It's not the end of the year yet, but if I have to define 2015 by one word only, I would be quite torn equally between "change" and "friendship". Since this is my blog and this is my opinion, I'm not going to try and force myself to choose! You get both definitions, whether you like it or not haha.
"Change" because there really are too many changes in my life since the start of this year! I went to another church for 6~9 months; I resigned from my previous employment and started a new one; I am now in another Salvation Army corps after spending all my life in my previous; I took up part-time graduate studies; I felt bold enough to travel alone for a week in Sydney! They are significant because I would have never thought myself in such positions at the start of this year, and these are seasons that I've never found myself in before. It honestly felt as though I am constantly in transition every two months or so, and I cannot even say with certainty if things will continue next year as they are now!
"Friendship" is somewhat more contentious, mostly because I do not think of myself as a very good friend to have. I've always thought myself as rather individualistic, and I have no hesitation to do stuff by myself where others might do with a group of friends. But this year I'm privileged to have people in my life who didn't mind me being in their lives, and for some of whom I was actually able to find solace and comfort in. And I'm always of the opinion that the older I get, the less interested I am to keep friends around me because it takes dedication and commitment to keep friendships. Strangely, I find myself making the effort to keep people in my life, rather than reject all social engagement as I always do.
In related news, I've sprained my right ankle under very strange and mysterious circumstances. It's too embarrassing to tell how it happened, but my ankle is swollen to an unusual size that I'm not at all accustomed to. I have no choice but to resort to slow hobbling as my main mode of getting around, and I've never been more thankful of my (dis)ability and my (im)mobility to enjoy the world at a slower pace.
"Change" because there really are too many changes in my life since the start of this year! I went to another church for 6~9 months; I resigned from my previous employment and started a new one; I am now in another Salvation Army corps after spending all my life in my previous; I took up part-time graduate studies; I felt bold enough to travel alone for a week in Sydney! They are significant because I would have never thought myself in such positions at the start of this year, and these are seasons that I've never found myself in before. It honestly felt as though I am constantly in transition every two months or so, and I cannot even say with certainty if things will continue next year as they are now!
"Friendship" is somewhat more contentious, mostly because I do not think of myself as a very good friend to have. I've always thought myself as rather individualistic, and I have no hesitation to do stuff by myself where others might do with a group of friends. But this year I'm privileged to have people in my life who didn't mind me being in their lives, and for some of whom I was actually able to find solace and comfort in. And I'm always of the opinion that the older I get, the less interested I am to keep friends around me because it takes dedication and commitment to keep friendships. Strangely, I find myself making the effort to keep people in my life, rather than reject all social engagement as I always do.
In related news, I've sprained my right ankle under very strange and mysterious circumstances. It's too embarrassing to tell how it happened, but my ankle is swollen to an unusual size that I'm not at all accustomed to. I have no choice but to resort to slow hobbling as my main mode of getting around, and I've never been more thankful of my (dis)ability and my (im)mobility to enjoy the world at a slower pace.