happened all week: I PASSED MY STATS PAPER! Okay I got 54% which is a D, but it's an achievement to me considering that I flunked Maths the whole of this year? I think my whole script was filled with a lot of red circles and underlines and crosses and whatever, but somehow I still got marks for that. Whatever... I PASSED! I shall work harder to avoid sitting at that depression table in the library with Atiqah again.
I was walking through the butterfly garden on Monday. Then Rhoda messaged me at night to tell me that Karen and her saw butterflies in the garden, so it's a successful one. HAHA. But it's growing so well that the plants are expanding into the walkway and crowding everything up, but nobody wants to prune it cos it's too nice to be pruned.
I was quite proud of myself yesterday. Didn't bring Silas Marner to school, so I wanted to skip Mr Dio's tutorial. But Khairi sort of forced me to go and I borrowed Nani's book, so I didn't skip. Then I wanted to skip GP cos my comprehension was still incomplete, but I went anyway. And I wanted to skip Geog but Ms Ting cancelled the afternoon session so I had nothing to skip. In fact I turned up for everything I was supposed to turn up for despite so many temptations.
Blee. Trivial pursuits. I think school is just numbing. I've been hyper-stressed by studying since the start of August, and now I'm so used to it that it's just normal. That's why I need to do stupid things in school to entertain myself. Like stealing paper from the printing room, or trying to smuggle out books from the library to see if the alarm works. Whatever.
I was playing with one of those yellow "Caution: Wet Floor" signs in the canteen, and the cleaner caught me! BLAH. I stayed back today and had an hour chatting with Mr Loh, my Green Link teacher. Waved at the Japanese stall auntie, the one with heavily-pencilled eyebrows. I didn't know how to say "photocopy" in Chinese. Played hangman in the BYTZ with Atiqah. Trying to communicate with aliens.
I've got 2 babies in school. My butterfly garden and the Green Audit certificate displayed outside LT1. Remnants from Green Link. Talking to Mr Loh about whatever new environmental projects that the juniors are going to do this year, and I realised I'm so glad I'm out of Green Link. I'm just glad that I'm not involved anymore. It's not detest, it's relief. And Mr Loh says he's been doing environmental audits for 10 plus years?? I can't even stand one-year-half!
It's a really stupid day today. Did I mention that I really shaved my hair off? Yea I did, and now my head is sooo round. My dad thinks it's too short, my mum thinks it's funky. I want to dye it green or something, so that when my hair grows out it's green-tipped. Something like that. WHEE.
And of course, I did stupid things on my very stupid day today. Extremely stupid things. And I was the one who initiated it. I suggested it. I proposed it. I gone for it. STUPID. But I had fun too, from doing whatever stupid stuff I can do. You know, just to play and not be serious and have fun. AARGH. I can't believe myself. I don't even know what overcame me. It's just stupid, like dumb and idiotic. Nah I'm not about to reveal what stupid things I did, cos it's just stupid. Let me ramble on. So I'm being a total idiot and I lost my senses and I didn't know what was happening although I was happy and having fun. What a whirl. Well okay I know I wasn't that delirious, but certainly enough to do stupid things. Whee.
I wish the world was simpler. I sure wouldn't mind being all idealistic and live on the fields with 3 thousand other people running around naked and plucking berries and drinking milk all day. That would be nice, but life's gotta have some challenges somewhere. And I'm glad for these challenges. Well, okay, in a way...
Running around naked. That's a good one.
I skipped school on Monday with Qiling! I didn't have any incentive to go school anyway cos I didn't complete any of my assignments. Slept at 7.30pm on Sunday night and didn't wake up till 5am (I wanted to wake up at 12 midnight to do work), then saw Qiling's invitational message to go KAP to study, so I did. We brought so many Lit texts and our sweaters and whatever, like as if we're going Japan to mug, but ended up doing Maths AP/GP/series the whole morning. And we had to go back school for Maths consultation?? Whoever skips school to go back in the afternoon? But we gave Ms Sim DARK chocolate and revealed our absense as a result.
Lime Green the Bear is such an awful name. At least call it Greenie or something??
And the best thing that happened all week: I PASSED MY STATS PAPER! Okay I got 54% which is a D, but it's an achievement to me considering that I flunked Maths the whole of this year? I think my whole script was filled with a lot of red circles and underlines and crosses and whatever, but somehow I still got marks for that. Whatever... I PASSED! I shall work harder to avoid sitting at that depression table in the library with Atiqah again.
I was walking through the butterfly garden on Monday. Then Rhoda messaged me at night to tell me that Karen and her saw butterflies in the garden, so it's a successful one. HAHA. But it's growing so well that the plants are expanding into the walkway and crowding everything up, but nobody wants to prune it cos it's too nice to be pruned.
I was quite proud of myself yesterday. Didn't bring Silas Marner to school, so I wanted to skip Mr Dio's tutorial. But Khairi sort of forced me to go and I borrowed Nani's book, so I didn't skip. Then I wanted to skip GP cos my comprehension was still incomplete, but I went anyway. And I wanted to skip Geog but Ms Ting cancelled the afternoon session so I had nothing to skip. In fact I turned up for everything I was supposed to turn up for despite so many temptations.
Blee. Trivial pursuits. I think school is just numbing. I've been hyper-stressed by studying since the start of August, and now I'm so used to it that it's just normal. That's why I need to do stupid things in school to entertain myself. Like stealing paper from the printing room, or trying to smuggle out books from the library to see if the alarm works. Whatever.
I was playing with one of those yellow "Caution: Wet Floor" signs in the canteen, and the cleaner caught me! BLAH. I stayed back today and had an hour chatting with Mr Loh, my Green Link teacher. Waved at the Japanese stall auntie, the one with heavily-pencilled eyebrows. I didn't know how to say "photocopy" in Chinese. Played hangman in the BYTZ with Atiqah. Trying to communicate with aliens.
I've got 2 babies in school. My butterfly garden and the Green Audit certificate displayed outside LT1. Remnants from Green Link. Talking to Mr Loh about whatever new environmental projects that the juniors are going to do this year, and I realised I'm so glad I'm out of Green Link. I'm just glad that I'm not involved anymore. It's not detest, it's relief. And Mr Loh says he's been doing environmental audits for 10 plus years?? I can't even stand one-year-half!
It's a really stupid day today. Did I mention that I really shaved my hair off? Yea I did, and now my head is sooo round. My dad thinks it's too short, my mum thinks it's funky. I want to dye it green or something, so that when my hair grows out it's green-tipped. Something like that. WHEE.
And of course, I did stupid things on my very stupid day today. Extremely stupid things. And I was the one who initiated it. I suggested it. I proposed it. I gone for it. STUPID. But I had fun too, from doing whatever stupid stuff I can do. You know, just to play and not be serious and have fun. AARGH. I can't believe myself. I don't even know what overcame me. It's just stupid, like dumb and idiotic. Nah I'm not about to reveal what stupid things I did, cos it's just stupid. Let me ramble on. So I'm being a total idiot and I lost my senses and I didn't know what was happening although I was happy and having fun. What a whirl. Well okay I know I wasn't that delirious, but certainly enough to do stupid things. Whee.
I wish the world was simpler. I sure wouldn't mind being all idealistic and live on the fields with 3 thousand other people running around naked and plucking berries and drinking milk all day. That would be nice, but life's gotta have some challenges somewhere. And I'm glad for these challenges. Well, okay, in a way...
Running around naked. That's a good one.
Sunday, 20 August 2006
Ahh. I've finally reached the end of this horrible sickly week. Having a fever is not a pleasant experience. The antibiotics course caused me nausea and loss of appetite. Constantly drowsy. And I ate something bad or something, resulting in many massive bouts of diarrhoea the entire week. HAHA. I had horrible stomach cramps on Friday, so half the time I was doubling over in pain with my water bottle filled with hot water. The funny thing was in the midst of the Maths Stats test, I had a sudden stomach cramp attack, and halfway through I gave Ms Sim an agonising grimace and she thought I found the paper extremely difficult!
Well at least now I know what girls go through every month. Cramps are not good. I'm so glad I don't have to lose blood NATURALLY (Eleanor insists I use the correct adverb) on a periodic basis.
Christiane came down for cell group!! I succeeded in encouraging her to come down and she did. We went to buy food at minimart and ended up having cell there again. Really great to keep up with whatever Chris is doing and all her funny stories and whatever.
Dramatic irony in real life. What happens when you actually know more than the other person?
My Lit group (Qiling, Beets, Siew, Khairi and sometimes Janvin) had a 3 hour session with Mr Dio on Friday. Herbert can get mighty boring sometimes, but he's also quite intriguing at times. Then we had a 2 hour session with Mr Whitby yesterday with Wanyi joining us too. Yea sometimes I think I do spend a lot of my time on Lit rather than on other subjects. But it's just like that, it's a thinking subject, not like Maths where it's a practice subject.
Ooh whatever. I don't know what I'm talking about.
Well at least now I know what girls go through every month. Cramps are not good. I'm so glad I don't have to lose blood NATURALLY (Eleanor insists I use the correct adverb) on a periodic basis.
Christiane came down for cell group!! I succeeded in encouraging her to come down and she did. We went to buy food at minimart and ended up having cell there again. Really great to keep up with whatever Chris is doing and all her funny stories and whatever.
Dramatic irony in real life. What happens when you actually know more than the other person?
My Lit group (Qiling, Beets, Siew, Khairi and sometimes Janvin) had a 3 hour session with Mr Dio on Friday. Herbert can get mighty boring sometimes, but he's also quite intriguing at times. Then we had a 2 hour session with Mr Whitby yesterday with Wanyi joining us too. Yea sometimes I think I do spend a lot of my time on Lit rather than on other subjects. But it's just like that, it's a thinking subject, not like Maths where it's a practice subject.
Ooh whatever. I don't know what I'm talking about.
Friday, 18 August 2006
It's been quite a bad week for me. Came down with fever AGAIN, especially when I had a major fever just a month ago! Woke up in the middle of the night on Tuesday feeling weird, and by morning I was having bad diarrhoea and fever. Didn't go school, slept for most of the day until my fever rose to 39 degrees before I went to see the doctor. Good thing was the fever subsided the next day, so I decided to go school for fun (since my MC lasted a day only). Ended up getting dizzy spells, so Mrs Nair gave me a blue skip to go home and rest.
My second course of antibiotics in less than 2 months. I'm much better already, but the antibiotics is causing me stomach upsets. I'm starving, but I don't have a very good appetite for food. My stomach is constantly stirring or bloated, and I'm having diarrhoea. I think I'm too dependant on antibiotics, but I can't take anything else cos I'm allergic to traditional fever medicine! AARGH.
Anyway, it's 1am now, and I just reached home! Haha my evening activities today were one after the other... Had to stay back till 6pm for Whitby's test on literary techniques, and after that Ginny, Annie, me, Kai Jie and Jas went to Bukit Timah Food Centre for dinner. Okay they ate their food, but I had no appetite at all so I just sat there chatting with them. Annie and Jas took photos with a huge PAP billboard that had Dr V Balakrishnan in it. Then they wanted to go hunting for the Sentosa advert with my dad in it so they can go take photos too. Haha Shi Hui says there's one at her house bus stop but I haven't seen it yet!
Then my family decided to be wacko and came down to Bukit Timah to have dinner. Met my parents and my sis at opposite Bukit Timah Shopping Centre and had chicken rice. Most of the time I was staring at them eating cos I still haven't got my appetite back?? Bleagh. Then Eleanor messaged me to go join her and Greg for prata at Thomson Road, so I went there to watch them eat and chat with them. And we stayed there till 12am, which explains why I came home at 1am.
I think dinnertime for me today is miserable. I've watched 9 people in total wolfing down their meals, and I can't join in cos my stupid antibiotics course is causing me so much nausea and loss of appetite! All I ate for dinner was less-than-half a plate of rice and some vegetables! And I wanted to drink milo dinosaur at the prata place, but Jas said it's heaty. WEH!! I didn't even get satisfaction, much less a proper meal!
My stomach is growling like crazy now. Not from hunger, but from the antibiotics. I think I'll need to run for the toilet soon. And to think I still have 2 days worth of pills to swallow before I finish them?? Oh gosh. Misery.
I hate getting sick. I miss out on everything, I don't know what's going on and I forget totally about things I'm supposed to do. Like I didn't know the Lit test existed at all! I forgot all about Adriel's part for this Friday's 40 Days of Comm. I forgot to send Hong Yi the Green Link photos. And I missed out on this Maths Statistics paper that I've been preparing for all week! Worse, I met my Maths tutor and she was asking when I want to do the re-test, so I said tomorrow, and her reply was "BUT TOMORROW GOT PAPER 2 OF THE STATS TEST!" I was horrified, like since when was there a paper 2?? All along I thought there was one test only!!
AARRGH. I want to whine forever. But I shall go sleep now or I'll probably catch another virus tomorrow and have another fever that will reach past 42 degrees and my brain will get damaged just like what Kai Jie describes.
My second course of antibiotics in less than 2 months. I'm much better already, but the antibiotics is causing me stomach upsets. I'm starving, but I don't have a very good appetite for food. My stomach is constantly stirring or bloated, and I'm having diarrhoea. I think I'm too dependant on antibiotics, but I can't take anything else cos I'm allergic to traditional fever medicine! AARGH.
Anyway, it's 1am now, and I just reached home! Haha my evening activities today were one after the other... Had to stay back till 6pm for Whitby's test on literary techniques, and after that Ginny, Annie, me, Kai Jie and Jas went to Bukit Timah Food Centre for dinner. Okay they ate their food, but I had no appetite at all so I just sat there chatting with them. Annie and Jas took photos with a huge PAP billboard that had Dr V Balakrishnan in it. Then they wanted to go hunting for the Sentosa advert with my dad in it so they can go take photos too. Haha Shi Hui says there's one at her house bus stop but I haven't seen it yet!
Then my family decided to be wacko and came down to Bukit Timah to have dinner. Met my parents and my sis at opposite Bukit Timah Shopping Centre and had chicken rice. Most of the time I was staring at them eating cos I still haven't got my appetite back?? Bleagh. Then Eleanor messaged me to go join her and Greg for prata at Thomson Road, so I went there to watch them eat and chat with them. And we stayed there till 12am, which explains why I came home at 1am.
I think dinnertime for me today is miserable. I've watched 9 people in total wolfing down their meals, and I can't join in cos my stupid antibiotics course is causing me so much nausea and loss of appetite! All I ate for dinner was less-than-half a plate of rice and some vegetables! And I wanted to drink milo dinosaur at the prata place, but Jas said it's heaty. WEH!! I didn't even get satisfaction, much less a proper meal!
My stomach is growling like crazy now. Not from hunger, but from the antibiotics. I think I'll need to run for the toilet soon. And to think I still have 2 days worth of pills to swallow before I finish them?? Oh gosh. Misery.
I hate getting sick. I miss out on everything, I don't know what's going on and I forget totally about things I'm supposed to do. Like I didn't know the Lit test existed at all! I forgot all about Adriel's part for this Friday's 40 Days of Comm. I forgot to send Hong Yi the Green Link photos. And I missed out on this Maths Statistics paper that I've been preparing for all week! Worse, I met my Maths tutor and she was asking when I want to do the re-test, so I said tomorrow, and her reply was "BUT TOMORROW GOT PAPER 2 OF THE STATS TEST!" I was horrified, like since when was there a paper 2?? All along I thought there was one test only!!
AARRGH. I want to whine forever. But I shall go sleep now or I'll probably catch another virus tomorrow and have another fever that will reach past 42 degrees and my brain will get damaged just like what Kai Jie describes.
Monday, 14 August 2006
Oh goody it's 3am now. I've been doing my Statistics revision. I like Stats now. It's a good topic, although I've got a lot of questions that I can't do. Before this I was doing my Geog essay on weathering and erosion in arid areas. Before I did my essay I was revising through everything that Ms Ting has taught us so far. I promised myself that I shall treat the essay seriously and try to time myself or something to stimulate exam conditions. Erm okay I lasted through the first part of the question? I got tired and sleepy after that so I just scribbled nonsense for the second part, then I remembered Ms Ting nagging at us to draw diagrams to substantiate our points, so I doodled out some landforms.
Ugh. I feel like quitting school. A bit too late huh? It's like less than 3 months to A'Levels, and I've started studying ages ago because I've got loads to catch up after scrapping through with mediocre grades for the past 2 years. BUT WHY DO I STILL FEEL LIKE THERE'S A MILLION THINGS TO STUDY??
Oh whatever. Last night I was at Expo for FCBC's outreach thing which Planetshakers led. The entire service seems like some New Year countdown party? Hahaha! But the atmosphere was great, went to the front to jump like idiots because we wanted to be enthusiastic about it. But I only knew like half the songs that they sang, and for me (personally) I'll only jump to the beat of a song that I know! It doesn't make sense to me to jump around just because the lyrics say so! Hahaha in the end I think I stood there shaking my hips?? There were a few songs which I liked even though I've never heard them before, but I can't remember the lyrics.
And when they started singing the verse for 'Evermore', I was like hey this sounds familiar I think Lurong sang it before, and it wasn't until the chorus that I realised it's the song that Aaron and Ben and everyone else is anticipating. NAHH this only shows that Planetshakers are not my kind of music. They've got nice songs, but I think Hillsongs are nicer.
I went to National Library to study this morning. Then I got bored of the silence in the library, so I took a cab down to KAP to study somemore. And barely an hour there, Yurong forced me down back to Bishan cos she left her notes and pencil case in my bag the night before and she wanted it back. Then I met Chris Ngoh when I left Jericho and we walked around before going back there again.
On the way from KAP to Bishan, I was having quite an interesting conversation with this girl sitting in front of me. They were screening the show Front on TVMobile. Okie for those who don't know, Front is this program about arts and culture in Asia, and it's hosted by Eunice Olsen and Debbie Wong. I'll let the narration tell the story:-
Girl: So who do you think is prettier?
Me: What?
Girl: Who do you think is more pretty?
Me: Who?
Girl: Eunice Olsen and Debbie.
Me: Oh. I don't know.
Girl: Have you watched the show before?
Me: Yar. Once or twice?
Girl: I watch it every week.
Me: Hmm. It's on Tuesday night right?
Girl: Monday.
Me: Oh okay. I'll remember to catch it tomorrow.
Girl: 9.30pm!
Me: Okay.
Girl: You haven't answered me! Who is prettier.
Me: I don't know. I think both of them are.
Girl: I like Debbie Wong.
Me: EEYER she's so act cute.
Girl: She's not!
Me: She is. Her voice is whiny.
Girl: But she's quite good-looking.
Me: Yar I guess so. Both of them are.
Girl: But she does not act cute!
Me: Oh she sure does. Look at her clothes!
(Debbie was wearing some red act cute blouse)
Girl: That's girly, not act cute.
Me: It's so act cutish.
Girl: I thought guys like girls who act cute.
Me: Not me.
Girl: So you like Eunice Olsen then.
Me: Erm. To a certain extent.
Girl: What do you mean?
Me: She's too sophisticated and classy.
Girl: You don't like that too?
Me: I do, but she's too classy.
Girl: Oh?
Me: I've seen her in person before.
Girl: Really?
Me: Twice.
Girl: When?
Me: Once at Parliament, once at some Famine camp.
Girl: Is she pretty?
Me: Yes! She was walking behind me somemore!
Girl: Really?? Did you ask for her signature or something?
Me: No. She's like, a head taller than me?
Girl: Ha! What's your height?
Me: 166 or 7 or 8?
Girl: I'm 164.
(Kumar came on screen)
Girl: I think he's gay.
Me: Nooo I think he's interesting.
Girl: But he's so sissy!
Me: I've seen him before!
Girl: Really? Where?
Me: Shopping at town. And he was holding his HANDBAG?
Girl: Oh my God are you serious?
Me: Yea. And he was totally drag.
Girl: What's drag?
Me: Guy trying to act all girly. I think.
Girl: You seem to be meeting a lot of celebrities.
Me: Not really. Haha...
Girl: Have you met Debbie Wong before?
Me: No. I think she's cute though!
(Debbie's talking now)
Girl: Didn't you say she's acting cute?
Me: I change my mind.
Girl: Ha! I told you she's pretty and cute!
Me: Eh okay sure I shall agree now.
Me: Oh I'm alighting here. It's nice talking to you!
Girl: You too. Bye!
There you go! Kinda weird, but it's funky! Yeah I know I have a knack for talking to strangers, but she started the conversation first! Haha I think all my life's interesting details happen on the bus. Like how I met Shannon on the bus. Like how me and Siew overheard someone sharing the gospel to kids. Like how this little boy smiled at me on the bus.
Okie I shall go and sleep for 3 or 4 hours before going to school.
Ugh. I feel like quitting school. A bit too late huh? It's like less than 3 months to A'Levels, and I've started studying ages ago because I've got loads to catch up after scrapping through with mediocre grades for the past 2 years. BUT WHY DO I STILL FEEL LIKE THERE'S A MILLION THINGS TO STUDY??
Oh whatever. Last night I was at Expo for FCBC's outreach thing which Planetshakers led. The entire service seems like some New Year countdown party? Hahaha! But the atmosphere was great, went to the front to jump like idiots because we wanted to be enthusiastic about it. But I only knew like half the songs that they sang, and for me (personally) I'll only jump to the beat of a song that I know! It doesn't make sense to me to jump around just because the lyrics say so! Hahaha in the end I think I stood there shaking my hips?? There were a few songs which I liked even though I've never heard them before, but I can't remember the lyrics.
And when they started singing the verse for 'Evermore', I was like hey this sounds familiar I think Lurong sang it before, and it wasn't until the chorus that I realised it's the song that Aaron and Ben and everyone else is anticipating. NAHH this only shows that Planetshakers are not my kind of music. They've got nice songs, but I think Hillsongs are nicer.
I went to National Library to study this morning. Then I got bored of the silence in the library, so I took a cab down to KAP to study somemore. And barely an hour there, Yurong forced me down back to Bishan cos she left her notes and pencil case in my bag the night before and she wanted it back. Then I met Chris Ngoh when I left Jericho and we walked around before going back there again.
On the way from KAP to Bishan, I was having quite an interesting conversation with this girl sitting in front of me. They were screening the show Front on TVMobile. Okie for those who don't know, Front is this program about arts and culture in Asia, and it's hosted by Eunice Olsen and Debbie Wong. I'll let the narration tell the story:-
Girl: So who do you think is prettier?
Me: What?
Girl: Who do you think is more pretty?
Me: Who?
Girl: Eunice Olsen and Debbie.
Me: Oh. I don't know.
Girl: Have you watched the show before?
Me: Yar. Once or twice?
Girl: I watch it every week.
Me: Hmm. It's on Tuesday night right?
Girl: Monday.
Me: Oh okay. I'll remember to catch it tomorrow.
Girl: 9.30pm!
Me: Okay.
Girl: You haven't answered me! Who is prettier.
Me: I don't know. I think both of them are.
Girl: I like Debbie Wong.
Me: EEYER she's so act cute.
Girl: She's not!
Me: She is. Her voice is whiny.
Girl: But she's quite good-looking.
Me: Yar I guess so. Both of them are.
Girl: But she does not act cute!
Me: Oh she sure does. Look at her clothes!
(Debbie was wearing some red act cute blouse)
Girl: That's girly, not act cute.
Me: It's so act cutish.
Girl: I thought guys like girls who act cute.
Me: Not me.
Girl: So you like Eunice Olsen then.
Me: Erm. To a certain extent.
Girl: What do you mean?
Me: She's too sophisticated and classy.
Girl: You don't like that too?
Me: I do, but she's too classy.
Girl: Oh?
Me: I've seen her in person before.
Girl: Really?
Me: Twice.
Girl: When?
Me: Once at Parliament, once at some Famine camp.
Girl: Is she pretty?
Me: Yes! She was walking behind me somemore!
Girl: Really?? Did you ask for her signature or something?
Me: No. She's like, a head taller than me?
Girl: Ha! What's your height?
Me: 166 or 7 or 8?
Girl: I'm 164.
(Kumar came on screen)
Girl: I think he's gay.
Me: Nooo I think he's interesting.
Girl: But he's so sissy!
Me: I've seen him before!
Girl: Really? Where?
Me: Shopping at town. And he was holding his HANDBAG?
Girl: Oh my God are you serious?
Me: Yea. And he was totally drag.
Girl: What's drag?
Me: Guy trying to act all girly. I think.
Girl: You seem to be meeting a lot of celebrities.
Me: Not really. Haha...
Girl: Have you met Debbie Wong before?
Me: No. I think she's cute though!
(Debbie's talking now)
Girl: Didn't you say she's acting cute?
Me: I change my mind.
Girl: Ha! I told you she's pretty and cute!
Me: Eh okay sure I shall agree now.
Me: Oh I'm alighting here. It's nice talking to you!
Girl: You too. Bye!
There you go! Kinda weird, but it's funky! Yeah I know I have a knack for talking to strangers, but she started the conversation first! Haha I think all my life's interesting details happen on the bus. Like how I met Shannon on the bus. Like how me and Siew overheard someone sharing the gospel to kids. Like how this little boy smiled at me on the bus.
Okie I shall go and sleep for 3 or 4 hours before going to school.
Saturday, 12 August 2006
Just came back from school. Qiling, Beets, Siew Peng and me had a Literature consultation with Mr Whitby. We did one poem only, it took us more than 2 hours and we still haven't really gone through all the analysis!! How in the world does Cambridge expect us to complete two essays on unseen texts in three hours?? Oh goody.
That's the poem we did. Mr Whitby mentioned qui tacet consentire videtur again. The first time he said that during lecture, I was kinda just "orh, okay". But when he brought up that phrase again today, I realised how much significance it carried. If some murderer were to kill a person, and the rest of the people in the same room do nothing to stop him, they are as guilty as the murderer because silence gives the consent. So logically, if I don't speak up for an issue, I'm accepting whatever that is happening. But what if I just don't want to comment on something? Is it a crime to just be passive and do nothing while the murderer kills, because I don't have a strong any strong stands about murder?
I guess that's why people always say "no comment" to appear impartial, when actually they've got tonnes to argue about. But Cordelia said "nothing" too, and her nothing represented so much more! So under what circumstances will nothing be nothing, especially when everything can be nothing and nothing is never nothing but everything? But then again, technically speaking, when you say "no comment" or "nothing" you're actually saying something instead of keeping silent.
So I guess the only way out is to give some strange, non-committal answer that bugs the hell out of people because they don't know what your ambiguous intentions are. Say any kind of weird shit rather than stay silent. Oh crap. Then who is the one that came up with silence is golden??? AARGH. Silence gives consent, so I shouldn't remain silent in most circumstances, but then again silence is golden, so I should remain silent in most circumstances.
Okie I shouldn't think so much.
Anyway, after the consultation me and Siew were both planning to go home. We sat there at the bus stop and spaced out, so 852 just zoomed by without stopping. Haha! This is like the 3rd time this is happening to me this month, like realising too late that I forgot to board the bus and it was already halfway out onto the road already. In the end we took a bus to Toa Payoh instead because we didn't want to wait half an hour for 852 to come again.
It's my dad's birthday today! But he's at Malaysia now and he'll only come back tonight. I sent him a message, and he replied back and ended off with a smiley face!! HAHAHA I think it's the first time my dad sent a smiley face message to me! It's so incongruous cos he's sooo not funky like me!
Speaking of which, Sentosa just had some new advertising posters, and my dad is in one of them! It came up on the newspapers yesterday, and he's there right in front with some eagle flying towards his forearm. Haha it's really weird seeing your own dad being advertised! Like the other time I was laughing like hell when I saw Selina Sebastian's face appearing on those advertisement boards at bus stops cos SPCA was promoting awareness. My mum told me that those Sentosa advertisements are going to be up on bus stops too, so can you imagine my horror if I start seeing my dad at every bus stop I go to?? Hmm. Okay maybe my dad is funky. He does outdoor attractions at Sentosa, he trains parrots and monkeys and eagles for animal shows. He does balloon sculpturing occasionally at events. He can juggle balls and make a performance out of it.
Okie my dad is funky.
I'm going out to Expo for the Planet Shakers concert later.
Louis MacNeice - Prayer before Birth
I am not yet born; O hear me.
Let not the bloodsucking bat or the rat or the stoat or the
club-footed ghoul come near me.
I am not yet born, console me.
I fear that the human race may with tall walls wall me,
with strong drugs dope me, with wise lies lure me,
on black racks rack me, in blood-baths roll me.
I am not yet born; provide me
With water to dandle me, grass to grow for me, trees to talk
to me, sky to sing to me, birds and a white light
in the back of my mind to guide me.
I am not yet born; forgive me
For the sins that in me the world shall commit, my words
when they speak me, my thoughts when they think me,
my treason engendered by traitors beyond me,
my life when they murder by means of my
hands, my death when they live me.
I am not yet born; rehearse me
In the parts I must play and the cues I must take when
old men lecture me, bureaucrats hector me, mountains
frown at me, lovers laugh at me, the white
waves call me to folly and the desert calls
me to doom and the beggar refuses
my gift and my children curse me.
I am not yet born; O hear me,
Let not the man who is beast or who thinks he is God
come near me.
I am not yet born; O fill me
With strength against those who would freeze my
humanity, would dragoon me into a lethal automaton,
would make me a cog in a machine, a thing with
one face, a thing, and against all those
who would dissipate my entirety, would
blow me like thistledown hither and
thither or hither and thither
like water held in the
hands would spill me.
Let them not make me a stone and let them not spill me.
Otherwise kill me.
That's the poem we did. Mr Whitby mentioned qui tacet consentire videtur again. The first time he said that during lecture, I was kinda just "orh, okay". But when he brought up that phrase again today, I realised how much significance it carried. If some murderer were to kill a person, and the rest of the people in the same room do nothing to stop him, they are as guilty as the murderer because silence gives the consent. So logically, if I don't speak up for an issue, I'm accepting whatever that is happening. But what if I just don't want to comment on something? Is it a crime to just be passive and do nothing while the murderer kills, because I don't have a strong any strong stands about murder?
I guess that's why people always say "no comment" to appear impartial, when actually they've got tonnes to argue about. But Cordelia said "nothing" too, and her nothing represented so much more! So under what circumstances will nothing be nothing, especially when everything can be nothing and nothing is never nothing but everything? But then again, technically speaking, when you say "no comment" or "nothing" you're actually saying something instead of keeping silent.
So I guess the only way out is to give some strange, non-committal answer that bugs the hell out of people because they don't know what your ambiguous intentions are. Say any kind of weird shit rather than stay silent. Oh crap. Then who is the one that came up with silence is golden??? AARGH. Silence gives consent, so I shouldn't remain silent in most circumstances, but then again silence is golden, so I should remain silent in most circumstances.
Okie I shouldn't think so much.
Anyway, after the consultation me and Siew were both planning to go home. We sat there at the bus stop and spaced out, so 852 just zoomed by without stopping. Haha! This is like the 3rd time this is happening to me this month, like realising too late that I forgot to board the bus and it was already halfway out onto the road already. In the end we took a bus to Toa Payoh instead because we didn't want to wait half an hour for 852 to come again.
It's my dad's birthday today! But he's at Malaysia now and he'll only come back tonight. I sent him a message, and he replied back and ended off with a smiley face!! HAHAHA I think it's the first time my dad sent a smiley face message to me! It's so incongruous cos he's sooo not funky like me!
Speaking of which, Sentosa just had some new advertising posters, and my dad is in one of them! It came up on the newspapers yesterday, and he's there right in front with some eagle flying towards his forearm. Haha it's really weird seeing your own dad being advertised! Like the other time I was laughing like hell when I saw Selina Sebastian's face appearing on those advertisement boards at bus stops cos SPCA was promoting awareness. My mum told me that those Sentosa advertisements are going to be up on bus stops too, so can you imagine my horror if I start seeing my dad at every bus stop I go to?? Hmm. Okay maybe my dad is funky. He does outdoor attractions at Sentosa, he trains parrots and monkeys and eagles for animal shows. He does balloon sculpturing occasionally at events. He can juggle balls and make a performance out of it.
Okie my dad is funky.
I'm going out to Expo for the Planet Shakers concert later.
Friday, 11 August 2006
Went KAP to study today. It was freezing inside and I didn't bring my pullover, and after half an hour I gave up trying to endure the cold and went to Cold Storage for a short rest. And that was a dumb decision because it was even colder and there were all those frozen food sections! Hahaha! So in the end I grabbed one of those seats outside KAP and sat in the sun the whole afternoon. There's all those seats with huge umbrellas, but I wanted the sunlight so I sat in the sunlight.
Anyway, I felt extremely proud of myself today. I studied my Maths Statistics the whole afternoon, and I finally understood most of it! Okay understanding Stats is subjective... Erm I know what it's about and what I'm supposed to do and whatever, but if you ask me what is standard deviation or what's the significance of the signicance level or variance, I wouldn't be able to answer. But I know how to distinguish population and sample statistics and I know CLT and unbiased estimates and I know how to use method of coding now!! Haha that day I got so frustrated with coding that I sat in front of Nutseed and brooded for an hour. YEAH it's great, Stats isn't that difficult after all.
And Atiqah played a very big role in my Stats revelation, althoough she didn't know it! You see, she's the first person I'll message if I can't understand something Mathsy, and she'll patiently reply back explaining all the weird symbols and concepts of Stats. But for today, I didn't message her a single plea of help. Everytime I encounter something I don't know, I'll instinctively reach for my phone and type something like "ATIQAH! how do we find population variance??", but before I send it I'll feel guilty for bugging her again, so I decided to try and search it up myself from the notes, then I'll understand. And the next complication comes up again, and I'll reach for my phone and blah blah... Hahaha what my indirect source of help.
Came home in the evening, went for a jog, and a cute girl smiled at me! Hahaha! My dad's going Malaysia tomorrow for something related to his Sentosa outdoor attractions thingy, so he drove home this Mitsubishi SUV from his workplace and took me and my mum to J8 for dinner. My sis went for some school camp this morning and won't be back till Sunday, so that leaves me and my mum home over the weekends. Haha my mum's trying to chase me out of home cos she wants all the space to herself, so anyone wants me to stayover at their place?? I'll gladly invite myself.
Anyway, I felt extremely proud of myself today. I studied my Maths Statistics the whole afternoon, and I finally understood most of it! Okay understanding Stats is subjective... Erm I know what it's about and what I'm supposed to do and whatever, but if you ask me what is standard deviation or what's the significance of the signicance level or variance, I wouldn't be able to answer. But I know how to distinguish population and sample statistics and I know CLT and unbiased estimates and I know how to use method of coding now!! Haha that day I got so frustrated with coding that I sat in front of Nutseed and brooded for an hour. YEAH it's great, Stats isn't that difficult after all.
And Atiqah played a very big role in my Stats revelation, althoough she didn't know it! You see, she's the first person I'll message if I can't understand something Mathsy, and she'll patiently reply back explaining all the weird symbols and concepts of Stats. But for today, I didn't message her a single plea of help. Everytime I encounter something I don't know, I'll instinctively reach for my phone and type something like "ATIQAH! how do we find population variance??", but before I send it I'll feel guilty for bugging her again, so I decided to try and search it up myself from the notes, then I'll understand. And the next complication comes up again, and I'll reach for my phone and blah blah... Hahaha what my indirect source of help.
Came home in the evening, went for a jog, and a cute girl smiled at me! Hahaha! My dad's going Malaysia tomorrow for something related to his Sentosa outdoor attractions thingy, so he drove home this Mitsubishi SUV from his workplace and took me and my mum to J8 for dinner. My sis went for some school camp this morning and won't be back till Sunday, so that leaves me and my mum home over the weekends. Haha my mum's trying to chase me out of home cos she wants all the space to herself, so anyone wants me to stayover at their place?? I'll gladly invite myself.
Wednesday, 9 August 2006
WHOOPPEE it's National Day today! I don't know why I'm so excited, I just am! I've been zooming around the house like some fighter jet all day. ZOOOM. My hamster went crazy too! Nutseed got into one of her hyperactive moods last night and started running around everywhere in her cage. And I wanted her to stay still cos she's got stapler bullets stuck in her fur... Yar I accidentally dropped like two stapler bullets into her cage and she thought it was food, so she tried to eat it and she realised that they're inedible so she stuck them to her fur. HAHA WHAT THE HELL why is my hamster so weird?? So worried me was busy trying to catch her in the cage so I could try and free those stapler bullets, but Nutseed was zooming everywhere in the cage too! And when I finally caught her and got the bullets out, she bit my thumb and refused to let go and left a deep incision into my flesh. OUCH. Stupid hamsters in their frenzy mood. So now I've got a plaster taped round my thumb... But Nutseed sort of apologised later though, when she was sleepy and I picked her up again and she just curled up in my palms. AHH so sweet!! She never ever stays still on my palms cos she keeps wanting to move about, but when she's just lazy she will sit down there in my cupped hands and stare into space.
Yup. This week is almost as good as a holiday... Went to eat lunch at kopitiam yesterday with my mum, after I came back early from National Day celebrations. I was just sitting there at the table while my mum went to get drinks, and suddenly this little boy came over in front of me and stared at me! Haha I didn't know what to do, so I rolled my eyes and stuck out my tongue at him. And he imitated my rolling eyes, and soon we were having a "who can make the ugliest face" contest. Then his little brother came along too, and I realised that they look really familiar, so I asked them for their names. "My name is Dylan, and then this is my brother Deron but everyone calls him Ron-ron". WHEEE yesh yesh it's those kids that I babysitted for Jericho games week (refer to the archives, March 2005)!! Haha and Dylan remembers me! He remembered us playing Halli Galli and he even told me "your voice is still the same as last time"! Hee hee! I'm happy to see them, but the person I really wanted to meet is Denise! I know she's like 8 years younger than me, but I'm still hopelessly in love with her! Too bad she was still in school, and Deron asked "you want to be my sister's boyfriend issit?" HAHAHA YESH YESH if she doesn't mind a boyfriend twice her age. And when my mum came back, she asked me if those boys were my kids!?! Haha I wish they were!
Went to study at KAP after taking a nap at home. I did Glass Menagerie from like 5pm to 9pm? And I haven't even finished Scene 5! I realised that I wrote quite a lot of crappy notes in my classes and they don't make sense to me, so I had to erase a lot of notes and do a lot more PC on my own. And the mugging session was like Survivor! Haha Yurong left first, leaving me, Rong and Diana. Then Rong left, so Diana and me studied till like 9pm before I decided I had enough and go home and sleep.
I'm going to study somewhere now, then have dinner with Shermin and Joel. AHH this 3-day vacation is good. Oh and this is one of the zillions of photos that me and Yurong took with the red/maroon bandanas that I bought. We look like we work in Island Creamery or something.
Yup. This week is almost as good as a holiday... Went to eat lunch at kopitiam yesterday with my mum, after I came back early from National Day celebrations. I was just sitting there at the table while my mum went to get drinks, and suddenly this little boy came over in front of me and stared at me! Haha I didn't know what to do, so I rolled my eyes and stuck out my tongue at him. And he imitated my rolling eyes, and soon we were having a "who can make the ugliest face" contest. Then his little brother came along too, and I realised that they look really familiar, so I asked them for their names. "My name is Dylan, and then this is my brother Deron but everyone calls him Ron-ron". WHEEE yesh yesh it's those kids that I babysitted for Jericho games week (refer to the archives, March 2005)!! Haha and Dylan remembers me! He remembered us playing Halli Galli and he even told me "your voice is still the same as last time"! Hee hee! I'm happy to see them, but the person I really wanted to meet is Denise! I know she's like 8 years younger than me, but I'm still hopelessly in love with her! Too bad she was still in school, and Deron asked "you want to be my sister's boyfriend issit?" HAHAHA YESH YESH if she doesn't mind a boyfriend twice her age. And when my mum came back, she asked me if those boys were my kids!?! Haha I wish they were!
Went to study at KAP after taking a nap at home. I did Glass Menagerie from like 5pm to 9pm? And I haven't even finished Scene 5! I realised that I wrote quite a lot of crappy notes in my classes and they don't make sense to me, so I had to erase a lot of notes and do a lot more PC on my own. And the mugging session was like Survivor! Haha Yurong left first, leaving me, Rong and Diana. Then Rong left, so Diana and me studied till like 9pm before I decided I had enough and go home and sleep.
I'm going to study somewhere now, then have dinner with Shermin and Joel. AHH this 3-day vacation is good. Oh and this is one of the zillions of photos that me and Yurong took with the red/maroon bandanas that I bought. We look like we work in Island Creamery or something.
Tuesday, 8 August 2006
I just came back from National Day celebrations in school. Haha I had so much fun cheering and singing and doing nutty stuff today! I don't think I've ever had such enjoyment from celebrating National Day. Hee hee back at Catholic High, no one will ever be enthusiastic about National Day. I guess it's probably a guy thing, like trying to look cool and act as if we all don't care and grumble about stupid stuff. But today my A01 classmates went delirious. We were so happy receiving our clappers and maracas that we made so much noise and screaming at the same time. Tis and Lauren and some of their classmates performed a live-band and they won! Then when it was Shaun's turn on the drums, we rushed up to the front of the stage and supported them. Kinda funky, probably because I can be totally nuts without anyone asking me "eh why you so patriotic?" I think guys don't do patriotism well cos eventually we've got our army enlistments to fulfill, but I'm very proud to be a Singaporean!! Haha!
I bought red and maroon bandanas for myself and Khairi to wear. Haha Khairi was the only person that went "OKAY" when I suggested it, so both of us agreed to look stupid (although we looked FABULOUS). Then Atiqah tried to sing the "Home" song in Chinese!! And the most outstanding thing was it sounded Chinese, in pitch and pronunciation and everything. Oh gosh I can't even read out half the Chinese words cos it seems like some foreign language to me! Then Aqua won the NE House challenge again. But we had an A01 moment, when Aerius got 3rd in the cultural mapping competition! Kai Jie and Khairi were busy doing up the board display last Thursday, while me and Atiqah contributed slightly by helping to arrange and pin it up nicely.
Okie I shall blog about yesterday. In the past my Mondays are one of my shortest days in school, but now I've got extra lesons on that keeps me back past 5pm! Yesterday was worse. Had the usual Maths remedial with Qiling, then right after that was a make-up tutorial for all the Geog people, and immediately after was consultation with Ms Teo for King Lear. I was like, zonked out halfway through Maths already! But good thing was that I found all three of them useful, especially King Lear cos I've forgotten half the story plot and I quoted Lear saying "flamingo daughters" instead of "pelican daughters"!! HAHA Ms Teo went berserk.
Yurong waited outside my school bus-stop since 5pm? I only ended the consultation at 5.40pm. We went to J8 to get those red/maroon bandanas and to get food too. Guess who I met there? This girl suddenly turned around and tapped me on my shoulders... DEBORAH!! Yesh yesh it's Deborah! Okie in that moment I did something really stupid. I blurted out "Oh hi Grace!" without even thinking. You see, I know like 7 or 8 girls who all have the name Grace, and another 4 or 5 girls named Priscilla, and they all look similar to one another in some way, like those horrible Delta twins in Brave New World. And the worst thing was that half of them came from Methodist Girls' School! Well okay I admit I only know one Deborah, but she's from MGS and she looks like one of the Graces or Priscillas that I know, so her name instinctively came out as Grace.
Deborah: "Hello!"
Stupid Guan You: "Oh hi Grace!"
Deborah: "Err, wrong!"
Still stupid Guan You: "Oh no! Priscilla?"
Deborah: "No."
Stupidly insistent Guan You: "Oh noo I can't remember!! GRACE??"
Deborah: "No la Grace is still in NJ remember? Deborah!"
Stupid Guan You: "Oh yar... Hi Deborah!"
Yup, there you go, my horrible experience with girls named Grace or Priscilla, although this one is a bit of my own fault either. Best thing is to name your daughters Rachel, cos I know 10 Rachels who are all pretty and nice and unique from one another. Whee! Okie I haven't seen Deborah for about 5 or 6 months! Since the last time she said goodbye to me outside the NJ side-gate, telling me that she's going Raffles JC after her first three months in NJ.
Right after I met Deborah, I decided to search through my phone contact list to see if she's still contactable. And whatever that happened after that caused me to be very depressed!! There weren't any Deborahs on the list, but there was a Debbie! But the thing was I don't remember calling Deborah as Debbie! So I messaged this mysterious Debbie.
Guan You messaged: "ello are you the deborah that i just met?"
Debbie: "no..sorry..wrong no."
Guan You: "oh gosh then hi i'm guanyou do we know each other?"
And then this mysterious Debbie replied the most idiotic message that I've received! Okay let's establish the story first. Firstly, I can't remember who this Debbie was. Secondly, I know of some Debbies but I don't think I ever maintained contact with them. Thirdly, I know her name is Debbie.
Debbie replied: "I'm debbie!haha!"
OH GOSH THIS MUST BE WHAT THEY CALL DRAMATIC IRONY. OR SUPER DUPER OXYMORON OR IRONY OR BATHOS OR WHATEVER. My crap I was so distressed by the fact that I couldn't remember this Debbie and I was feeling so terrible for not being able to remember my friends and having no recollection whatsoever for this Debbie!! And when Yurong told me I've got a message from this Debbie I was so overjoyed, but when I read it it led me to the original question of who this bloke is!! UGH.
I think I was extremely distraught the whole evening. I asked back "how did we know each other?", and Debbie took so long to reply that I kept trying to think back and trying to recall how I might have met any new people. And when she finally replied, she's the Debbie who was in 06A01 in first three months who switched over to Science. Well she replied "previously from A01" and the first thing I thought that came to mind: I had a classmate named Debbie in first three months??? OH GOSH AND TO THINK I SAID HELLO TO DEBBIE IN SCHOOL JUST THE DAY BEFORE.
I think I'm a terrible OGL. Both of the girls that I trouble remembering their names/identity are both whom I've OGL-ed for, except that they're in different groups. I foresee myself meeting someone like Natania 5 years later on the streets, and I say "hello Carmen!" and she'll give me the astonished look and slap me or something. SIGH.
But I'm in an extremely happy mood now. At least I managed to figure out who is Debbie! And I dreamt of this girl whom I used to have a huge crush on! Haha but I sort of decided after a month that she's not for me (due to certain circumstances), and I'm glad I thought that way before I did something stupid like propose to her. But it's sad too cos I haven't heard from her since the start of this year.
Whichever. I'm going KAP to study with Yurong, and possibly her friends.
I bought red and maroon bandanas for myself and Khairi to wear. Haha Khairi was the only person that went "OKAY" when I suggested it, so both of us agreed to look stupid (although we looked FABULOUS). Then Atiqah tried to sing the "Home" song in Chinese!! And the most outstanding thing was it sounded Chinese, in pitch and pronunciation and everything. Oh gosh I can't even read out half the Chinese words cos it seems like some foreign language to me! Then Aqua won the NE House challenge again. But we had an A01 moment, when Aerius got 3rd in the cultural mapping competition! Kai Jie and Khairi were busy doing up the board display last Thursday, while me and Atiqah contributed slightly by helping to arrange and pin it up nicely.
Okie I shall blog about yesterday. In the past my Mondays are one of my shortest days in school, but now I've got extra lesons on that keeps me back past 5pm! Yesterday was worse. Had the usual Maths remedial with Qiling, then right after that was a make-up tutorial for all the Geog people, and immediately after was consultation with Ms Teo for King Lear. I was like, zonked out halfway through Maths already! But good thing was that I found all three of them useful, especially King Lear cos I've forgotten half the story plot and I quoted Lear saying "flamingo daughters" instead of "pelican daughters"!! HAHA Ms Teo went berserk.
Yurong waited outside my school bus-stop since 5pm? I only ended the consultation at 5.40pm. We went to J8 to get those red/maroon bandanas and to get food too. Guess who I met there? This girl suddenly turned around and tapped me on my shoulders... DEBORAH!! Yesh yesh it's Deborah! Okie in that moment I did something really stupid. I blurted out "Oh hi Grace!" without even thinking. You see, I know like 7 or 8 girls who all have the name Grace, and another 4 or 5 girls named Priscilla, and they all look similar to one another in some way, like those horrible Delta twins in Brave New World. And the worst thing was that half of them came from Methodist Girls' School! Well okay I admit I only know one Deborah, but she's from MGS and she looks like one of the Graces or Priscillas that I know, so her name instinctively came out as Grace.
Deborah: "Hello!"
Stupid Guan You: "Oh hi Grace!"
Deborah: "Err, wrong!"
Still stupid Guan You: "Oh no! Priscilla?"
Deborah: "No."
Stupidly insistent Guan You: "Oh noo I can't remember!! GRACE??"
Deborah: "No la Grace is still in NJ remember? Deborah!"
Stupid Guan You: "Oh yar... Hi Deborah!"
Yup, there you go, my horrible experience with girls named Grace or Priscilla, although this one is a bit of my own fault either. Best thing is to name your daughters Rachel, cos I know 10 Rachels who are all pretty and nice and unique from one another. Whee! Okie I haven't seen Deborah for about 5 or 6 months! Since the last time she said goodbye to me outside the NJ side-gate, telling me that she's going Raffles JC after her first three months in NJ.
Right after I met Deborah, I decided to search through my phone contact list to see if she's still contactable. And whatever that happened after that caused me to be very depressed!! There weren't any Deborahs on the list, but there was a Debbie! But the thing was I don't remember calling Deborah as Debbie! So I messaged this mysterious Debbie.
Guan You messaged: "ello are you the deborah that i just met?"
Debbie: "no..sorry..wrong no."
Guan You: "oh gosh then hi i'm guanyou do we know each other?"
And then this mysterious Debbie replied the most idiotic message that I've received! Okay let's establish the story first. Firstly, I can't remember who this Debbie was. Secondly, I know of some Debbies but I don't think I ever maintained contact with them. Thirdly, I know her name is Debbie.
Debbie replied: "I'm debbie!haha!"
OH GOSH THIS MUST BE WHAT THEY CALL DRAMATIC IRONY. OR SUPER DUPER OXYMORON OR IRONY OR BATHOS OR WHATEVER. My crap I was so distressed by the fact that I couldn't remember this Debbie and I was feeling so terrible for not being able to remember my friends and having no recollection whatsoever for this Debbie!! And when Yurong told me I've got a message from this Debbie I was so overjoyed, but when I read it it led me to the original question of who this bloke is!! UGH.
I think I was extremely distraught the whole evening. I asked back "how did we know each other?", and Debbie took so long to reply that I kept trying to think back and trying to recall how I might have met any new people. And when she finally replied, she's the Debbie who was in 06A01 in first three months who switched over to Science. Well she replied "previously from A01" and the first thing I thought that came to mind: I had a classmate named Debbie in first three months??? OH GOSH AND TO THINK I SAID HELLO TO DEBBIE IN SCHOOL JUST THE DAY BEFORE.
I think I'm a terrible OGL. Both of the girls that I trouble remembering their names/identity are both whom I've OGL-ed for, except that they're in different groups. I foresee myself meeting someone like Natania 5 years later on the streets, and I say "hello Carmen!" and she'll give me the astonished look and slap me or something. SIGH.
But I'm in an extremely happy mood now. At least I managed to figure out who is Debbie! And I dreamt of this girl whom I used to have a huge crush on! Haha but I sort of decided after a month that she's not for me (due to certain circumstances), and I'm glad I thought that way before I did something stupid like propose to her. But it's sad too cos I haven't heard from her since the start of this year.
Whichever. I'm going KAP to study with Yurong, and possibly her friends.
Monday, 7 August 2006
UGH. 2am now. Another late night spent on the computer. I think I sort of like those days when my computer was down. Three weeks ago I was enjoying like 6 to 7 hours of sleep everyday, and I got more time to study and do my work! Well okay I'm really trying to limit my use of the computer now, but on nights like these, I just sit in front of the computer and type nonsense into this blog, or talk to people on MSN or just laze around listening to Hillsongs on CD. WHAT A COLOSSAL WASTE OF TIME.
Well okay at least my excuse for tonight is I completed my King Lear essay outline for tomorrow's consultation, and I did till question 8 or 9 for the MJC Maths Prelim paper. I came online because I needed to print out some old Green Link documents for the new dictator of Green Link (Hong Yi). And since I'm online I might as well add an entry to my blog right??
Okie maybe I really need to curb my online hours. Unless there's something really important to be done, I shall not turn on the computer. I shall go and sleep or go revise for A'Levels or go disturb my sister or something. Lurong said something about liver regeneration or skin cells replenishment or some organs growing or dunno what when you sleep sufficiently every night, so I shall sleep enough to make sure my livers and kidneys and whatever are healthy!
What a long ramble. SEE! Instead of sleeping, I'm spending 15 minutes typing all those nonsense. Okay my day today was quite good. I met Chris Ngoh early in the morning to pass him some money, then I went to KAP to have breakfast with Eleanor, then I went back to corps for service. Today's Ben & Geri show was the table tennis video (which Daniel says he wants to put on youtube. Haha), and there were some technical sound glitches so they replayed me and Della's stupid faces 3 times.
After service we went to the food court above Bishan bus interchange for lunch, then hung around there before going to Jericho for a short while. I left at around 5.30pm? I wanted to go jogging cos I haven't done so in one and a half weeks and I need to retake my NAPFA cos I cannot jump enough to get Silver. But I'm quite resigned to the fact that I'll probably still be stuck at 210cm? And anyway I'm looking forward to army and I don't mind spending extra months in there just for physical training. Whee.
I typed out my CCA testimonial yesterday cos Mr Loh needs some documentation of what we've achieved in Green Link. I think teachers shouldn't make students write their own testimonials! How can the students remain objective about their own achievements and provide an unbiased account?? Haha my "heavily slanted" testimonial which I submitted:~
Low Guan You was elected into the Executive Committee of National Junior College Green Link in June 2005, and he served as President of the club for a year. He has a strong passion for environmental conservation and has displayed exemplary leadership in the commitment for this cause.
Low Guan You has contributed significantly towards environmental awareness within the college. He led the club in the participation of Singapore Environment Council's "How Green Is Your School" Programme, by involving the entire club in the Green Audit Project. Under his leadership, the college was awarded the Lotus Award for the second consecutive year, which qualifies the college to be among the most environmentally-conscious schools in Singapore. He has also proposed for a landscaped butterfly garden and a spice garden to be built in the college compound, and was in charge of the initial layout and completion of the two gardens.
On a college level, Low Guan You has also led the club to organise environmental events such as the annual Earth Week and Recycling Week. He is also actively involved in the club's regular river-keeping project at Sungei Api Api located in Pasir Ris Park, and is a trained nature guide for the Pasir Ris Park Mangrove Boardwalk trail. He has also initiated a recycling project within the college to collect aluminium can tabs, which can be recycled into prosthetic limbs. He was also part of the organising committee for EnviroFest 2006, which is a collaboration between Nanyang Technological University Earth Link and NJC Green Link.
Low Guan You is also an active volunteer for Green Volunteers Network (GVN). He has embarked on a trip to orang asli villages in Malaysia to help underpriviledged children. He has also volunteered in various environmental exhibition events with GVN, such as for Clean & Green Week. Under GVN's Kids Konservation Klub programme, he has also been involved in the organisation of an environmental camp at Pulau Ubin for Andersen Primary.
I realised how much I've done in Green Link. And that's not including all the nature guidings and giving assembly talks about elephants and can tabs at Catholic High! Honestly I'm sick of doing events-planning for environmentalism, although I must admit I did enjoy planning all those activities. But hey, I've been under tremendous stress for one entire year! Things don't always turn out well the way they should, so I'm taking a break from all these green exhibitions thingy for the next one or two years.
And now, it's time for sleep so that hopefully I can grow one more stomach or something.
Well okay at least my excuse for tonight is I completed my King Lear essay outline for tomorrow's consultation, and I did till question 8 or 9 for the MJC Maths Prelim paper. I came online because I needed to print out some old Green Link documents for the new dictator of Green Link (Hong Yi). And since I'm online I might as well add an entry to my blog right??
Okie maybe I really need to curb my online hours. Unless there's something really important to be done, I shall not turn on the computer. I shall go and sleep or go revise for A'Levels or go disturb my sister or something. Lurong said something about liver regeneration or skin cells replenishment or some organs growing or dunno what when you sleep sufficiently every night, so I shall sleep enough to make sure my livers and kidneys and whatever are healthy!
What a long ramble. SEE! Instead of sleeping, I'm spending 15 minutes typing all those nonsense. Okay my day today was quite good. I met Chris Ngoh early in the morning to pass him some money, then I went to KAP to have breakfast with Eleanor, then I went back to corps for service. Today's Ben & Geri show was the table tennis video (which Daniel says he wants to put on youtube. Haha), and there were some technical sound glitches so they replayed me and Della's stupid faces 3 times.
After service we went to the food court above Bishan bus interchange for lunch, then hung around there before going to Jericho for a short while. I left at around 5.30pm? I wanted to go jogging cos I haven't done so in one and a half weeks and I need to retake my NAPFA cos I cannot jump enough to get Silver. But I'm quite resigned to the fact that I'll probably still be stuck at 210cm? And anyway I'm looking forward to army and I don't mind spending extra months in there just for physical training. Whee.
I typed out my CCA testimonial yesterday cos Mr Loh needs some documentation of what we've achieved in Green Link. I think teachers shouldn't make students write their own testimonials! How can the students remain objective about their own achievements and provide an unbiased account?? Haha my "heavily slanted" testimonial which I submitted:~
Low Guan You was elected into the Executive Committee of National Junior College Green Link in June 2005, and he served as President of the club for a year. He has a strong passion for environmental conservation and has displayed exemplary leadership in the commitment for this cause.
Low Guan You has contributed significantly towards environmental awareness within the college. He led the club in the participation of Singapore Environment Council's "How Green Is Your School" Programme, by involving the entire club in the Green Audit Project. Under his leadership, the college was awarded the Lotus Award for the second consecutive year, which qualifies the college to be among the most environmentally-conscious schools in Singapore. He has also proposed for a landscaped butterfly garden and a spice garden to be built in the college compound, and was in charge of the initial layout and completion of the two gardens.
On a college level, Low Guan You has also led the club to organise environmental events such as the annual Earth Week and Recycling Week. He is also actively involved in the club's regular river-keeping project at Sungei Api Api located in Pasir Ris Park, and is a trained nature guide for the Pasir Ris Park Mangrove Boardwalk trail. He has also initiated a recycling project within the college to collect aluminium can tabs, which can be recycled into prosthetic limbs. He was also part of the organising committee for EnviroFest 2006, which is a collaboration between Nanyang Technological University Earth Link and NJC Green Link.
Low Guan You is also an active volunteer for Green Volunteers Network (GVN). He has embarked on a trip to orang asli villages in Malaysia to help underpriviledged children. He has also volunteered in various environmental exhibition events with GVN, such as for Clean & Green Week. Under GVN's Kids Konservation Klub programme, he has also been involved in the organisation of an environmental camp at Pulau Ubin for Andersen Primary.
I realised how much I've done in Green Link. And that's not including all the nature guidings and giving assembly talks about elephants and can tabs at Catholic High! Honestly I'm sick of doing events-planning for environmentalism, although I must admit I did enjoy planning all those activities. But hey, I've been under tremendous stress for one entire year! Things don't always turn out well the way they should, so I'm taking a break from all these green exhibitions thingy for the next one or two years.
And now, it's time for sleep so that hopefully I can grow one more stomach or something.
Saturday, 5 August 2006
I shall blog about yesterday and today. Here goes!
School was a dead tiring because I slept at 3am the night before. Busy doing those old age poems through the night. It's a good thing I dropped Economics, cos they had an essay due too, or I'll be sleepless the entire night. Good thing my Friday lessons are always interesting enough for me to not fall asleep. I "monologued" to myself while doing hypothesis testing, and freaked out quite a lot of people. Stayed back in school till 2pm cos we're supposed to have consultation with Mr Dio, but he cancelled it last-minute AGAIN. I didn't want to feel like I wasted my time, so I took a bus down with Annie to KAP to find Qiling cos she didn't go school and was studying there. And when we went to buy sushi at Cold Storage, I met Wilfred! Haha he looks really round now. Then Yurong joined us later in the afternoon, left Qiling at KAP and went to Island Creamery with Yurong to go meet her sis. I haven't met Peirong for ages! Eh okie maybe I saw her, but I hadn't talked to her since forever. Sat there and stoned, then headed back home to sleep and rest for a while before getting down to corps cos I was leading worship for the night. It was good, one of those rare times where I'm more focused on worshipping than trying to get my notes right. Then we had cell group and Ben joined us, after booking out from his first 2 weeks in army.
And today was the Glass Menagerie lecture that we never had last week. Kai Jie personally sent everyone a reminder, and Jas forwarded it as an added precaution, so I was absolutely certain that the lecture wasn't cancelled last minute and me and Christine won't be the 2 poor lost souls wondering where the rest of the Lit cohort are again. Halfway through the lecture I frightened Kai Jie by suggesting that Laura is a highly-lusty woman who's secretly desperate for sex despite her shy demeanour. And we still haven't finished the text!! After the lecture I was craving for nasi lemak, so I went down to Adam Road food centre and joined the queues for twenty minutes. And I'm doing Menagerie revision now.
School was a dead tiring because I slept at 3am the night before. Busy doing those old age poems through the night. It's a good thing I dropped Economics, cos they had an essay due too, or I'll be sleepless the entire night. Good thing my Friday lessons are always interesting enough for me to not fall asleep. I "monologued" to myself while doing hypothesis testing, and freaked out quite a lot of people. Stayed back in school till 2pm cos we're supposed to have consultation with Mr Dio, but he cancelled it last-minute AGAIN. I didn't want to feel like I wasted my time, so I took a bus down with Annie to KAP to find Qiling cos she didn't go school and was studying there. And when we went to buy sushi at Cold Storage, I met Wilfred! Haha he looks really round now. Then Yurong joined us later in the afternoon, left Qiling at KAP and went to Island Creamery with Yurong to go meet her sis. I haven't met Peirong for ages! Eh okie maybe I saw her, but I hadn't talked to her since forever. Sat there and stoned, then headed back home to sleep and rest for a while before getting down to corps cos I was leading worship for the night. It was good, one of those rare times where I'm more focused on worshipping than trying to get my notes right. Then we had cell group and Ben joined us, after booking out from his first 2 weeks in army.
And today was the Glass Menagerie lecture that we never had last week. Kai Jie personally sent everyone a reminder, and Jas forwarded it as an added precaution, so I was absolutely certain that the lecture wasn't cancelled last minute and me and Christine won't be the 2 poor lost souls wondering where the rest of the Lit cohort are again. Halfway through the lecture I frightened Kai Jie by suggesting that Laura is a highly-lusty woman who's secretly desperate for sex despite her shy demeanour. And we still haven't finished the text!! After the lecture I was craving for nasi lemak, so I went down to Adam Road food centre and joined the queues for twenty minutes. And I'm doing Menagerie revision now.
Friday, 4 August 2006
Mugging and doing homework and revising and trying desperately to cram everything that I've studied in the past 2 years. How does one come up with sufficient time to study thoroughly for all subjects and still have time to practise and internalize all the info?? AARGH. I need more time. Dang it I thought starting my revision two months early was enough, but now it seems as though I should have started since March or something.
Been staying back in school to study this whole week. Was in library with Khairi, Jas and Liyana on Monday till 6.30pm, then was with Khairi yesterday till 8pm, and with Khairi again today till 5.30pm. Haha the extent of hours that we put into mugging!! I don't mind staying in school till 9pm to study, cos I can't study at home anyway.
Except that my mum thinks I'll get raped if I reach home later than 9pm. My mum is weird. She used to be really slack about my curfew hours; in fact there aren't any curfew hours for me. But now she's starting to realise that her only son is going to be in army soon, so she wants me home so that she can spend more time with me. But all she does is make me sit in front of the TV and watch lame shows like MAGGIE AND ME with her???
I shall aim to stayover in school one day and spend the whole night studying. Khairi's like my unofficial mugging partner now. My mum will probably freak out, thinking that I'm having some gay affair or something. So far I've been telling my mum that I'm studying in school with loads of girls, which is believable to her because she thinks I'm really popular with girls. So at this rate I'm not going to tell her I've been studying with Khairi, or I'll have to be home by 3pm to watch even lamer shows like those Holland V reruns.
I realised I totally forgot what partial fractions is all about. I had to reread the objectives twice just to have a recollection of what it's all about.
Mr Whitby assigned a compare and contrast essay to be due tomorrow. Me and Khairi stayed back till 8pm in school just to PC the two poems! And we weren't satisfied with it, so we continued again this afternoon. Well guess who happily walked by? Mr Whitby was on his way home so we sort of waylaid him and discussed the poems with him. And whatever that we came up with were MISINTERPRETATIONS!! Oh gosh to think we still thought so highly of ourselves! Blah if Whitby didn't hint and prompt, I wouldn't have thought of those ideas. Hell how am I going to pass my Lit like that?
Well on the happy note, me and Khairi calculated that if our unseen P8 is a mere 59/100, and Lit P1 and P3 are like 20/25 for each text, we still can get our A!! So it makes sense to cram all the Lear and Herbert and whatever now, rather than try and master PC!! Haha!
Anyway, I had dinner with Biru, Jolene and Rachels Tan and Kwan. Tomorrow's Rachel Tan's birthday. Actually it's past 12 midnight already so it's Rachel's birthday now. We went J8 and ate at Long John's. Today is fried chicken day for me! I ate teriyaki chicken in school, then I ate a fried drumstick, and I ended it off with some fried chicken at Long John's. I'm modelling my eating habits like Atiqah, who became a chicken nugget after eating chicken for the whole day. Ooh yesh we celebrated in Long John's and we were so afraid that we would trigger off the smoke sensors.
Okie it's back to comparing and contrasting for me. Poems about old age are scary. One day I'm going to be like those oldies, but then again I really can't wait for my 93rd birthday.
Been staying back in school to study this whole week. Was in library with Khairi, Jas and Liyana on Monday till 6.30pm, then was with Khairi yesterday till 8pm, and with Khairi again today till 5.30pm. Haha the extent of hours that we put into mugging!! I don't mind staying in school till 9pm to study, cos I can't study at home anyway.
Except that my mum thinks I'll get raped if I reach home later than 9pm. My mum is weird. She used to be really slack about my curfew hours; in fact there aren't any curfew hours for me. But now she's starting to realise that her only son is going to be in army soon, so she wants me home so that she can spend more time with me. But all she does is make me sit in front of the TV and watch lame shows like MAGGIE AND ME with her???
I shall aim to stayover in school one day and spend the whole night studying. Khairi's like my unofficial mugging partner now. My mum will probably freak out, thinking that I'm having some gay affair or something. So far I've been telling my mum that I'm studying in school with loads of girls, which is believable to her because she thinks I'm really popular with girls. So at this rate I'm not going to tell her I've been studying with Khairi, or I'll have to be home by 3pm to watch even lamer shows like those Holland V reruns.
I realised I totally forgot what partial fractions is all about. I had to reread the objectives twice just to have a recollection of what it's all about.
Mr Whitby assigned a compare and contrast essay to be due tomorrow. Me and Khairi stayed back till 8pm in school just to PC the two poems! And we weren't satisfied with it, so we continued again this afternoon. Well guess who happily walked by? Mr Whitby was on his way home so we sort of waylaid him and discussed the poems with him. And whatever that we came up with were MISINTERPRETATIONS!! Oh gosh to think we still thought so highly of ourselves! Blah if Whitby didn't hint and prompt, I wouldn't have thought of those ideas. Hell how am I going to pass my Lit like that?
Well on the happy note, me and Khairi calculated that if our unseen P8 is a mere 59/100, and Lit P1 and P3 are like 20/25 for each text, we still can get our A!! So it makes sense to cram all the Lear and Herbert and whatever now, rather than try and master PC!! Haha!
Anyway, I had dinner with Biru, Jolene and Rachels Tan and Kwan. Tomorrow's Rachel Tan's birthday. Actually it's past 12 midnight already so it's Rachel's birthday now. We went J8 and ate at Long John's. Today is fried chicken day for me! I ate teriyaki chicken in school, then I ate a fried drumstick, and I ended it off with some fried chicken at Long John's. I'm modelling my eating habits like Atiqah, who became a chicken nugget after eating chicken for the whole day. Ooh yesh we celebrated in Long John's and we were so afraid that we would trigger off the smoke sensors.
Okie it's back to comparing and contrasting for me. Poems about old age are scary. One day I'm going to be like those oldies, but then again I really can't wait for my 93rd birthday.
Tuesday, 1 August 2006
It's like 3am in the morning now. Ah ha. I slept from 9.30pm till now, and I'm planning to study from now till whatever time later when I decide I shall go to school. I'm lacking sleep. And there are tonnes of work to be done, millions of stuff to revise and study. And so little time.
I'm really feeling the stress from all the mugging now. Okay maybe I just haven't been managing my time well, but seriously I'm stressed out from the fact that prelims is like slightly more than a month away and I'm still not familiar with half the content that I'm supposed to know. I'm like, struggling to keep to my timetable in order to complete my revision in time. Suddenly I find my week's timetable packed full with consultations and remedials. And suddenly I find myself willing to stay back in school till 7pm just to study.
And strangely enough, I feel as if I have more work and revision to do now when compared to before I dropped Economics. WHY DO I FEEL AS IF THERE'S STILL SO MUCH TO STUDY WHEN I ONLY TAKE 3 A'S?? I think I've really been slacking for the past one and a half years. Haha I asked Rhoda if she felt overwhelmed by the number of subjects she's taking, and she gave me some vague answer. SEE! EVEN RHODA IS STRESSED!! Okay actually I didn't really catch what she said.
I'm rambling nonsense. I just want to whine about studying.
But I think school's really great. I've got wonderful classmates who just constantly bring joy into my life. And people that I found unapproachable in the past, are now my bestest friends in school. Sometimes I just want to go school and mop my way through all the lessons, but it really is quite impossible with my classmates. Funny how your life works... Or rather, funny how MY life works.
I had a strange dream. I dreamt that I was walking and talking with Chiew Yee. Then after that I dreamt that I was trying to escape from some psycho who was chasing me around my neighbourhood. Then I dreamt that Khairi decided to pay me a visit and I have to dodge and hide from the psycho just to meet him.
Whee.
On Sunday me and Della were up on stage for our Ben & Geri show again. Della fumbled her lines! She forgot to speak the extra "blue roofs" bit, but it was just a small thing. The rest of the skit went smoothly, and I didn't tremble like an earthquake on stage. And I had a mini-breakfast with Tammy! After service was Ministry Fair, and some photo-shoot cos I'm gonig to appear on October War Cry. Haha! Had lunch then studied with Yurong at Jericho.
I'm tired. Haha. I don't understand how people can have the energy to be so happy and bright and cheery all the time. Isn't it tiring to be so active all the time? I'm quite contented with just sitting there and pondering about GLOBAL ISSUES. Haha right. But I do admire people who seem eternally joyous and optimistic. Okay I'm not exactly sad about anything either, but most of the time I just find it tiring to be bubbly.
I don't know what's my point again. Rambling nonsense.
Jaslyn messaged me saying she's been studying with Rongrong at KAP. What a small and dismal world. I think it's scary. You never know who's meeting who at which time, and sometimes your friends meet your other friends and they start gossipping about you. ISN'T THAT SCARY? The world is shrinking so much that come to think of it, 6 billion people really isn't a lot. Maybe Jas and Rong were talking about my hairstyle. Or my weird nose. Or whatever. And the worst part was Jas mentioning Yurong, and she was just sitting beside me at that time! AAAAHHHHHHHH I'm traumatised.
I'm supposed to say "you're jumping all over the place" to Della for the skit on Sunday, but I didn't cos I forgot to mention it and ended up ad libbing. But today I said that to Qiling, cos she flitted in and out of my life in school like a ghost. One moment she's behind me, then while walking she'll suddenly zoom away to some other place without a word. And I realise that Mondays are going to be full of her zooming everywhere cos we're having Maths remedial, then there'll be Lit consultaion with her and the rest of my Lit small group. Another traumatising thought.
AARGH. I shall go study.
I know you meant well, and I know you weren't trying to be intrusive. But it doesn't take me very long to put one and one together. Haha you're a bad spy. Nope I'm not angry or anything, cos my life is really like a book for all to read. I've already told you the truth anyway: I really do not know.
I'm really feeling the stress from all the mugging now. Okay maybe I just haven't been managing my time well, but seriously I'm stressed out from the fact that prelims is like slightly more than a month away and I'm still not familiar with half the content that I'm supposed to know. I'm like, struggling to keep to my timetable in order to complete my revision in time. Suddenly I find my week's timetable packed full with consultations and remedials. And suddenly I find myself willing to stay back in school till 7pm just to study.
And strangely enough, I feel as if I have more work and revision to do now when compared to before I dropped Economics. WHY DO I FEEL AS IF THERE'S STILL SO MUCH TO STUDY WHEN I ONLY TAKE 3 A'S?? I think I've really been slacking for the past one and a half years. Haha I asked Rhoda if she felt overwhelmed by the number of subjects she's taking, and she gave me some vague answer. SEE! EVEN RHODA IS STRESSED!! Okay actually I didn't really catch what she said.
I'm rambling nonsense. I just want to whine about studying.
But I think school's really great. I've got wonderful classmates who just constantly bring joy into my life. And people that I found unapproachable in the past, are now my bestest friends in school. Sometimes I just want to go school and mop my way through all the lessons, but it really is quite impossible with my classmates. Funny how your life works... Or rather, funny how MY life works.
I had a strange dream. I dreamt that I was walking and talking with Chiew Yee. Then after that I dreamt that I was trying to escape from some psycho who was chasing me around my neighbourhood. Then I dreamt that Khairi decided to pay me a visit and I have to dodge and hide from the psycho just to meet him.
Whee.
On Sunday me and Della were up on stage for our Ben & Geri show again. Della fumbled her lines! She forgot to speak the extra "blue roofs" bit, but it was just a small thing. The rest of the skit went smoothly, and I didn't tremble like an earthquake on stage. And I had a mini-breakfast with Tammy! After service was Ministry Fair, and some photo-shoot cos I'm gonig to appear on October War Cry. Haha! Had lunch then studied with Yurong at Jericho.
I'm tired. Haha. I don't understand how people can have the energy to be so happy and bright and cheery all the time. Isn't it tiring to be so active all the time? I'm quite contented with just sitting there and pondering about GLOBAL ISSUES. Haha right. But I do admire people who seem eternally joyous and optimistic. Okay I'm not exactly sad about anything either, but most of the time I just find it tiring to be bubbly.
I don't know what's my point again. Rambling nonsense.
Jaslyn messaged me saying she's been studying with Rongrong at KAP. What a small and dismal world. I think it's scary. You never know who's meeting who at which time, and sometimes your friends meet your other friends and they start gossipping about you. ISN'T THAT SCARY? The world is shrinking so much that come to think of it, 6 billion people really isn't a lot. Maybe Jas and Rong were talking about my hairstyle. Or my weird nose. Or whatever. And the worst part was Jas mentioning Yurong, and she was just sitting beside me at that time! AAAAHHHHHHHH I'm traumatised.
I'm supposed to say "you're jumping all over the place" to Della for the skit on Sunday, but I didn't cos I forgot to mention it and ended up ad libbing. But today I said that to Qiling, cos she flitted in and out of my life in school like a ghost. One moment she's behind me, then while walking she'll suddenly zoom away to some other place without a word. And I realise that Mondays are going to be full of her zooming everywhere cos we're having Maths remedial, then there'll be Lit consultaion with her and the rest of my Lit small group. Another traumatising thought.
AARGH. I shall go study.
I know you meant well, and I know you weren't trying to be intrusive. But it doesn't take me very long to put one and one together. Haha you're a bad spy. Nope I'm not angry or anything, cos my life is really like a book for all to read. I've already told you the truth anyway: I really do not know.
Saturday, 29 July 2006
AARGH I FEEL SO BETRAYED!! There was supposed to be a Glass Menagerie lecture this morning at 8.30am, and I woke up at 8am. And I rushed all the way to school without even eating breakfast, only to find out that Ms Teo cancelled the lecture!! WHAT THE HELL LA! Apparently she sent out the message last night, but I didn't receive anything from anybody. Only knew when I called Khairi and he told me it was cancelled. AAARGH and to think I was determined not to be late and ran all the way into school the moment I reached the bus-stop! The most ironic thing was that I was still hanging around with Ms Teo last night at 8pm, and I knew nothing about it!
Okay at least I'm not the only stupid idiot who rushed for nothing. After Khairi's devasting news, I met Christine who was frantically searching for any sign of any Lit student too. And yep, in common plights we share our common griefs and sorrows, so we walked around school aimless for a while, before I decided to come home and study. UGHH. I swear I'm not going to bother about trying to be early for future Lit lectures. And that's not even mentioning whether I will turn up.
Other than that, last night was the poetry night organised by Lit Wing in school. Actually to be frank, it's actually organised by Ms Ho Poh Fun while the Lit Wing students are just slaves to her whims. Yesh the organisation was one big heck of a crap, but the actual performances and poetry recitations were quite smooth. For all the disastrous rehearsals and last-minute unreasonable demands and lack of communication and stupidity and stubborn-ness, the actual thing makes it seem as though everything was really well-organised. Haha that's my pleasant surprise for the evening.
All my Lit teachers (except Mr Whitby), and even my GP tutor (she majored in Lit) recited her poems. And don't dismiss Ms Ho as some old lady who's got nothing credible to her name! She invited guest poets who shared some brilliant poems (in my opinion). And when it was my turn to recite my Snail poem, I feel embarassed cos it really lacked depth when compared to the other poems which were recited. And Judith got my entire poem displayed wide on screen, while most of the other poem recitations were just listened to by ear only. I was still thinking of mumbling through my recitation so that the audience couldn't hear what I actually wrote!
Well anyway my poem got 3rd and I got some Kino book vouchers again. That means I have now a total of 2 award-winning poems that I can include as my literary accolades! And I realised I've received $60 worth of Kino vouchers just from writing 2 poems so far. Poets indeed CAN make a living from writing poems! Haha I told Mrs Nair that I'll publish my own poetry collection in the future, and she can borrow my fame by claiming that she was my civics tutor! Wahaa.
Came back to Bishan for Friday night youth service. Aaron gave quite a weird message about belonging together in the church. I keep picturing the image of Joel Tan trying to coordinate fellowship activities throughout Aaron's message. Hah! Anyway they did the blackboard thing with all the announcements, and it looks as if entering the audi was like entering some restaurant and you have to wait to be seated. Had cell group after that for a while before going home to sleep.
Okay at least I'm not the only stupid idiot who rushed for nothing. After Khairi's devasting news, I met Christine who was frantically searching for any sign of any Lit student too. And yep, in common plights we share our common griefs and sorrows, so we walked around school aimless for a while, before I decided to come home and study. UGHH. I swear I'm not going to bother about trying to be early for future Lit lectures. And that's not even mentioning whether I will turn up.
Other than that, last night was the poetry night organised by Lit Wing in school. Actually to be frank, it's actually organised by Ms Ho Poh Fun while the Lit Wing students are just slaves to her whims. Yesh the organisation was one big heck of a crap, but the actual performances and poetry recitations were quite smooth. For all the disastrous rehearsals and last-minute unreasonable demands and lack of communication and stupidity and stubborn-ness, the actual thing makes it seem as though everything was really well-organised. Haha that's my pleasant surprise for the evening.
All my Lit teachers (except Mr Whitby), and even my GP tutor (she majored in Lit) recited her poems. And don't dismiss Ms Ho as some old lady who's got nothing credible to her name! She invited guest poets who shared some brilliant poems (in my opinion). And when it was my turn to recite my Snail poem, I feel embarassed cos it really lacked depth when compared to the other poems which were recited. And Judith got my entire poem displayed wide on screen, while most of the other poem recitations were just listened to by ear only. I was still thinking of mumbling through my recitation so that the audience couldn't hear what I actually wrote!
Well anyway my poem got 3rd and I got some Kino book vouchers again. That means I have now a total of 2 award-winning poems that I can include as my literary accolades! And I realised I've received $60 worth of Kino vouchers just from writing 2 poems so far. Poets indeed CAN make a living from writing poems! Haha I told Mrs Nair that I'll publish my own poetry collection in the future, and she can borrow my fame by claiming that she was my civics tutor! Wahaa.
Came back to Bishan for Friday night youth service. Aaron gave quite a weird message about belonging together in the church. I keep picturing the image of Joel Tan trying to coordinate fellowship activities throughout Aaron's message. Hah! Anyway they did the blackboard thing with all the announcements, and it looks as if entering the audi was like entering some restaurant and you have to wait to be seated. Had cell group after that for a while before going home to sleep.
Thursday, 27 July 2006
Yeah I'm blogging I'm blogging!! Been busy with school work and revision this entire week, and reaching home everyday at 8pm cos I'm either hanging out with friends outside, or I'm having tuition with Hai Hao. Okie let's start with where I last left off in my previous entry.
Oh yesh my stayover at Eleanor's was both funky and meaningful! We bought 2 boxes of cereal and had a contest to count how many bits of cereal we each ate! Had a pillow fight and I won cos I creamed her with 3 pillows and sat on her. Hahaha! And the craziest thing that we did for the entire night was to call Macs Delivery at 3am and demanded that we want McFlurry! Macs don't do delivery for McFlurry and sundaes from 2am to 5am because of some quality control thingy, so we had a real kick from torturing the poor phone operator. We asked stupid questions like can we have our chicken wings ORIGINAL?? Hee hee!
Basically it was the wild and nuts stayover. Didn't sleep the whole night, and I had to rush home at 6am just to change into my school uniform and go school. But I had a great time talking to Eleanor; having heart-to-heart conversations from chatting absolute rubbish. Oh oh and guess what my weird mummy said to me after I phoned her telling that I'm staying over at a girl's house? She said "NO PRE-MARITAL SEX". Blooiee.
School for this week is less hectic than last week's. For the first time I'm actually appreciating Ms Kao's eternal cheeriness, considering how I always comparing her to a sweetener. Mr Whitby gave me his bright eyes after I said "reductive development" and "focus on the swans" for the Wild Swans poem (although I found it uninteresting). And Ms Ting was in one of her better moods this week!
The only drab that got me pissed off was Lit Wing's rehearsal for their poetry night tomorrow. I'm involved in it cos I submitted a poem for their poetry-writing competition 2 months ago and I'm one of the finalists, so I have to recite my poem onstage. Oh brilliant there were only 6 entries for that category?? Well okay I thought it was just a simple recitation, so I thought nothing of it when I went for the rehearsal yesterday. But I didn't know that the programme line-up had 2o plus plus items and I'm in the last one. Ms Ho Poh Fun couldn't stop commenting on absolutely anything and interrupting everything and insisting things done her way, so you can imagine my impatience after half an hour in the LT and they're only at item 4?? GOODNESS. I didn't feel obliged to participate anyway, cos I wasn't informed that I had to recite until Benny told me last week, and with horrible organisation like that, who's ever going to turn up to listen to poem recitations??
Wahaa. I couldn't take it anymore, so I sneaked out halfway and went for tuition with Hai Hao instead.
On a lighter note I went to Island Creamery with Yurong again. Met Aaron and Zhi Zhong there! Been a very long time since I last saw them... Went to Marina Square to go shopping with Atiqah too, comparing all the Malay salespeople in different shops. And today I had dinner with Andre and Biru to catch up on how we've been and stuff like that.
Today was a half-day in school, cos there were some sports CCAs who did well. But my half-day was quite non-existent as I had Maths consultation, then I had a Green Link meeting with the juniors. Stayed back till 5pm to go walking around school counting trees with them. Haha they're doing the Green Audit now, and I'm happily laughing at them counting cos I used to be in that situation last year. Like I said, it's great to be elevated to a mentorship status cos all you do is talk and talk and you don't have to do anything to validate your speeches. Whee!
Oh it was photo-taking for our class today. I wanted to wear something that will make me look really stupid, and the dumb thing was I forgot to bring my shades or my nerdy specs or my weird hats! Haha but Jaslyn did bring her purple hairband, and Charlene dared me to wear it, so I did. And I tried to style my hair with Khairi's wax, but my hair was too short, so it didn't look outstanding. I mean, the point of photo-taking sessions means you have to look stupid right??
Alright I shall go sleep soon.
Oh yesh my stayover at Eleanor's was both funky and meaningful! We bought 2 boxes of cereal and had a contest to count how many bits of cereal we each ate! Had a pillow fight and I won cos I creamed her with 3 pillows and sat on her. Hahaha! And the craziest thing that we did for the entire night was to call Macs Delivery at 3am and demanded that we want McFlurry! Macs don't do delivery for McFlurry and sundaes from 2am to 5am because of some quality control thingy, so we had a real kick from torturing the poor phone operator. We asked stupid questions like can we have our chicken wings ORIGINAL?? Hee hee!
Basically it was the wild and nuts stayover. Didn't sleep the whole night, and I had to rush home at 6am just to change into my school uniform and go school. But I had a great time talking to Eleanor; having heart-to-heart conversations from chatting absolute rubbish. Oh oh and guess what my weird mummy said to me after I phoned her telling that I'm staying over at a girl's house? She said "NO PRE-MARITAL SEX". Blooiee.
School for this week is less hectic than last week's. For the first time I'm actually appreciating Ms Kao's eternal cheeriness, considering how I always comparing her to a sweetener. Mr Whitby gave me his bright eyes after I said "reductive development" and "focus on the swans" for the Wild Swans poem (although I found it uninteresting). And Ms Ting was in one of her better moods this week!
The only drab that got me pissed off was Lit Wing's rehearsal for their poetry night tomorrow. I'm involved in it cos I submitted a poem for their poetry-writing competition 2 months ago and I'm one of the finalists, so I have to recite my poem onstage. Oh brilliant there were only 6 entries for that category?? Well okay I thought it was just a simple recitation, so I thought nothing of it when I went for the rehearsal yesterday. But I didn't know that the programme line-up had 2o plus plus items and I'm in the last one. Ms Ho Poh Fun couldn't stop commenting on absolutely anything and interrupting everything and insisting things done her way, so you can imagine my impatience after half an hour in the LT and they're only at item 4?? GOODNESS. I didn't feel obliged to participate anyway, cos I wasn't informed that I had to recite until Benny told me last week, and with horrible organisation like that, who's ever going to turn up to listen to poem recitations??
Wahaa. I couldn't take it anymore, so I sneaked out halfway and went for tuition with Hai Hao instead.
On a lighter note I went to Island Creamery with Yurong again. Met Aaron and Zhi Zhong there! Been a very long time since I last saw them... Went to Marina Square to go shopping with Atiqah too, comparing all the Malay salespeople in different shops. And today I had dinner with Andre and Biru to catch up on how we've been and stuff like that.
Today was a half-day in school, cos there were some sports CCAs who did well. But my half-day was quite non-existent as I had Maths consultation, then I had a Green Link meeting with the juniors. Stayed back till 5pm to go walking around school counting trees with them. Haha they're doing the Green Audit now, and I'm happily laughing at them counting cos I used to be in that situation last year. Like I said, it's great to be elevated to a mentorship status cos all you do is talk and talk and you don't have to do anything to validate your speeches. Whee!
Oh it was photo-taking for our class today. I wanted to wear something that will make me look really stupid, and the dumb thing was I forgot to bring my shades or my nerdy specs or my weird hats! Haha but Jaslyn did bring her purple hairband, and Charlene dared me to wear it, so I did. And I tried to style my hair with Khairi's wax, but my hair was too short, so it didn't look outstanding. I mean, the point of photo-taking sessions means you have to look stupid right??
Alright I shall go sleep soon.
Monday, 24 July 2006
I'm at Eleanor's house now! Staying over at her house, and the stupid thing is I have school tomorrow and I forgot to bring my school uniform along. HOW DUMB. I don't even feel like going school tomorrow. Haha! Anyway, this stayover is entirely impromptu. I just decided to go over for fun and next thing I knew, she suggested a stayover and here I am.
It's been quite a funky day today. Me and Della did the skit this morning during service. Uncle Vince brought over Ben's shirt and tie for me, cos I've got no shirts at home! All my shirts are either loaned to people or they are stuck in the locker in school, and my dad's ones are too big for me. But anyway, I supposed to look nerdy, so I brought along my nerdy specs that I bought from Kuantan!
In the end I think I look more funky than I should, cos I didn't tuck in the shirt and I'm wearing a tie with it. Haha but it was formal enough la. The skit was quite smooth, although halfway through both me and Della forgot our lines and we fumbled slightly... But whee it was good, considering that this is the skit with the most lines.
And it was soldiership enrolment today too! Huimin looks good in uniform. And it was great to see all the people that I met at soldiership class take a step forward in their church membership. Kinda nostalgic as I stood on stage too, cos last year around August was my enrolment, and the past year was quite eventful.
Had lunch with church people, Shi Hui is nuts! Then me and Ben came back to corps for prayer meeting with Lurong and David. It's my first time joining them since they switched to Sunday afternoons, and Ben's gone into the army so it feels kinda weird to have such a small group.
We were talking about Chris Tomlin's song Indescribable after prayer meeting. Everyone thinks it's nice except me. Okie I only heard it once, and it just sounded like a normal song. But now I'm listening to that song on Eleanor's music playlist now, and I think it does indeed sound meaningful. For once Tomlin is not repetitive. Haha!
Major Andrew tore a piece of paper during sermon today, to show that we'll be "ripped apart" if we do not belong to the church. The piece of paper was clean and unused!! And I bet he's going to throw that torn-up piece of paper away! Blah that's so enviro-unfriendly!
I'm having cravings for ice cream now. Okie gonna complete my GP comprehension before I go party the night away. Eleanor wants to pillow-fight and play catching.
It's been quite a funky day today. Me and Della did the skit this morning during service. Uncle Vince brought over Ben's shirt and tie for me, cos I've got no shirts at home! All my shirts are either loaned to people or they are stuck in the locker in school, and my dad's ones are too big for me. But anyway, I supposed to look nerdy, so I brought along my nerdy specs that I bought from Kuantan!
In the end I think I look more funky than I should, cos I didn't tuck in the shirt and I'm wearing a tie with it. Haha but it was formal enough la. The skit was quite smooth, although halfway through both me and Della forgot our lines and we fumbled slightly... But whee it was good, considering that this is the skit with the most lines.
And it was soldiership enrolment today too! Huimin looks good in uniform. And it was great to see all the people that I met at soldiership class take a step forward in their church membership. Kinda nostalgic as I stood on stage too, cos last year around August was my enrolment, and the past year was quite eventful.
Had lunch with church people, Shi Hui is nuts! Then me and Ben came back to corps for prayer meeting with Lurong and David. It's my first time joining them since they switched to Sunday afternoons, and Ben's gone into the army so it feels kinda weird to have such a small group.
We were talking about Chris Tomlin's song Indescribable after prayer meeting. Everyone thinks it's nice except me. Okie I only heard it once, and it just sounded like a normal song. But now I'm listening to that song on Eleanor's music playlist now, and I think it does indeed sound meaningful. For once Tomlin is not repetitive. Haha!
Major Andrew tore a piece of paper during sermon today, to show that we'll be "ripped apart" if we do not belong to the church. The piece of paper was clean and unused!! And I bet he's going to throw that torn-up piece of paper away! Blah that's so enviro-unfriendly!
I'm having cravings for ice cream now. Okie gonna complete my GP comprehension before I go party the night away. Eleanor wants to pillow-fight and play catching.
Saturday, 22 July 2006
Been tagged by Ruth and Tammy, so now I must comply and do these aimless surveys. Blah okie here goes. Ruth's one is first, then Tammy's.
Ruth's survey...
INSTRUCTIONS
1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
FAVOURITES
Color: Pink! Especially soft pink and hot pink. Pastel colours do fine too.
Food: I eat anything that's edible except grapes.
Movie: Eh I have no idea... I forgot the plots of all the movies I've ever watched.
Sport: Jogging and frisbee.
Day of the week: Friday. My earliest day off from school.
Season: Winter.
Ice-cream: Vanilla!
CURRENT
Mood: Quite carefree, though I need to start on my homework soon.
Taste: Kaya with toast.
Clothes: Some red tee.
Desktop: A red wallpaper that I got from YP's Online.
Toenail colour: Naturally pinkish... My fingernails are white.
Time: 4.10pm
Surroundings: Study room, although I never study in here.
Annoyance: I can't play B7 on the guitar, and Nutseed is hyperactive.
FIRST
Best friend: Biru. Whee!
Crush: This girl whom I met at some playground when I was 7. I asked for a number but she didn't want to give me!
Lie: Can't remember... Whoever remembers these??
Music: Loads... All the kiddy songs!
LASTS
Cigarette: Eh nah don't smoke.
Drink: Small bottle of milk that was pandan-flavoured.
Ride: Matthew driving me and Yurong to corps.
Crush: Haha nah I really can't reveal this.
Movie: Cars, with Dale Carnegie people.
Phonecall: Tammy.
CD: This sample CD with 9 new Christian songs that costed $5.
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of ur best friends: Eh kind of... Although I've never dated before. Haha.
Broken the law: I once stole a signpost before!
Been arrested: Almost? Haha!!
Skinny-dipped: Nahh...
Been on tv: Three or four times, and they were all for environmental thingys!
Kissed someone that you dont know: No, though I would love to.
4 things you did today: Watched TV, disturbed my sister, played guitar and visited people's blogs which I haven't done so in 2 weeks.
3 things you can hear right now: Nutseed scrambling around, those MSN alerts when people sign in, and the song Majesty by Delirious.
5 people to do this: Kai Jie, Khairi, Atiqah, Joel and Biru. All 5 of them don't have blogs and are unlikely to see this post anyway, so this survey ends here. Unless you want to do this.
Tammy's survey...
7 random facts about me:
- I used to collect stamps.
- I like my hamster.
- I think zebras are ugly.
- I don't like meat.
- I think I'm really charming.
- I want to eat ice cream.
- I watch Pokemon on TV occasionally. Team Rocket sucks.
7 things that scares me:
- Monsters under my bed
- Being squashed by a giant hamburger
- Powerpuff Girls kicking my ass.
- Me being the stuffing inside a big dumpling.
- Flying chicken nuggets
- Grapes
- Some despotic girl having a crush on me.
7 random music at the moment:
- History Maker by Delirious.
- My Humps by Black Eyed Peas.
- Free by Hillsongs
- Torn by Natalie Imbruglia
- Cry by Mandy Moore
- Uh Oh We're In Trouble by Shampoo
- Now That You're Near by Hillsongs
7 things I say most:
- Right.
- Sure.
- Whatever.
- Oh gosh.
- Nuts.
- Shoots.
- Chicken nugget.
7 peeps to do this:
- Doc
- Bashful
- Dopey
- Grumpy
- Happy
- Sleepy
- Sneezy
(Yesh the 7 dwarves. Snow White can do this too.)
Ruth's survey...
INSTRUCTIONS
1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
FAVOURITES
Color: Pink! Especially soft pink and hot pink. Pastel colours do fine too.
Food: I eat anything that's edible except grapes.
Movie: Eh I have no idea... I forgot the plots of all the movies I've ever watched.
Sport: Jogging and frisbee.
Day of the week: Friday. My earliest day off from school.
Season: Winter.
Ice-cream: Vanilla!
CURRENT
Mood: Quite carefree, though I need to start on my homework soon.
Taste: Kaya with toast.
Clothes: Some red tee.
Desktop: A red wallpaper that I got from YP's Online.
Toenail colour: Naturally pinkish... My fingernails are white.
Time: 4.10pm
Surroundings: Study room, although I never study in here.
Annoyance: I can't play B7 on the guitar, and Nutseed is hyperactive.
FIRST
Best friend: Biru. Whee!
Crush: This girl whom I met at some playground when I was 7. I asked for a number but she didn't want to give me!
Lie: Can't remember... Whoever remembers these??
Music: Loads... All the kiddy songs!
LASTS
Cigarette: Eh nah don't smoke.
Drink: Small bottle of milk that was pandan-flavoured.
Ride: Matthew driving me and Yurong to corps.
Crush: Haha nah I really can't reveal this.
Movie: Cars, with Dale Carnegie people.
Phonecall: Tammy.
CD: This sample CD with 9 new Christian songs that costed $5.
HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of ur best friends: Eh kind of... Although I've never dated before. Haha.
Broken the law: I once stole a signpost before!
Been arrested: Almost? Haha!!
Skinny-dipped: Nahh...
Been on tv: Three or four times, and they were all for environmental thingys!
Kissed someone that you dont know: No, though I would love to.
4 things you did today: Watched TV, disturbed my sister, played guitar and visited people's blogs which I haven't done so in 2 weeks.
3 things you can hear right now: Nutseed scrambling around, those MSN alerts when people sign in, and the song Majesty by Delirious.
5 people to do this: Kai Jie, Khairi, Atiqah, Joel and Biru. All 5 of them don't have blogs and are unlikely to see this post anyway, so this survey ends here. Unless you want to do this.
Tammy's survey...
7 random facts about me:
- I used to collect stamps.
- I like my hamster.
- I think zebras are ugly.
- I don't like meat.
- I think I'm really charming.
- I want to eat ice cream.
- I watch Pokemon on TV occasionally. Team Rocket sucks.
7 things that scares me:
- Monsters under my bed
- Being squashed by a giant hamburger
- Powerpuff Girls kicking my ass.
- Me being the stuffing inside a big dumpling.
- Flying chicken nuggets
- Grapes
- Some despotic girl having a crush on me.
7 random music at the moment:
- History Maker by Delirious.
- My Humps by Black Eyed Peas.
- Free by Hillsongs
- Torn by Natalie Imbruglia
- Cry by Mandy Moore
- Uh Oh We're In Trouble by Shampoo
- Now That You're Near by Hillsongs
7 things I say most:
- Right.
- Sure.
- Whatever.
- Oh gosh.
- Nuts.
- Shoots.
- Chicken nugget.
7 peeps to do this:
- Doc
- Bashful
- Dopey
- Grumpy
- Happy
- Sleepy
- Sneezy
(Yesh the 7 dwarves. Snow White can do this too.)
Friday, 21 July 2006
This is my latest entry after a two week absence. Haha my computer broke down during that period of time, and basically refused to be switched on. How can you fix any virus if the computer can't even be switched on?? But okay the computer repaired itself miraculously on it's own, and I just happened to randomly switch it on successfully.
Two weeks of not blogging is considered long? I've got loads of people commenting to me that I haven't blogged for a long long time. And the most common comment is "Everytime I go to your blog, I see that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY entry". Blooiee.
Okie here's what happened in my life in that two weeks, from what I can remember of it. I realised that what I remember about my life in the past 2 or 3 years depends on what I document in this blog, so I must write down everything that's significant in my life, cos I have the worst memory ever.
Yup, in response to that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY post, I had an extremely high fever about 2 weeks ago. My fever reached 40 degrees, which was the highest fever ever in my life. And the ratty thing was that I'm allergic to paracetamol, so I can't just pop a Panadol and sleep it off. The doctor gave me some stronger antibiotics instead, and I suffered from side effects that included nausea and headache and diarrhoea.
And the even ratty thing was that everything that was important seemed to take place over that weekend that I was in high fever. I had a day off from school on Friday, and it so happened that there was some school invasion and Ronin came over! I think they are hellish Satanic but they are the coolest bunch of wackos that I know too. And adding on to that was that Wilfred organised a barbeque at his place on Saturday and lots of my old secondary 4 classmates were going. And there was Green Link camp on over that weekend too, and I had to act in the pilot skit for 40 Days of Community, and there was a leaders' meeting too. Guess what? I had to turn them all down cos I really was too sick to attend them.
But I did get slightly better by Sunday morning, so I went down to school for Green Link camp. Had EXCO selection interviews for the juniors, and it's sort of like a revenge thingy to make them earn their positions in the club. Eventually us seniors had a subsequent meeting to finalise everything, and Hong Yi is the new president now, and Connie is vice-president and Jingjie is secretary, and of course all the other committee positions as well which I'm lazy to name them all.
My parents went to Tibet for holiday last Thursday, and they came back last night. My funky parents decided to explore Tibet, and they had altitude sickness when they were there, cos they couldn't adjust to the mountainous area. But they had fun, although they complained that the food was all vegetables and beef and that the toilets were super unhygienic. They brought back weird looking souvenirs... Haha! My grandmother came to stayover throughout the week while they were away.
And last Saturday Joel held the first fellowship committee meeting since he took charge of it from me. I like my "mentorship" in both Green Link and fellowship, as all I have to do is sit there and look pretty, comment on certain stuff and give advice only. Whee! Anyway, there were some novelty ideas that we thought could be done in the church. Then me and Tammy went for dinner, and walked all the way to J8 cos we wanted to get trivial stuff like fruit juice and stationery. And we walked all the way back home too. TAMMY BIMBO!
And yep my tuition with Hai Hao is getting kinda crazy now. His Science teacher in school covers so little work each week, so I've been doing force and simple machines with him all month. He's brilliant in that topic now, of course. We keep wanting to pluck out each other's livers.
In school I got back all my most of my common tests results. Definitely not good, and the way I'm performing will most likely lead to my failure in A'Levels. BLAH. I studied okie!! But haha it's just not intensive enough. Cramming everything in 2 weeks is a bad idea. So I came up with a study plan that lasts 40 days and I'm supposed to complete all my revision before September holidays.
Had new teachers in school for this term too. Ms Lim taking over Human Geography, and Ms Kao doing GP. Ms Lim can't stop mentioning environmentalism and Green Link everytime she has lessons with us, and Ms Kao is bright and cheery and spontaneous and gets ecstatic when she can remember my name. And her GP booklet had this huge cow on the cover page. Sexy.
I guess for once I'm actually grateful for my class timetable. I think my breaks and free periods are strategically placed throughout the day to allow me to have lunch or breakfast or to do work, and hang out with the ever-present Jaslyn or Atiqah. Haha and that means enduring Jas whining and complaining. She told me not to mention it, but heck, whatever. And Siew Peng's getting to be ever-present in my school life too, cos sometimes we take the same bus home, so she becomes the last person I see from school and the first person I see from school the next day that I last saw the previous day. Whee.
We had racial harmony day celebrations and community service day in school on Wednesday. 05A01 was probably the only class in the whole school who bothered to turn up in ethnic costumes! I borrowed a lavender baju kurong from Atiqah, and had people staring at me the whole day. Everybody looked ethnic enough, and Beetsma and Khairi looked stunning in gold cos they were getting married! Beets is so hot hot!!
For community service, A01 and A02 shared 14 kids that were mostly 6 to 7 years old, and we played with them the whole day. Taught them songs, played games then there was some performance in LT5, and lunch for them and more interaction. I had to spell R-Y-A-N with my butt for "lying that I'm a handsome boy", and Janvin and me concluded that the school had only one song (Uptown Girl) to play for all the occasions.
I think by the end of everything, everyone had their own special kids that made it so memorable. Mine was this little boy named Bonson. He followed me everywhere and I followed him everywhere too. He's not one of those cute little kids, but he's so much more endearing and sweet that you can't help but love him. Some girl with a video-cam requested that I "interview" Bonson on how he found our school and the activities and stuff. He said he enjoyed playing with me and at the end of the questions, he kissed me!! AAAHHHHH!!
It was kinda sad when it was time for him to go. I gave him my number on a piece of paper cos he said he wanted to ask his mum to bring us along to Science Centre. Haha I really don't know what I was doing when I frantically asked Qiling for a piece of paper just so I could write my number down. I think my heart really melted whenever he automatically comes over and demand that I hold his hand... Gosh I'm seriously considering giving up teaching in a secondary school and going over to nursery or something like that. Haha!
All the geography students had to stay back for a karst landform talk after the kids left, and A01 was doing ushering for the talk. Ushering's kinda fun actually, cos I get to be friendly and weird and enthusiastic all at the same time. The talk was one of the clearest geography lectures that I ever had, or maybe I was plain sleeping through Ms Ting's lectures.
I think maybe it's time for me to start polluting the earth. Did a NEA survey with Atiqah and the Green Link people on environmental awareness, smoking and toilets and dengue and hygiene and stuff like that. I realised that I've put in so much efforts that maybe I should start denouncing Mother Nature which I'm trying to protect, and pollute her till I accelerate climate change. I handed over Green Link presidency anyway already, and I'm quite tired of environmentalism too. Now's a good time to start adding to the waste levels in Singapore.
Rushed out of school immediately when lessons ended today, cos Yurong's dad is fetching the both of us to send Ben off to the army. We just made it in time, and said our "speeches" to Ben. Blooiee it's going to be my turn soon, and honestly, I think it's probably a heart-wrenching thing to have your close friends going into army and you won't get to hang out with them for the next 2 years.
Oh well at least Ben's going in to slack his guts out in army anyway. Matthew, Yurong and me headed to Changi Village for nasi lemak after that, then drove down to Bugis area to explore funky shops selling stuff like bimbotic, pinkish-flowery electric guitars. Headed back to Bishan and went to Biru's house for a short while, in which she nail-polished my nails white. It looks like liquid paper solidified on my nails.
And I led worship today. I went totally off-pitch for one entire chorus, missed the openings of songs, sang like really bad and started shivering on stage. I was still terrified and in shock for half an hour after worship was over. But who cares? It's over already and I sang my heart out even though it sounded crap vocally.
Biru did the ice breaking game in order to extract the key out from the ice. Was quite okay, except that my group probably broke all the rules of the game cos you weren't allowed to smash the ice on the floor and you weren't allowed to dirty the floor, and we did. "We" is more powerful than "me". Doesn't that summarise the entire 40 Days of Community?? Oh yeah me and Della will be acting this Sunday.
I'm tired, even though I'm getting 8 hours of sleep everyday. That's such a far cry from my previous sleeping habits, when I do 4 or 5 hours everyday. So why in the world am I still tired?? Blah I'm going to bed.
Two weeks of not blogging is considered long? I've got loads of people commenting to me that I haven't blogged for a long long time. And the most common comment is "Everytime I go to your blog, I see that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY entry". Blooiee.
Okie here's what happened in my life in that two weeks, from what I can remember of it. I realised that what I remember about my life in the past 2 or 3 years depends on what I document in this blog, so I must write down everything that's significant in my life, cos I have the worst memory ever.
Yup, in response to that MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY post, I had an extremely high fever about 2 weeks ago. My fever reached 40 degrees, which was the highest fever ever in my life. And the ratty thing was that I'm allergic to paracetamol, so I can't just pop a Panadol and sleep it off. The doctor gave me some stronger antibiotics instead, and I suffered from side effects that included nausea and headache and diarrhoea.
And the even ratty thing was that everything that was important seemed to take place over that weekend that I was in high fever. I had a day off from school on Friday, and it so happened that there was some school invasion and Ronin came over! I think they are hellish Satanic but they are the coolest bunch of wackos that I know too. And adding on to that was that Wilfred organised a barbeque at his place on Saturday and lots of my old secondary 4 classmates were going. And there was Green Link camp on over that weekend too, and I had to act in the pilot skit for 40 Days of Community, and there was a leaders' meeting too. Guess what? I had to turn them all down cos I really was too sick to attend them.
But I did get slightly better by Sunday morning, so I went down to school for Green Link camp. Had EXCO selection interviews for the juniors, and it's sort of like a revenge thingy to make them earn their positions in the club. Eventually us seniors had a subsequent meeting to finalise everything, and Hong Yi is the new president now, and Connie is vice-president and Jingjie is secretary, and of course all the other committee positions as well which I'm lazy to name them all.
My parents went to Tibet for holiday last Thursday, and they came back last night. My funky parents decided to explore Tibet, and they had altitude sickness when they were there, cos they couldn't adjust to the mountainous area. But they had fun, although they complained that the food was all vegetables and beef and that the toilets were super unhygienic. They brought back weird looking souvenirs... Haha! My grandmother came to stayover throughout the week while they were away.
And last Saturday Joel held the first fellowship committee meeting since he took charge of it from me. I like my "mentorship" in both Green Link and fellowship, as all I have to do is sit there and look pretty, comment on certain stuff and give advice only. Whee! Anyway, there were some novelty ideas that we thought could be done in the church. Then me and Tammy went for dinner, and walked all the way to J8 cos we wanted to get trivial stuff like fruit juice and stationery. And we walked all the way back home too. TAMMY BIMBO!
And yep my tuition with Hai Hao is getting kinda crazy now. His Science teacher in school covers so little work each week, so I've been doing force and simple machines with him all month. He's brilliant in that topic now, of course. We keep wanting to pluck out each other's livers.
In school I got back all my most of my common tests results. Definitely not good, and the way I'm performing will most likely lead to my failure in A'Levels. BLAH. I studied okie!! But haha it's just not intensive enough. Cramming everything in 2 weeks is a bad idea. So I came up with a study plan that lasts 40 days and I'm supposed to complete all my revision before September holidays.
Had new teachers in school for this term too. Ms Lim taking over Human Geography, and Ms Kao doing GP. Ms Lim can't stop mentioning environmentalism and Green Link everytime she has lessons with us, and Ms Kao is bright and cheery and spontaneous and gets ecstatic when she can remember my name. And her GP booklet had this huge cow on the cover page. Sexy.
I guess for once I'm actually grateful for my class timetable. I think my breaks and free periods are strategically placed throughout the day to allow me to have lunch or breakfast or to do work, and hang out with the ever-present Jaslyn or Atiqah. Haha and that means enduring Jas whining and complaining. She told me not to mention it, but heck, whatever. And Siew Peng's getting to be ever-present in my school life too, cos sometimes we take the same bus home, so she becomes the last person I see from school and the first person I see from school the next day that I last saw the previous day. Whee.
We had racial harmony day celebrations and community service day in school on Wednesday. 05A01 was probably the only class in the whole school who bothered to turn up in ethnic costumes! I borrowed a lavender baju kurong from Atiqah, and had people staring at me the whole day. Everybody looked ethnic enough, and Beetsma and Khairi looked stunning in gold cos they were getting married! Beets is so hot hot!!
For community service, A01 and A02 shared 14 kids that were mostly 6 to 7 years old, and we played with them the whole day. Taught them songs, played games then there was some performance in LT5, and lunch for them and more interaction. I had to spell R-Y-A-N with my butt for "lying that I'm a handsome boy", and Janvin and me concluded that the school had only one song (Uptown Girl) to play for all the occasions.
I think by the end of everything, everyone had their own special kids that made it so memorable. Mine was this little boy named Bonson. He followed me everywhere and I followed him everywhere too. He's not one of those cute little kids, but he's so much more endearing and sweet that you can't help but love him. Some girl with a video-cam requested that I "interview" Bonson on how he found our school and the activities and stuff. He said he enjoyed playing with me and at the end of the questions, he kissed me!! AAAHHHHH!!
It was kinda sad when it was time for him to go. I gave him my number on a piece of paper cos he said he wanted to ask his mum to bring us along to Science Centre. Haha I really don't know what I was doing when I frantically asked Qiling for a piece of paper just so I could write my number down. I think my heart really melted whenever he automatically comes over and demand that I hold his hand... Gosh I'm seriously considering giving up teaching in a secondary school and going over to nursery or something like that. Haha!
All the geography students had to stay back for a karst landform talk after the kids left, and A01 was doing ushering for the talk. Ushering's kinda fun actually, cos I get to be friendly and weird and enthusiastic all at the same time. The talk was one of the clearest geography lectures that I ever had, or maybe I was plain sleeping through Ms Ting's lectures.
I think maybe it's time for me to start polluting the earth. Did a NEA survey with Atiqah and the Green Link people on environmental awareness, smoking and toilets and dengue and hygiene and stuff like that. I realised that I've put in so much efforts that maybe I should start denouncing Mother Nature which I'm trying to protect, and pollute her till I accelerate climate change. I handed over Green Link presidency anyway already, and I'm quite tired of environmentalism too. Now's a good time to start adding to the waste levels in Singapore.
Rushed out of school immediately when lessons ended today, cos Yurong's dad is fetching the both of us to send Ben off to the army. We just made it in time, and said our "speeches" to Ben. Blooiee it's going to be my turn soon, and honestly, I think it's probably a heart-wrenching thing to have your close friends going into army and you won't get to hang out with them for the next 2 years.
Oh well at least Ben's going in to slack his guts out in army anyway. Matthew, Yurong and me headed to Changi Village for nasi lemak after that, then drove down to Bugis area to explore funky shops selling stuff like bimbotic, pinkish-flowery electric guitars. Headed back to Bishan and went to Biru's house for a short while, in which she nail-polished my nails white. It looks like liquid paper solidified on my nails.
And I led worship today. I went totally off-pitch for one entire chorus, missed the openings of songs, sang like really bad and started shivering on stage. I was still terrified and in shock for half an hour after worship was over. But who cares? It's over already and I sang my heart out even though it sounded crap vocally.
Biru did the ice breaking game in order to extract the key out from the ice. Was quite okay, except that my group probably broke all the rules of the game cos you weren't allowed to smash the ice on the floor and you weren't allowed to dirty the floor, and we did. "We" is more powerful than "me". Doesn't that summarise the entire 40 Days of Community?? Oh yeah me and Della will be acting this Sunday.
I'm tired, even though I'm getting 8 hours of sleep everyday. That's such a far cry from my previous sleeping habits, when I do 4 or 5 hours everyday. So why in the world am I still tired?? Blah I'm going to bed.
Wednesday, 5 July 2006
MY NOSE AND MY EYES ARE SOGGY. Yesh absolutely soggy. I caught some germs in school and now I have a dreadful cold. My eyes are puffy and red and watery and SOGGY LIKE SOGGY FRIES. My nose can't seem to stop running, and I keep dabbing it with tissue paper the whole day, so it's swollen and sore and SOGGY LIKE A WET TOWEL.
I used up like 7 packets of tissue today! I finished Rongyao's packet, almost finished Jaslyn's packet, finished 4 packets which I bought from the drinks stall uncle, and another packet that I found at Jericho. And that's not counting that huge roll of toilet paper that I stole from the female toilet at the Oasis! Haha of course I couldn't have finished that, but I think I contributed quite a large percentage to Singapore's collected waste today.
White, soggy, papery stuff flooding all the bins. Full of sticky mucus. White white white stuff. OH GOSH THAT'S SICK.
Anyway, school started today after my common tests ended yesterday. Ms Ting had the first period, and she basically lamented about our Geography paper, and how we submitted essays that lack depth and quality and whatever. Haha it was quite okay to me cos I was in a bad mood and was already starting to feel sick. What a way to start the day.
We got back our Maths today! I flunked it again, got 30 something which was almost similar to my first common test this year. And I feel so stupid at myself!! What's that? I spent DAYS slogging all those integration and differentials and complex numbers and statistics. Then I happily blanked out during my actual paper. UGH UGH UGH. I forgot my series summation formulae, then I forgot that I had to de-permutate, then I lost like a huge sum of marks to carelessness, AND I SPENT 3 DAYS DOING COMPLEX NUMBERS AND THEN DID SOMETHING FUNNY TO THE QUESTION AND I COULDN'T ANSWER IT. Bloody bookie bash blooie bafoolus.
Atiqah sat down with me to go through our papers together. The more we did, the more I felt so stupid. I mean, it's partly my fault too, cos I didn't study some topics and that amounted to 10 marks or so too, but I still feel so dumb. We took the table in the library that faced the grilled windows, and both of us felt like caged birds. HAHA.
Speaking of library, I went to borrow some Geography books today! Ms Ting recommended to us some guides that were available in the library, and I happened to find three of them! Some series of topics called Access to Geography, and I felt like being a mugger, so I borrowed all of them. Ahh she'll be pleased that people are borrowing Geog books and the school admin will give the Geog department more money to spend on books.
Eh yup. I didn't realise it, but I've spent my past 3 weeks of my holidays at KAP. 3 weeks. KAP. Practically everyday was spent there studying. They've been repeating the same music from the same CD everyday, and yesterday was the first time that they changed it. Haha! But KAP's great. I can concentrate there. Mugging with Yurong and Rong and the rest of her friends, or with some of my classmates, or most of the time I'm alone.
Got to meet new people too! Yesh I'm there so often, so I had better have some funky incidents there. There's of course, Yurong's friends, then there was this NJCian whom I had a "staring contest" with. Haha! She was like, 2 tables opposite me on some day, and I happened to look at her while thinking about Geog, and she was looking in my way too, so for the next 8 hours we alternated looks at each other and seeing who will break the stare first. Then there were the 2 MGS girls that I gave marshmallows to, and some hyperactive kids every other day.
Okie here's something that was most impactful in my time at KAP. A ROBBERY TOOK PLACE! Yep. Two days ago, I was there as usual, and this Malay guy in his 20s walked in and sat opposite me. He kept looking at me and at the couple next to me, so I stared back at him (cos I'm the best at staring). Basically he loitered around for half an hour, before making a sudden move at the guy next to me! Took his wallet and phone and ran for the door.
Crap the first thing that came to my mind was it's a practical joke! Haha silly me. I only realised that the robbery happened like 30 seconds after, and of course the guy next to me had a much better reaction time than me. He sprang up, chase after the guy and came back with his belongings 10 minutes later. Apparently the robber was handed over to some security guard somewhere.
Robbery at KAP in lunch hours! Whoo that's a first in my life. And what was scary was that I left my phone in the exact same position as the guy next to me. On the table with my focus on my notes rather than anywhere else. But the guy next to me had a much better phone model of course, but apparently the robber picked the wrong guy cos he looked atheletic and had a much faster lag-time.
My most meaningful thing that happened, however, was yesterday. This 2 guys came to my table and started talking to me about this new seminar that Singapore Youth For Christ is having. I recognised one of them who was the emcee for the Da Vinci Code seminar the last time! So we had a casual talk about Christianity, getting to know more about each other and stuff. To me, it's amazing how you can make friends with strangers, but they share the same faith with you. Whee ha.
I spent quite some time coming up with the Green Link EXCO registration forms last week. Gave it out to the juniors today, cos Green Link's camp is this weekend. Questions that I found extremely enticing were "Which do you prefer: tomato soup or mushroom soup?" Haha! I can't wait to get the responses back! Utter stupidity! I really couldn't resist including an entire section of nonsensical questions.
Resumed tuition with Hai Hao from this week onwards. He's put on so much more weight now! After tuition I played that Hello Kitty game! There's this computer game called Hello Kitty Bubblegum or something like that, some kiddy game collection that featured Hello Kitties which En Ning plays. I tried the squirrel-with-trampoline game where you're supposed to keep bouncing the squirrel up to get the ice cream. FUNKY.
I can't understand Element TD. It's this kill-the-monster game that Ben and Ke You and Jon and even Lurong who thinks it's fun. It's just monsters walking down the lane and volcanoes blasting at them, and you have to build more volcanoes to kill more of them and it repeats itself 60 times. The monsters are all different, and they emerge from some waterfall like lumbering idiots, and the last "monster" is Ronald McDonald who has the strongest armour. HAHA that's so aimless! At least in Hello Kitty Bubblegum, the Kitty or the squirrel goes somewhere.
Lurong commented yet again that I fall sick easily. She thinks that Nutseed might be the cause of all my cold attacks or fever or sore throat or whatever. Well, come to think of it yes I've fallen sick more often in the past two years, ever since I got Nutseed two Christmas-es ago. Then I told her that it's almost 2 years already and Nutseed might die soon anyway... THEN I STOPPED MYSELF IN HORROR. Nutseed dying? Noooooooooooo! I'll be absolutely heart-broken and wrecked!!
Then I immediately thought of the last time Yurong said nonchalantly that she wish her favourite show "would end soon cos it's getting quite draggy...", then I pointed out to her that it's ending in 2 weeks. Haha.
Maybe you really do take things for granted after a while, especially when they've played an everpresent role in your life. I mean, I can boast to the whole world that I never ever take for granted the precious things in my life (which I often does anyway). But it's really a humbling experience to realise that maybe you've indeed trivialised the importance of something beloved.
I'm thinking a lot recently. I've been thinking about my past experiences and how each time I've disappointed someone by not keeping my end of my promises. It's dastardly easy to spray my words everywhere and not think about it, but when you actually do disappoint someone, that look on the other person's face sure isn't nice. In the midst of talking to Jaslyn today, I had my humiliating tendencies again. They are surprisingly normal recently. It pains me to just describe my actions, to relate my emotions and relive those memories. I think I'm really monstrous and hideous and outrageous and everything negative. Oh crap. And again I try and escape by trivialising my actions, trying to make it sound nonchalant and normal, trying to make it sound as if I did all those without giving a second thought.
I feel tormented by my nose. It cannot stop running. Kai Jie says my timing for 2.4km is quite good, so my nose's stamina will be quite good too and it'll run on for quite some time. How shameless a pun, to describe it in KaiJ's words. And he's prophetically true too, cos it's been leaking for the whole day.
I used up like 7 packets of tissue today! I finished Rongyao's packet, almost finished Jaslyn's packet, finished 4 packets which I bought from the drinks stall uncle, and another packet that I found at Jericho. And that's not counting that huge roll of toilet paper that I stole from the female toilet at the Oasis! Haha of course I couldn't have finished that, but I think I contributed quite a large percentage to Singapore's collected waste today.
White, soggy, papery stuff flooding all the bins. Full of sticky mucus. White white white stuff. OH GOSH THAT'S SICK.
Anyway, school started today after my common tests ended yesterday. Ms Ting had the first period, and she basically lamented about our Geography paper, and how we submitted essays that lack depth and quality and whatever. Haha it was quite okay to me cos I was in a bad mood and was already starting to feel sick. What a way to start the day.
We got back our Maths today! I flunked it again, got 30 something which was almost similar to my first common test this year. And I feel so stupid at myself!! What's that? I spent DAYS slogging all those integration and differentials and complex numbers and statistics. Then I happily blanked out during my actual paper. UGH UGH UGH. I forgot my series summation formulae, then I forgot that I had to de-permutate, then I lost like a huge sum of marks to carelessness, AND I SPENT 3 DAYS DOING COMPLEX NUMBERS AND THEN DID SOMETHING FUNNY TO THE QUESTION AND I COULDN'T ANSWER IT. Bloody bookie bash blooie bafoolus.
Atiqah sat down with me to go through our papers together. The more we did, the more I felt so stupid. I mean, it's partly my fault too, cos I didn't study some topics and that amounted to 10 marks or so too, but I still feel so dumb. We took the table in the library that faced the grilled windows, and both of us felt like caged birds. HAHA.
Speaking of library, I went to borrow some Geography books today! Ms Ting recommended to us some guides that were available in the library, and I happened to find three of them! Some series of topics called Access to Geography, and I felt like being a mugger, so I borrowed all of them. Ahh she'll be pleased that people are borrowing Geog books and the school admin will give the Geog department more money to spend on books.
Eh yup. I didn't realise it, but I've spent my past 3 weeks of my holidays at KAP. 3 weeks. KAP. Practically everyday was spent there studying. They've been repeating the same music from the same CD everyday, and yesterday was the first time that they changed it. Haha! But KAP's great. I can concentrate there. Mugging with Yurong and Rong and the rest of her friends, or with some of my classmates, or most of the time I'm alone.
Got to meet new people too! Yesh I'm there so often, so I had better have some funky incidents there. There's of course, Yurong's friends, then there was this NJCian whom I had a "staring contest" with. Haha! She was like, 2 tables opposite me on some day, and I happened to look at her while thinking about Geog, and she was looking in my way too, so for the next 8 hours we alternated looks at each other and seeing who will break the stare first. Then there were the 2 MGS girls that I gave marshmallows to, and some hyperactive kids every other day.
Okie here's something that was most impactful in my time at KAP. A ROBBERY TOOK PLACE! Yep. Two days ago, I was there as usual, and this Malay guy in his 20s walked in and sat opposite me. He kept looking at me and at the couple next to me, so I stared back at him (cos I'm the best at staring). Basically he loitered around for half an hour, before making a sudden move at the guy next to me! Took his wallet and phone and ran for the door.
Crap the first thing that came to my mind was it's a practical joke! Haha silly me. I only realised that the robbery happened like 30 seconds after, and of course the guy next to me had a much better reaction time than me. He sprang up, chase after the guy and came back with his belongings 10 minutes later. Apparently the robber was handed over to some security guard somewhere.
Robbery at KAP in lunch hours! Whoo that's a first in my life. And what was scary was that I left my phone in the exact same position as the guy next to me. On the table with my focus on my notes rather than anywhere else. But the guy next to me had a much better phone model of course, but apparently the robber picked the wrong guy cos he looked atheletic and had a much faster lag-time.
My most meaningful thing that happened, however, was yesterday. This 2 guys came to my table and started talking to me about this new seminar that Singapore Youth For Christ is having. I recognised one of them who was the emcee for the Da Vinci Code seminar the last time! So we had a casual talk about Christianity, getting to know more about each other and stuff. To me, it's amazing how you can make friends with strangers, but they share the same faith with you. Whee ha.
I spent quite some time coming up with the Green Link EXCO registration forms last week. Gave it out to the juniors today, cos Green Link's camp is this weekend. Questions that I found extremely enticing were "Which do you prefer: tomato soup or mushroom soup?" Haha! I can't wait to get the responses back! Utter stupidity! I really couldn't resist including an entire section of nonsensical questions.
Resumed tuition with Hai Hao from this week onwards. He's put on so much more weight now! After tuition I played that Hello Kitty game! There's this computer game called Hello Kitty Bubblegum or something like that, some kiddy game collection that featured Hello Kitties which En Ning plays. I tried the squirrel-with-trampoline game where you're supposed to keep bouncing the squirrel up to get the ice cream. FUNKY.
I can't understand Element TD. It's this kill-the-monster game that Ben and Ke You and Jon and even Lurong who thinks it's fun. It's just monsters walking down the lane and volcanoes blasting at them, and you have to build more volcanoes to kill more of them and it repeats itself 60 times. The monsters are all different, and they emerge from some waterfall like lumbering idiots, and the last "monster" is Ronald McDonald who has the strongest armour. HAHA that's so aimless! At least in Hello Kitty Bubblegum, the Kitty or the squirrel goes somewhere.
Lurong commented yet again that I fall sick easily. She thinks that Nutseed might be the cause of all my cold attacks or fever or sore throat or whatever. Well, come to think of it yes I've fallen sick more often in the past two years, ever since I got Nutseed two Christmas-es ago. Then I told her that it's almost 2 years already and Nutseed might die soon anyway... THEN I STOPPED MYSELF IN HORROR. Nutseed dying? Noooooooooooo! I'll be absolutely heart-broken and wrecked!!
Then I immediately thought of the last time Yurong said nonchalantly that she wish her favourite show "would end soon cos it's getting quite draggy...", then I pointed out to her that it's ending in 2 weeks. Haha.
Maybe you really do take things for granted after a while, especially when they've played an everpresent role in your life. I mean, I can boast to the whole world that I never ever take for granted the precious things in my life (which I often does anyway). But it's really a humbling experience to realise that maybe you've indeed trivialised the importance of something beloved.
I'm thinking a lot recently. I've been thinking about my past experiences and how each time I've disappointed someone by not keeping my end of my promises. It's dastardly easy to spray my words everywhere and not think about it, but when you actually do disappoint someone, that look on the other person's face sure isn't nice. In the midst of talking to Jaslyn today, I had my humiliating tendencies again. They are surprisingly normal recently. It pains me to just describe my actions, to relate my emotions and relive those memories. I think I'm really monstrous and hideous and outrageous and everything negative. Oh crap. And again I try and escape by trivialising my actions, trying to make it sound nonchalant and normal, trying to make it sound as if I did all those without giving a second thought.
I feel tormented by my nose. It cannot stop running. Kai Jie says my timing for 2.4km is quite good, so my nose's stamina will be quite good too and it'll run on for quite some time. How shameless a pun, to describe it in KaiJ's words. And he's prophetically true too, cos it's been leaking for the whole day.
Sunday, 2 July 2006
My cousin and my aunt arrived last night to stayover. My cousin's hyperactive, but she's so adorable that she makes up for whatever horrors that she may bring along. I'm very happy.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and ended up with a foul mood the whole day. Totally grumpy and my parents had to drag me out for breakfast with them. I'm very sad.
Nutseed is looking so much better now. I think she recovered by herself or something miraculous happened. She's eating and much more lively now. Tried to pick her up just now but she was squirming so much that she bit me. But I'm very happy.
Went to KAP in the morning to study. What's new? I go there practically everyday just to study. I haven't gotten sick of that place yet, but I'm definitely tired of having to study everyday. I'm very sad.
Came back to Bishan in the afternoon cos me and Joel are meeting Sarah and Adriel. Walking on the way from the bus-stop to corps, I saw a black-naped oriole. I think they're the most handsome-looking bird in Singapore. And they're not that uncommon, so I can practically see 3 or 4 in a week. I'm very happy.
I can't pronounce "Rick Warren" without it sounding like Wick Lauren or Rick Wauwen or Lick Warren. I'm very sad.
Went to Jericho for a short while, then I left the place feeling even more depressed before I went in. After a while I decided to go back to KAP to study again cos I didn't feel like going home. It's kinda stupid travelling back to where I was in the morning. I'm very sad.
I like Brave New World. I think it's pure brilliance of Huxley to come up with so many funky scientific ideas and making up the entire fictitious World State, then he goes on to ridicule it and present it's flaws of that dystopia. I'm very happy.
Usually I try and see the better side of people as much as possible. But recently I think my perspectives are focusing so much on the flaws of people around me. I'm very sad.
I realised that I've gotten more and more short-tempered. I'm very sad.
I think my life is so damn screwed up. Or rather, I think I'm screwing other people's lives up. I'm very sad.
I love Janvin for telling me that the word "italicised" exist. I love Haikel for providing the new Indian Dance president's contact number. I love Adrian (although he meant it for Jaslyn) for informing me the chapters excluded for BNW. I'm very happy.
I'll be even more busy after common tests. Schedules and meetings and things to do all piling up one after another the moment I end my Lit paper on Tuesday. I'm very sad.
Sometimes I'm of the impression that the whole world is trying to trip me on my heels. Sometimes I think nobody in this world truly understands what I feel, except God. I'm very sad.
I think somebody once told me before that her life is filled with 2 emotions only: either happy or sad. Can't remember who, but this is exactly what I'm feeling now. Each day now is filled with both happy stuff and sad stuff. I feel like retreating to Alaska and be a hermit, but at the same time I'm quite content with my life now. Oh shoots.
Today shall be a sad day, since I'm more sad than happy.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today and ended up with a foul mood the whole day. Totally grumpy and my parents had to drag me out for breakfast with them. I'm very sad.
Nutseed is looking so much better now. I think she recovered by herself or something miraculous happened. She's eating and much more lively now. Tried to pick her up just now but she was squirming so much that she bit me. But I'm very happy.
Went to KAP in the morning to study. What's new? I go there practically everyday just to study. I haven't gotten sick of that place yet, but I'm definitely tired of having to study everyday. I'm very sad.
Came back to Bishan in the afternoon cos me and Joel are meeting Sarah and Adriel. Walking on the way from the bus-stop to corps, I saw a black-naped oriole. I think they're the most handsome-looking bird in Singapore. And they're not that uncommon, so I can practically see 3 or 4 in a week. I'm very happy.
I can't pronounce "Rick Warren" without it sounding like Wick Lauren or Rick Wauwen or Lick Warren. I'm very sad.
Went to Jericho for a short while, then I left the place feeling even more depressed before I went in. After a while I decided to go back to KAP to study again cos I didn't feel like going home. It's kinda stupid travelling back to where I was in the morning. I'm very sad.
I like Brave New World. I think it's pure brilliance of Huxley to come up with so many funky scientific ideas and making up the entire fictitious World State, then he goes on to ridicule it and present it's flaws of that dystopia. I'm very happy.
Usually I try and see the better side of people as much as possible. But recently I think my perspectives are focusing so much on the flaws of people around me. I'm very sad.
I realised that I've gotten more and more short-tempered. I'm very sad.
I think my life is so damn screwed up. Or rather, I think I'm screwing other people's lives up. I'm very sad.
I love Janvin for telling me that the word "italicised" exist. I love Haikel for providing the new Indian Dance president's contact number. I love Adrian (although he meant it for Jaslyn) for informing me the chapters excluded for BNW. I'm very happy.
I'll be even more busy after common tests. Schedules and meetings and things to do all piling up one after another the moment I end my Lit paper on Tuesday. I'm very sad.
Sometimes I'm of the impression that the whole world is trying to trip me on my heels. Sometimes I think nobody in this world truly understands what I feel, except God. I'm very sad.
I think somebody once told me before that her life is filled with 2 emotions only: either happy or sad. Can't remember who, but this is exactly what I'm feeling now. Each day now is filled with both happy stuff and sad stuff. I feel like retreating to Alaska and be a hermit, but at the same time I'm quite content with my life now. Oh shoots.
Today shall be a sad day, since I'm more sad than happy.
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